hmm

somehow images of her still randomly flit through my mind... it's something i can't help. i miss her and i wonder how she's doing. memories still linger and i can't help but want to see her again. i hope she still remembers. i hope she never forgets...i will see her again.

ian you talk too much. when have you become so analytical and philosophical. eat a carrot.

anyway i ran out of cash a couple of days ago. like really ran out. Made a mistake of paying by nets for 16 bucks worth of grocery, leaving 11 dollars in my bank. now i can't draw that out either. what a bitch. so i've been staying home, eating cookhouse food and visiting the canteen a hell lot less. been running lots this week... feels good to run everyday instead of sitting at the computer doing admin work the whole day. training for my gold as well as AHM. my 3rd year anni just pass... was on the 29th. got a major screwing cause i didn't do anything about it. well i didn't have money. what do you expect. nasty fight. but everything's alright.

the guys ain't doing anything tonight... i guess. ian's on icq.. cai jus asked me to play pool but turned him down.. i really want to cai baby. but i'm broke. hurhur. my coms being a bitch by having major pop ups. i can't even check my hotmail. oh well. anyway take care. i'll be zouking next wednesday. it's sort of compulsory cause lor's involved in some event. chicago u. 16 bucks.

jianhong's friend TAN Y X
1 SAF TPT Bn
HMCT PC 1

(it's always jianhong's friend. but only lau and cai would understand. oh and of course, the bikini babe on uberture)

the missing one

hello.....i actually have access to this too okay...caiblogger...wtf. anyway thanks shaun...mr getting busy all of a sudden...k better busy than brooding... btw im the dude humping the lion...shudve got payment for that right?. anyways....course starting on monday..so cai's gonna whacked out with shit to do..ian's stoning at home. greg's the guardcom..(im beginning to think greg got 7 for screwing something up) every damn week also guard...heh.. shaun's happy but poor.. jianhong's gonna spend the days revisiting heng chun. lau's mounting and dismounting like a whore... but alls good i guess....water's boiling and im upstairs..very safe huh..lol....




i dont know how this goes...

friend of frank, shaun,greg and ian.
School Of Military Intelligence
Recce Wing Instructor..
Saikang Warrior.
Kancheong Spider

i think i'm damn bored. at the airport now, using the free internet access(please limit to 15 mins per session). everyone's still asleep!!!

oh yeh girls. they seem to be the hot topic these days. yesterday i went out with someone and her drive really inspired me. shes attached no doubt, but her guy seemed to just fall in place nicely in her plans, like if hes there hes there, if he's not i have a whole lot more to accomplish so it doesn't really matter. i might not have phrased it the way she wants it but that seems to be the general idea.

don't wanna say stuff like i'm not gonna get attached anytime soon cos i hate girls or what, but i don't see that happening too. oh yeh i have a bet with eugene. he said he won't get attached in uni! haha so i bet 50 bucks with him that happens. increments every year so uni 4 years, 50x4=200 if he doesn;t get a gf in 4 years i'll have to pay him 200. if he does, say end of 2 years he'll pay up 100 .. i'm quite sure i'll win. KNOWING eugene =o)

my flights in a few hours but i'm not done packing yet. shit somehow i don't really care. .. something wrong with me these days. feel like i'm turning into a bo-chup shaun. ha. bye guys till next time.

ps: natually, you'll will be curious who i was out with? not too hard to guess.

what's up with everyone saying they're losers with girls. come on. you're not a loser if you have like, so many so many girls around you. pls. and knowing you dudes, and you knowing your own damn selves you know you're no losers.

why call yourself losers? just because you have no girl? girls, are not worth having as girlfriends if you don't feel that chemistry with them. girls, are not worth having if they don't give a damn about you. so, if there's no one that fits the above, you don't have to have girls. shaun, i think the term you're finding is 'fling', to replace 'M-O Buddies'. what you all want are flings. and my friends, you won't get any flings if the girl doesn't wanna 'fling'.

i'm fine now being single(anybody wanna have a fling? haha.), i don't really need a girlfriend now and i'm not actively searching. ok, that sounded a little gay. hur. if she comes along then..she'll come along if not i'm fine. having said that, don't go round having flings when you know they want something more steady. imagine or think about a time when this would happen, feel how screwed up that is. haha, i feel so morally upright now when i know i'm not.

