at jamba juice store..
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
randomness
sometimes you wonder
if you'd ever get enough out of life
to be able to leave peacefully
when your time is up
would you ever bear to leave?
if you'd ever get enough out of life
to be able to leave peacefully
when your time is up
would you ever bear to leave?
Thursday, April 27, 2006
These are the days that I'll be missing
Couldn't resist blogging though my exams are tomorrow and I haven't started yet..hur hur :) Well but these are 10 things about school/hall that I will be thinking of occasionally during the holidays..here goes:
1) Esther - my guinea pig/hamster/rabbit who is retardedly fat but sweeeet
2) Alice - the black female cat with green eyes who tried to eat Esther
3) Tom - the Alpha type aggressive male cat who tried to eat both Alice and Esther
4) DotZ with seniors - "Machismo: Funky what the f*** u doing?!?!?!"
5) Hall suppers
6) Drinking sessions followed by Macs breakfast the following morning..throwing everything up by noon
7) Uncle Amir - the malay Security Guard uncle who always share with me his rolled ciggs..though he sleeps alot in the lounge especially during night shifts
8) Diving at the school pool at 3 am - got caught once by Uncle Amir
9) Taking a dump when the toilet lights suddenly go out - yes something bad happened but dun ask
10) The video footage of a naked bigfoot trying to retrieve his clothes from us in the shower - dun worry he had some newspaper on
There are moments in your life when you stop to think and wonder about the wholistic meaning of 'life' in itself..guess one day we'll all find our own answers to that :)
When was the last time you did something for the first time?
These are the days that I'll be missing.
1) Esther - my guinea pig/hamster/rabbit who is retardedly fat but sweeeet
2) Alice - the black female cat with green eyes who tried to eat Esther
3) Tom - the Alpha type aggressive male cat who tried to eat both Alice and Esther
4) DotZ with seniors - "Machismo: Funky what the f*** u doing?!?!?!"
5) Hall suppers
6) Drinking sessions followed by Macs breakfast the following morning..throwing everything up by noon
7) Uncle Amir - the malay Security Guard uncle who always share with me his rolled ciggs..though he sleeps alot in the lounge especially during night shifts
8) Diving at the school pool at 3 am - got caught once by Uncle Amir
9) Taking a dump when the toilet lights suddenly go out - yes something bad happened but dun ask
10) The video footage of a naked bigfoot trying to retrieve his clothes from us in the shower - dun worry he had some newspaper on
There are moments in your life when you stop to think and wonder about the wholistic meaning of 'life' in itself..guess one day we'll all find our own answers to that :)
When was the last time you did something for the first time?
These are the days that I'll be missing.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
thoughts.
in the midst of my hectic packing. and still undecided on which luggage bag to bring, i will pen my thoughts down.
my room is in a mess.. clothes folded and in a corner, ziplock and plastic bags all over, books in another corner, contacts solution and shampoo soap standing upright. i think my packing is almost done, documents photocopied, important stuff all bought (nissin cup noodles included).
its been a really long time.. start of year 1 in fact, when lee tempted me and poh into the level 2 gsr in SOB. we liked what we saw.. morey's paramounts seaworld! really looked like a lot of fun and so we decided to sign up just for fun. anyway can back out if we wanted to. i asked greg and shaun and ian but they decided not to go (initially) so i just went with poh and lee lam and angs. didnt really know lam then.
we went for the briefing, (heres a pic)
ok the girls were sleeping on the couch because the queue was so long. not a very glam photo haha. we finally decided on paramounts because they had space and we really waited like mad. almost fell asleep.
heres a pic of the done interview!
anyways, yeh it just seems like time has passed so fast since then. its almost been a year.. we're done with year ONE ! what makes this trip more special than all the rest that i have had, is that i planned and settled this trip from day 1 on my own. no more parents telling you what to do and planning for you..(not like they could be bothered much also, haha) from the visa, to calling thai air for cheap natas fare ticks to searching for budget airlines in US and car rental rates, and even what you bring and money also. really want to do everything properly because you're responsible for everything now.
i'm really pretty excited to get away now. i know i sound like a chinaman fobby (fresh from the boat) but im excited cos its with good friends and you just want to see if your plans will turn out right =o)
to mark cai and isaac, who still have exams. all the best and pray you have flow of thoughts and quick fingers.
to shaun ian greg poh, its gonna be a blast !