alright alright, my topic for today is obviously on us and girls so, i'll just carry on then. having had a nice discussion with my army mates over lunch just that day, we all realise that most guys are innately, pricks. haha. yeah, think about the last time u thought that someone's girl was hot and you wanted her. or when u think someone is going after this girl and suddenly you have the hots for her, only to back off when u realise you're the only one going for her? a few girls come to mind? you're not the only one guys. guys have this, predatory instinct, like a thrill for the hunt, the love for a competition. your adrenaline start pumping all over when you see a chance to compete with another male specimen. the feeling you get when you 'win' him is great. you have showed that you're better than him. more worthy. but are you really? maybe. maybe not. you're just being, male. (i see guys laughing, i see girls bringing out the knives.) don't worry girls out there! most guys do come to their senses after being knocked head over heels by that special lady and find 'her' who they are really interested in. in the end, if you don't really feel for her, then don't lead her on. actually, i'm not really a pro on this, i'm just giving my 2c worth.

anyway, i have a field camp starting up this sunday right till next saturday! so that means i won't be out anytime soon. till next week!

jianhong's friend Tan Z Y
BMTC Sch 1
Bravo Company
Platoon 3 Commander

(jianhong's friend tan z y is currently just living out his army days. he yearns to go to uni though he can't stop thinking about the problem of being permanently broke when SAF stops paying him. he enjoys both male and female company, especially pretty ones so don't be shy(males need not apply). he thinks he might enjoy flings but doesn't see any in the near future. he also has an irritating habit of talking too much crap.)

hey guys i think my comps screwed. yest it was raining and i got caught in the rain. when i got home, i was drenched and my itchy fingers went to turn on the comp. the fan hummed and the comp started normally. afterwhich i discovered the fan knob was not adjusted properly, so i opened the casing and stretched my finger in to adjust the damn freaking knot. "tiwwwwwwwwwwww, tiiiii ti tiiiii ti tiiii ti". the screen disappeared and i just short circuited the damn thing.

sigh. looks like i have to send it to the comp shop for some repairs. going taiwan tmr so i think it'll only be done when i'm back. moral of the story: do not touch the comp with wet itchy fingers.

PS : anyone can repair for free? =o)

i must get in on this

Morning ladies n gents. keep telling myself to post more cos i constantly hear shauns voice in my head i.e "no one is posting anything! post more" haha

anyway of all the ppl to see at SAFTI boat shed. was doing water pt for some of the 3rd div dudes having tiger trail practise ( yes, a 3SG dg water pt hmm... ) n all of a sudden a fleet of rovers appear. wondering wtf is gg on i lifted my ass of my field chair n put my extremely exciting 'da vinci's code' on it n prepared myself to receive some big shot n guess what. out of the dust cloud projected a familiar voice "oi greg" haha n yes it was none other then everyone's favourite 2lt SIM jh haha on his S2 course ground recce. haha i provided him with cold water knw haha *awe* wtf heh. damn gay

hmm was mambo any good? heard many ppl were there yesterday eh. i apologise for my absence dudes n dudettes. anyway yeah mr S2 is leaving for taiwan alr. not sure if i will get to meet him b4 he leave but yeah, he will be missed haha. ok must jump on the band wagon for ending posts


shuan n jh's friend
3RD SERGEANT S G NG
5TH SINGAPORE INFANTRY REGIMENT
PL5 SEC4 COMMANDER/ APS SIR!

haha ltr guys have a good one!

the guys are at mambo, lau ian mig and kenmin(?!!). and i'm home, studying, well kind of. just looking thru my notes and feel like puking already. have a damn sore throat its damn pain when i swallow. sigh and i feel so sick thinking of the six-hr test tmr. and they say its not enough.. really? i'll see tmr.

going taiwan on sat, but somehow i feel i'm not ready. feel like i have unfinished business to settle. maybe its the half-read angels and demons. nope its not that. maybe its the half-packed room of mine. nope its not that. maybe its the weak state of my body i feel i'm in. nope its not that either. sigh what can it be? *looks to the heavens for an answer but only sees the spoilt ceiling light i have yet to replace(after 2 yrs)*

hello! like whos the ones with gfs? "yeah you're a loser with girls. that means that me, ian, greg, cai, lau-ey are faggots who love boys. " shaun stop complaining when u have a gf!

the only person like me is prob ian. thats all, even ian has charmaine. =o)



shaun's friend, s j h
1gds singapore battalion
dys2

yah la

yeah you're a loser with girls. that means that me, ian, greg, cai, lau-ey are faggots who love boys.

anyway i did a house visit today for some guy who kept bugging me with stay-outs... spot checked him on the eve before his birthday.. haha... but... he had a pretty sister. like really. those jap-ish ah lian type. but remarkably pretty. As me, ian and lau conversed the other night, maybe it's time for lian girlfriends...haha.

Tmr will have a 8/10km run, in prep for AHM..... think i'll start training for my IPPT gold... then i'll be the only one in my COY to get a gold.  

 
jh's friend Tan Y X
HMCT PC 1
1 SAF TPT Bn

today was busy sunday !! i just woke up. feeling feverish and my nose is dripping buckets. think all the rushing today just made my runny nose worse. woke up today, finished the papers and rushed out to meet eugene to buy his jersey , shop and walk around.. supposed to meet 1st3months clique at 130 but everyone was late and so was i ! managed to meet them at 4 after buying 2 cds in my fave that cd shop haha(anyone wanna help me buy cds? i'm collecting receipts so i can get the membership PLEASE HELP). but i had to rush off at 415 cos i was running late, supposed to meet serene at 430 at parkland. reached parkland at 5 and paid for the balls cos i made her wait ! after 3 baskets shared and backs aching after all the swinging,(i think my swing is finally improving!) she sent me to meet my parents for dinner at united sqaure cos its my mom's bday. but there was a bloody jam at still road so we chatted quite a bit. finally, i reached united square and the food was damn worth it ! it was this international seafood buffet for 35++pax and there were like so much food. and SOUP! i love soup, they clear your mind. i drank more soup than i ever did my entire life.

yeh and there was this eye candy on the table to the right. haha this babe wearing a black spag top and black jeans. hot shit. yeh that made dinner much more enjoyable and when i wasn't looking at my delicious soup, i was looking to the right haha. oh well but like i would have done anything right. i'm a loser with girls. (my sis would have laughed at me if i had launched an attack). thats all for today!!

i think my hair is damn long. ian and shaun looking so sian as usual. eugene looking at the skirt of a pretty babe that just walked past. squeeze, lor and eileen looking pretty (or trying). 

eugene and his latest squeeze. shaun and his freaky hand. 

CAI MOUNTING THE LION . 

! 

gosh, just got back from newton supper with mel cherlyn zhengchang joshua moses weihong. thumper was fun! although it kinda sucked at first but the music got better and we were just fooling around. it never felt so good clubbing in a long time, but i guess its nice company + nice music and nice atmosphere all combined together! so unlike fucked up phuture on wednesdays. had a scare in zc's evo8 when he pedalled to metal like a few times ahha. mel's mini cooper was a beauty too. sigh i want a car. guess i'll have to wait a few years. argh. oh i'll stop whining! its like freaking 4.50am now and i'm supposed to wake at 5.30am. like wtf am i supposed to wake up right, might as well don't sleep haha. i'll just die tmr during the lectures la.

oh well did i mention that kim and deborah were there too ? as well as nicole julia jessi and geraldine with her fiancee. dinika and lynette were such good hosts and it turned out to be one big gathering. oh well that pretty well summed up a fun night in thumper. cya tmr guys! can't wait for tmr's big gathering. =o)

nothing

i've nothing left to write. no point talking about work here. work sucks. but since i spend like all my life in camp, there's nothing much else to write! do you really wanna know what's happening in BMTC? yeah, i thought so too.

so! what's up? how do u update that profile thingy by the side? frankie's out with julia now at some party, thanks for inviting me anyway jh but unfortunately i didn't get your reply after that(just kidding). cai the ass refuses to visit me today even though he was less than 300m away (not kidding). shaun's with san and lor while dear ol' eugene and greg are forever in camp. looks like i'm always summing up people's weeks and days for them. i'm like a recorder of sorts.

this week marks the first week of many weeks to come which i will miss mambo. not because i can't go, but coz i don't wanna. i hate feeling like a sardine in a can. i hate seeing people drown in jugs (of alcohol). i hate drunks and i'm slightly racist. but who isn't? racists may keep your hands down. thank you. oh no. good, peace-loving ian survived one pitiful week (see post below about peace). evil ian has returned

...i was born evil...