(sorry this post's not meant to be a testimonial post or something..)
finally, heres a pic, all of us here are flying to the states. lee greg bruce ian poh shaun me cheam hil and maybe hx. =o)
glhf!
my room is in a mess.. clothes folded and in a corner, ziplock and plastic bags all over, books in another corner, contacts solution and shampoo soap standing upright. i think my packing is almost done, documents photocopied, important stuff all bought (nissin cup noodles included).
its been a really long time.. start of year 1 in fact, when lee tempted me and poh into the level 2 gsr in SOB. we liked what we saw.. morey's paramounts seaworld! really looked like a lot of fun and so we decided to sign up just for fun. anyway can back out if we wanted to. i asked greg and shaun and ian but they decided not to go (initially) so i just went with poh and lee lam and angs. didnt really know lam then.
we went for the briefing, (heres a pic)
ok the girls were sleeping on the couch because the queue was so long. not a very glam photo haha. we finally decided on paramounts because they had space and we really waited like mad. almost fell asleep.
heres a pic of the done interview!
anyways, yeh it just seems like time has passed so fast since then. its almost been a year.. we're done with year ONE ! what makes this trip more special than all the rest that i have had, is that i planned and settled this trip from day 1 on my own. no more parents telling you what to do and planning for you..(not like they could be bothered much also, haha) from the visa, to calling thai air for cheap natas fare ticks to searching for budget airlines in US and car rental rates, and even what you bring and money also. really want to do everything properly because you're responsible for everything now.
i'm really pretty excited to get away now. i know i sound like a chinaman fobby (fresh from the boat) but im excited cos its with good friends and you just want to see if your plans will turn out right =o)
to mark cai and isaac, who still have exams. all the best and pray you have flow of thoughts and quick fingers.
to shaun ian greg poh, its gonna be a blast !
(sorry this post's not meant to be a testimonial post or something..)
finally, heres a pic, all of us here are flying to the states. lee greg bruce ian poh shaun me cheam hil and maybe hx. =o)
glhf!
Monday, April 24, 2006
Sugar, I'm Going Down
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
You're more than a line in my song
Drop my heart, break my name
I'm always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
I'm going down, down in the earliest round
Should've known going down fading
Could be your number one with a bullet
My loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
Yes i know the lyrics are different
Can someone please enlighten me on what's a 'God complex' Free drink on me for e correct answer :)
Sugar, I'm going down.
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
You're more than a line in my song
Drop my heart, break my name
I'm always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team
I'm going down, down in the earliest round
Should've known going down fading
Could be your number one with a bullet
My loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
Yes i know the lyrics are different
Can someone please enlighten me on what's a 'God complex' Free drink on me for e correct answer :)
Sugar, I'm going down.
The Problem with our Opposition
MM Lee Kuan Yew said
"If the opposition acts like a First World opposition playing by the rules, the Government will return the courtesy... If they behave like hooligans, they must expect to be treated like hooligans."
I dont know why but just when the opposition is given a slightly more advantageos playing field on the local political scene they always tend to shoot themselves in the foot. PAP has announced election day well in advance and announced their candidates in timely fashion. But somehow our opposition thinks they can outsmart PAP by delaying announcemnets and hurling defamtory statements. No doubt there might be some over-up, political pressure and heated exchanges, facing multi-million dollar law suites is not the way to survive politically. Declaring Bankruptcy is not going to boost the party's image either. So yes, our opposition seriously needs to improve and field credible and less antagonistic candidates.
Just as much as some might want to vote for the opposition, I think PAP still has the upper hand. Whenever we talk about opposition, we speak about it in fear, we sledom or dont even read their newspapers, their websites to find out the other side of the story. And in this the PAP has been successful. The local media is strictly regulated, requiring licenses by the government to continue to be media providers, free speech requires a permit etc. Its seriously tough out there, the playing field is never level for the opposition but that doesnt mean they should resort to wild allegations. And its been shown that the courts might be sympathetic to PAP's lawsuites looking back at the previous incidents.
MM Lee also said "'Only a PAP MP can get you priority attention of the Government. A PAP Government must give more attention to the constituencies that support the PAP. This is so everywhere. Any government must first look after its supporters, whether it is America, Britain, Australia, Malaysia, Thailand or Singapore"
To me, thats only partially true. In this case its true only in Singapore where opposition has been virtually zero. In parliaments where opposition sits strongly, the government simply cannot ignore constituencies that are opposition held if not accusations of lack of accountability and favouritism might surface. The elected government is still the government and they hold a responsbility to the nation, whether the areas are opposition or non-opposition held. Imagine if all chinese voted PAP and maybe all the other minorities voted opposition is it even reasonable to say that because chinese voted PAP, the chinese are going to get more attention, more support? So it just might be another media tool used to convince us that if we vote PAP MP's we have lots to look forward to, but if we vote for opposition, nothing comes our way. One can take a look at Thailand now. Opposition has boycotted elections challenging that the politcal scene has been totally doimnated by the ruling party. And yes they have made themselves heard. While boycott might not be such a good idea in Singapore but at least strong opposition has made the government account for its actions, and bring into scope the demands and concerns brought by opposition.
At the end of the day, we have to decide whos the best man. and so far in many areas PAP still rules supreme. But that doesnt mean there are no areas where there are good opposition members. And to hold the goverment accountable and responsible to the people, to be given a mandate that is said to reflect the people's will, indeed a credible and strong opposition is required and not just walkovers or driving people off the political scene.
"If the opposition acts like a First World opposition playing by the rules, the Government will return the courtesy... If they behave like hooligans, they must expect to be treated like hooligans."