 

tsk, how provocative a topic. racism. actually, i take it back. i'm NOT RACIST. i've plenty of friends from other races and i get along so well with em. i'm just anti-asses. yeah. and they come in all shapes, sizes and races. if you're an ass, is being an asshole or is merely just acting assinine, pls just stay away, because opposites attract and... you know.

 

on to another point: me being in a leadership position, i realise that i'm unable to stand anyone who do not wish to push themselves for improvement. those who just do the bare minimum and not more. now i know how i look in front of those who lead me. i guess no leader wishes to see their subordinates do less than they're able to do. sigh.

 

but i'm not a perfect person and there's many things i wish i didn't do.

 

"to err is human"

my daily dose of alcohol. 

oh the weather outside is frightful. i still have so much work to finish sigh, think i'll spend the entire night typing out my intapsum, caos and ops order. SIGH. big sigh. it does seem like a fabulous late night doesn't it ? sent in my application for my passport on monday, and i haven't received it yet, shit i might not be able to rush it out in time. damn visa needs to be settled, and its not here! and i'm leaving next sat ! no time !

i'm bored. today i just went to DB to investigate some guy who AWOLed for a year. damn sad life. i guess you just sit around the whole day watching the paint peel off the walls. i'm trying to touch up the blog. it's still dying. can people post moreee... some cool links neighbours online and blog stickers, thanks to a certain girl..
i can't make it this saturday cause i'm doing duty. haha.. oh well. stay in camp and sleep all day. There's transport race tomorrow at SAFTI. i don't wanna go. it's so dumb. and the games we play are dumb. i wish someone could understand my pain.

not a dan brown fan.

dumdedum

haha saturday sounds like a PLAN! haha i haven met up with all u jokers for too fucking long. esp e elusive lau who is finally out on sat!
haha yes! shaun has to cheer up heh. well as usual i sit mambo out too. wednesday after wednesday i get the 'are u coming' msg but oh well. vented some of the frustrations like 10 mins ago. recuits out on some racial harmony day 'excursion' so encik n i became racially harmonised n took a walk through all the bunks flipping everything. did u knw if u throw the sponge bed hard enuff it will break into 3 separate pieces? haha. eh shaun how do i send u the link for the photos we got? u have no msn, no icq.

well ltr gents. have a gr8 racial harmony day! wtf.

sigh thats one of the ways. but only one ? or you can start searching ..

girls

problem is, the only real way to forget about one girl is to fall in love with another one.

airport! 

shaun cheer up. sigh everyone's so sad nowadays, i think its contagious. i think the main problem is girls. girls are nothing but trouble, right? lol. yeh except you claire.

105 to 282

"It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time..." it's alright... we're posting quite alot.. the last cyberpark had 282 posts... we're at 105 now.. almost there.. plus the posts are longer and more meaningful. and not porno. hurhur.. i think we should just get more people in..esp girls. haha... our clique lacks girls. two step is closed today according to ian, and i took off to cut my hair/basic test. maybe i'll take off tomorrow too. i like pool. can we play pool?
for those of you who have been bearing my cynical and masochistic view of life... thanks for listening and not being pissed off (ogay i bet most of you were).. anyway i think the main problem is more or less over, so don't ask me about it anymore.. only problem left is my future at NTU engine. haha... and maybe marine biology at university of queensland. last of all, pool calms the mind.
 

See, I dont know why I liked you so much.
I gave you all, of my trust,
I told you, I loved you,
now thats all down the drain.
Ya put me through pain,
I wanna let u know how I feel

hello ppl. think its been a really long time since i posted n an even longer time since we dudes have really gotten together to do sth. hmm or is it just me n my wierd schedule. This pic reflects one of the most recent times we managed to get an outing right n sadly it was quite long ago. chill man ian im sure this blog wun die out like e previous one eh. looking at the pic, if u minus cai n i, the remainder are currently at exactly e same place playing pool. wish i cld join em but seriously damn tired. hope sth positive comes out of tom. will post again b4 i disappear for another week. -till my brain functions properly again- greg outtt! 

"red and yellow and pink and green

purple and orange and blue..

i can sing a rainbow, sing a rainbow,

sing a rainbow tune.."

 

 

nobody's posting anymore. looks like this blog is gonna fade away just like the last one. i'll post anyway even though i've not much to say. just crap talking. i love the song there. somehow, it's peaceful. i like being in peace. what a wonderful feeling.

 

floating and drifting like a feather in the wind, 20 years has passed by in a blink of the eye. what have i done in my life? how will i live in the future? i should start thinking for my days to come.

 

finally, i guess, finally, i grow sick of phuture's wednesday crowds. actually, i grew sick of it long ago. i only loved it for the friends that i always see there, the friends i always go there with and of coz, the music. rnb. what about alcohol? no thanks. it's weird to see people indulging themselves in alcohol, getting a fake high. hello. like, what's your point. does it really taste that good? are u really enjoying yourself if u need alcohol to get high? does downing a flaming lamborghini in 5 sec really make u look cool? sure, a glass or two is a good way to start a party(and use your drink coupons), or even start a convo with that hot lil thing by the bar. by now some of you may be thinking: "hey! we are not a 'thing'!", but that's besides the point. so dear friends, pls do not drink heavily(very unhealthy), don't drink and drive(very dangerous), don't drink and flirt(very embarrassing), don't drink and dance(downright hilarious) and don't drink and puke(very messy and smelly). too much alcohol is a bad thing. and with that, the preacher has spoken. now pls pass me my lychee martini. and don't eat my lychee. cheers.

 

 

"red and yellow and pink and green

purple and orange and blue..

i can sing a rainbow, sing a rainbow,

sing a rainbow tune.."

hmm! hey guys hows everyone been ? i've been in camp for the longest while in a long while. 3 whole days! gosh i miss home so much. basically cos we have a lot of work to finish, overlays, talcs, terrain, man i love maps now. the guys in my course are really damn fun pple, cpts from joint intel dept, arc, cdo and ndu, nsmen from G5, engr and GUARDS! haha its a whole damn mix of crazy buggers. no one posts nowadays.. why ? feeling too sad with stuff ? well cheer up, whoever's feeling sad, the rain will come before the rainbow does. =o)

i cant type anything

cai is lousy

yay cai can post now. thanks to shaun. k cai listen up, these are the account information, which i hope you'll change when you get a chance. 
 
Blogger username: caiblogger
Blogger password:123456
E-mail: caiblogger@hotmail.com
Hotmail password: 123456
 
 
just wondering why noone has posted so far?

i hate outfield.

hmmm.. can anyone guess where i am? i'm in the four road junction of the PLC training area. yes right now. That's the beauty of wireless gprs modems. i'm doing some ats shit for wallaby. so i'm monitoring the vehicles travelling around singapore from this dumb place. fucking lots of big shots here... 3 crabs.. better go now.

as i am typing this, my dad's screaming at me to get out of the house. getting late. did some thinking yesterday and looking around me and my grp of friends, a sensitive breed of guys(men) have been born. the girls used to be the sensitive one, and the guys the fuck care now, now its a total reversal of roles. shit, what is this world coming to.

saturday night and at home. lil sick. lil tired from the lack of sleep for the past 3 days. never try to not sleep and then go play a full soccer match the next day(thursday). never try to slp 1 hour then immediately go for interval training(friday). never try to slp 2 hours and then immediately go for route march(saturday). no wonder i slept the whole afternoon today.

s'posed to meet jh and co. today but wasn't really feeling up to it. as jh has kindly mentioned. s'posed to chill with greg cai shaun too. but! greg decided to go with the JIE. cai went with his soccer/sailin mamas(friends). and shaun as usual is our resident sleeping handsome. sorry jh. i think i need retail therapy next week. who's up for it?

speaking of which. there's a whole bunch of movies i wanna watch. i feel sad i haven't watched spiderman 2! will source for friends who haven't watched it. anybody? super-size me looks like it'll be funny. and...many many more.

shucks. i'm the book-in duty officer tomorrow. translation: i'm supposed to be at pasir ris at 7pm to bring my recruits back into camp. wtf! that's spastic. coz it's not as if my recruits are retards who can't walk back themselves. i don't remember havin my pc follow me back into camp when i was a recruit. no more sunday night fever with the dudes at parkway tomorrow. tsk sad.

i need more money. sigh. i want to be a millionaire!

retail therapy!!! i needed that. 

yeh what was left of the sentosa outing.. 

haha just got home. the sentosa outing was cancelled and a town gathering was planned instead. but none of the guys turned up, sigh.. greg met jie, cai met ling, ian sick!(hope you're better!) shaun met the zzz monster, eugene in camp. so i just met up with sharlene and grace. man i did a lot of shopping today man, haha don't know why, maybe its the advance pay cos i'm going taiwan this month end. kenneth cole wallet, golf book, and a damn nice french cd! i spent like 2 hrs in that cd shop just listening alone, watching the world walk past, from the huge glass window in that cd shop. great day!

another of my many branches. 

HEY !! hows everyone been ? i was sick yesterday. ahha think its lack of sleep but i'm ok now.. anyway my friend told me about this worktravel thing offered by STA, where its for youths and gives you a chance to WORK AND TRAVEL in US UK and AUS! i've been looking for these kinda things for a damn long time man. just saw the website and was damn impressed. they settle accomodation, tickets and work for you.. and u basically just go there and work! its not those banking jobs la, but whatever would be fun righT? i'm planning to go once i ORD thats like mid march. Big plans huh? haha say for example, for US they offer this camp counselor thing where you join a summer camp in the US and you teach and be mentors to kids!! and you get paid too! i've experience in ropes and rappeling, so can specialise in that and they'll pay me USD1550!

"CCUSA places you at a summer camp which matches your personality, skills and interests and where you have to work for a minimum of 9 weeks from late May to Aug. When your camp assignment ends, you are free to travel independently in the USA for up to 7 weeks before you return home or continue on your international travels. The program is an ideal way to gain international work experience, make many new friends and have the Best Summer Of Your Life! "

guys i bet this beats working in a shit bank and photostat papers or working in nydc in wheelock. ahha.. or if you wanna work in the city, you can choose to work as a hotdog seller,fnb, sales.. i know it sounds fishy but heck its all for the experience righT? and you work like mon-fri and can have the weekend to travel around ! who's interested in joining me ? i'll gladly go alone too if no one is.. haha..NEW YORK here i come.
"start spreading the news.. i'm leaving today, i want to be part of it, new york, new york.. these vagabond shoes, are longing to stray, right thru the very heart of it..-frank s."

oh well this is a long post. ahah shall stop here, meeting up with ian cai shaun shar and grace later.. supposed to be a sentosa outing but for some reason or another, it was cancelled and changed to a town outing instead. CYA folks.

would you LOOK the 3 stooges down there. it's was a great time. was it the night before OCS? it's been 1 yr+ since that photo was taken. has it really been so long?

i really miss those days.

vjc 01s61/62. burnfoot terrace to lor g. eunos bus-stop. 55. girls(all of them). ponteng lectures. WC3. fail prelims/promos. eunos suppers. hokkien mee at kim's. bunking over at jh's/shaun's after supper and watching dvds. lor g to seagull walk. NS. waking up at 6. going to jh's place. taking a ride on shaun's car to OCS. anxiety mixed with joy. heavy rain. SAFTI MI. jh and me: echo. shaun: golf. jh: GUARDS. shaun: 1 SAF TPT BN. me: BMTC. friends. and more...

we've gone a long way guys. i really miss all those days. guys?

it's a wednesday night. troubled night. shaun, what's happening? lau, what's happening? sigh. supposed to go mambo or jump but i guess the mood's gone. gonna join lau now in town. brace together guys. coz we're behind you all the way.

although we never really talked much or anything, i wanna wish you all the best when you're in melb. do take care.

"the day before pride, brotherhood, pain, endurance, achievement and goals."

even though i look like shit here, i love this picture!

eagle berries and eyedrops

i took off today! after a shag 4 days of imt and range. we got 31 marksman out of 60 firers.. how power is that? combat drivers are good after all.. in my sleep i can repeat the whole Stage A B and C. firers! magazine of 4 rounds.. load and ready!... Firers! Fig. 12 Silhouette target, watch your front, WATCH YOUR FRONTTTTTTTTTT!!! I'm still feeling extremely confused. i don't even know what to do about anything. like whether to go out or stay at home. or eat or not eat. seriously. i end up sleeping most of the time.

I was just looking thru all my pictures... some scandalous(!).. some heartwarming... some sad... some happy... some that brought back extremely good memories. i miss you guys! i remember the day i got into OCS... and i called jh... and later on ian got in as well.... and jh got in... and....rest is history.. ok this post is alittle crappy but in all seriousness, that's good memories. esp when i stayed at lorong G... ok the photo will show it all..

claire... may you stay happy and have fun when you're studying in aussie! study hard k.. we'll all miss you here in sunny singapore...

lau returning to normal.. 

scary lau now. 

SOB ! yeh man. start life afresh ok ? shoo! go back to your post of being the crazy talk cock king we all know you to be. nic mok thinks i'm the crazy one but thats really your post ! can't wait for you to return to normality, but i'm sure it'll be soon.. yeh everyone's so detached now with their own problems and stuff. man i hate problems. yes jie this is where metrosexuals come and whine about girls, ARMY shit army i hate it, and in the future and far future, exams and work.

i'm so bloody shag. feel like a student all again. cool bananas =o)(claire) been at smi for the past 2 days and will be till end of this month, study everyday! lectures form 8-12 lunch for 1 hour then lectures till 6 and dinner..then night activities are study again. can u imagine 2 night snacks indented? gosh. 2?! no one's having it easy man.

we all know how sucky it is to be STUCK in fucking camp, while the world twirls around you. and i know how it feels to be stuck in fucking camp, and feeling the feeling of not being able to do anything about it. helplessness is the worst thing in the world.

bye claire! we're all gonna miss you so so so much. don't cry ok? really really sorry i can't be there tmr..

another sunday in the east

it's monday morning! euro finals are 2 hours away and just back from a chill-out session with our dearest jh frank. beside that milo/teh peng, sgpools and walking ALL the way to siglap, it's been a great time catching up with what's happening with everyone. we need more chill-out sessions, just to find out what each other is doing. i mean as friends we're supposed to listen out and help out whenever we can. bitch about everything. jokes abound. miss those days.

shaun. where are you. greg, next week. you promised. cai, can you spare a day? lau's mounting schedule is getting irritating.

jh mentioned that i should be more friendly, meet more pple. should i? i never really thought about it though. pretty comfortable with my group of friends. but honestly i've never really been pro-active about making friends. my anti-social tendencies. hurhur. i don't know. we'll see.

i've decided finally, to take up driving. when i'll start? i've no freaking idea. i'm a procrastinator. i have a car at home rotting away at night and on the weekends. it's high time i exploited this asset. let's see what else i can exploit...

i wanna start posting pix...

'i'm a free spirit. i do whatever i want, whenever i want. no one can control me. i'm a free spirit. i go wherever i want, whenever i want. no one can hold onto me.'

i love my bed!! 

SHAUN you only started thinking like that when you went out with heather. is she your source of reflection or what.. maybe you should go out with her more.. i miss you! wanted to meet you like now but you're home with lor. hope things are working out.. yep just had wild mushrooms, french fries and baked potato in jacket and sour cream in BigO and jazzy brownie in NYDC. but they didn't have french vanilla for the brownie so had to replace with chocolate icecream. life is relaxing. its a bad period now, i guess. everyone's having some bit of problems, i guess its life isn't it ? oh shit i'm gonna ramble on about life and its misgivings. the what-the-hell-are-we-living-for questions.

shit shaun you put me into this mood. all your fault. who wants to be a successful banker, businessman, lawyer? how about a bummer. they're about the same isn't it. bummers are happy cos they're carefree and stressless... i wanna be a bummer.. walking down the beaches of some island, where the clear waters converge, white sands reside, magnificent sunsets and where beautiful things happen. or in my dreams? anyone wants to live there with me ? sighhh...

shaun

"I've been watching, I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
I've been searching, I've been living
For tomorrows all my life"
- rasmus : in the shadows



hmm i was just looking at the title of our blog and i realized it's actually a freaking good title. (To me) it totally symbolizes our habits and everything we do...plus it's classy. As though it were a title for some jazz cd.
I woke up alittle while ago, feeling in a mess, as i've been these whole 2 weeks. Been busy with range and chem defence prep.. Friday was an alright day, first time i've gone down to town after camp and back on the same night(or the next morning). I went down with navin.. think lau should know who he is.. met his cousin and his cousin's girl, and isaac. The stupid bugger started asking us stuff about army and whether it's xiong or how tough officer course is. Then about half hour later we found out he's an SOF. @(*#$&$. Forced claire to meet me since she was at indochine (indosheen not indo-chine ian) and we talked abit, the most since i've known her. So sad that she's going away.. i've always had fun when she's around, except for the time she seriously wanted to burn me with a lighter when i told her not to smoke (modestos). why is everyone flying away? what's wrong with singapore.
After talking to claire i met heather for a while, while she waited for her friend and we talked about rubbish until her friend came. She's been talking to me about studying in aussie. and so was claire. and so's isaac. maybe i should go. there's nothing for me here anyway. ntu engine? no way... thing is, i've no cash. maybe if i sell goodwood park. hurhur.
my mind's in a mess, and i don't know what to do, how to continue this unproductive and unfulfilling life. I think i just need to meet up with you guys asap. and take photos. haha... called jh just now. but he's going to meet julin. bastard. bastard. bastard. you'd rather go out with julin than me? fine. bastard. haven't seen lau in ages. miss him. miss everyone. i want to play pool. when i'm sad i like pool. range again on monday and tuesday, gotta wake up at 4.15am on monday to go to camp. = w h a t a b i t c h =

"I wish you were here tonight with me to see the northern lights.
I wish you were here tonight with me.
I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning.
I wish I could have you by my side." - rasmus : still standing

Hey fellows. been a while. jus got out this morning, met jie n now im home packing up n getting ready to go back in again. Just have to endure this for another week n im thru with this confinement bull shit. haven seen the guys in ages too. must do sth next weekend alright?

Tdy did not really go the way i wanted it to. Started off ok with Jie n i watching spidey 2, which was quite good. Anyone wanna bet tt ther will be a part 3 i.e reincarnation of the green goblin =) ok back to where i was k so she told me she was to go to some vj friend's bbq later in the evening n wanted me along but i couldnt cos i have to head back tonight n my camp aint exactly in the most easily accessible of places. Furthurmore jie was like super concerned tt sam loy would be pissed if she showed up late cos she had promised her she would be there to help out. like yoo.. shouldn the feelings of ur bf who u hardly see whose time out of camp is fucking limited come first? dont i get some priority ard here anymore? i dont knw la.

hope ur having fun at ur bbq....................

HELLO ! Its sat and i'm bored.. I just woke up and deciding if i should go down to the range. Hmm.. Shaun's conducting live firing, thought i could meet up with him sigh, but no. Lau Wee Wee just mounted today, all the way till tuesday.. wtf right, weekend mount. But we had fun at the riverside yesterday! Definitely one of the more memorable riverside rants we had. =o) ahha. Yeh and he went back in to the club at 1230, so i spent 3 and a half hours waiting outside for that bloody bugger to share a cab back, to check if hes alright. Also, when i was waiting outside, this stalker suddenly msged me,"Yawn must cover mouth". haha i was like !!! No la it was Serene who just drove past. That marked a Fun but uneventful friday zouk i-did-not-want-to-go-in-cos-it-was-28-fucking-bucks outing the guys had.

Who wants to meet up today.. call me ?

for the good ol times. 

er are you talking about me ? haha i'm not enjoying myself.. i have shit up my ass too. nvm.. oh man eugene, haven't seen you so down in a long time. girls are always the root of problems. (opps, but its true.) mainly cos we guys think too much, and care too much.
sometimes we think, why can't we just like them less, and let them think about us more? why can't they be the ones giving in more? oh well all these are questions yet to be answered. eugene. don't be so sad, the only words of comfort i can put in, are brace up and be strong, don't let this bring you down.