I dont know why but just when the opposition is given a slightly more advantageos playing field on the local political scene they always tend to shoot themselves in the foot. PAP has announced election day well in advance and announced their candidates in timely fashion. But somehow our opposition thinks they can outsmart PAP by delaying announcemnets and hurling defamtory statements. No doubt there might be some over-up, political pressure and heated exchanges, facing multi-million dollar law suites is not the way to survive politically. Declaring Bankruptcy is not going to boost the party's image either. So yes, our opposition seriously needs to improve and field credible and less antagonistic candidates.
Just as much as some might want to vote for the opposition, I think PAP still has the upper hand. Whenever we talk about opposition, we speak about it in fear, we sledom or dont even read their newspapers, their websites to find out the other side of the story. And in this the PAP has been successful. The local media is strictly regulated, requiring licenses by the government to continue to be media providers, free speech requires a permit etc. Its seriously tough out there, the playing field is never level for the opposition but that doesnt mean they should resort to wild allegations. And its been shown that the courts might be sympathetic to PAP's lawsuites looking back at the previous incidents.
MM Lee also said "'Only a PAP MP can get you priority attention of the Government. A PAP Government must give more attention to the constituencies that support the PAP. This is so everywhere. Any government must first look after its supporters, whether it is America, Britain, Australia, Malaysia, Thailand or Singapore"
To me, thats only partially true. In this case its true only in Singapore where opposition has been virtually zero. In parliaments where opposition sits strongly, the government simply cannot ignore constituencies that are opposition held if not accusations of lack of accountability and favouritism might surface. The elected government is still the government and they hold a responsbility to the nation, whether the areas are opposition or non-opposition held. Imagine if all chinese voted PAP and maybe all the other minorities voted opposition is it even reasonable to say that because chinese voted PAP, the chinese are going to get more attention, more support? So it just might be another media tool used to convince us that if we vote PAP MP's we have lots to look forward to, but if we vote for opposition, nothing comes our way. One can take a look at Thailand now. Opposition has boycotted elections challenging that the politcal scene has been totally doimnated by the ruling party. And yes they have made themselves heard. While boycott might not be such a good idea in Singapore but at least strong opposition has made the government account for its actions, and bring into scope the demands and concerns brought by opposition.
At the end of the day, we have to decide whos the best man. and so far in many areas PAP still rules supreme. But that doesnt mean there are no areas where there are good opposition members. And to hold the goverment accountable and responsible to the people, to be given a mandate that is said to reflect the people's will, indeed a credible and strong opposition is required and not just walkovers or driving people off the political scene.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
something grimmer
this morning my sis woke me up and said:
"cai wake up we need to go to the hospital"
the sight of a mother losing her pre-teenage daughter is more than anyone can bear.
God indeed is unfair.
i used to have a niece and a nephew.
now he's missing his sister.
and when the gravity of the situation kicks in,
whats left is only sorrow.
"cai wake up we need to go to the hospital"
the sight of a mother losing her pre-teenage daughter is more than anyone can bear.
God indeed is unfair.
i used to have a niece and a nephew.
now he's missing his sister.
and when the gravity of the situation kicks in,
whats left is only sorrow.
something grim.
As i was flipping through the papers this morning, i came across two cancer stories. Two different people from different parts of the world, unknowing to each other, connected only by the prospect of a life somewhere else. KPMG CEO eugene o kelly and Ex RGS student joan chan, 20 years old.
the KPMG CEO mentioned that in his hectic life up at the top, he has only had 2 lunchs a year with his wife, and has missed almost every school function that his daughter has. it was only when he was told he had brain cancer, when he started to cherish the limited time he has with his family.
"one of the tasks before i died was to unwind, or close, or, as i saw it, beautifully resolve my personal relationships. i wanted to do the very thing that wise people advise us to do. to stop long enough to think about the people we love and why we love them."
nearing his end, he mentioned that the best day of his life, was when he and his daughters were out at lake tahoe, and he sat at the front of the boat. watching the boat cut the glass-like water, it seemed like it was skating effortlessly along the surface. i think more than just the boat cutting the water, it was the peace he felt with the people he loved most dearly.
the next story, about joan chan. a 20 year old ex rgs student, with a place in NUS archi waiting for her. shes suffering from tongue cancer and has taken for a worse, with the disease spreading on its own. her ex school rallied around and raised 130k for her treatment.
the connection of two human beings living in different continents. the fraility of life.
the KPMG CEO mentioned that in his hectic life up at the top, he has only had 2 lunchs a year with his wife, and has missed almost every school function that his daughter has. it was only when he was told he had brain cancer, when he started to cherish the limited time he has with his family.
"one of the tasks before i died was to unwind, or close, or, as i saw it, beautifully resolve my personal relationships. i wanted to do the very thing that wise people advise us to do. to stop long enough to think about the people we love and why we love them."
nearing his end, he mentioned that the best day of his life, was when he and his daughters were out at lake tahoe, and he sat at the front of the boat. watching the boat cut the glass-like water, it seemed like it was skating effortlessly along the surface. i think more than just the boat cutting the water, it was the peace he felt with the people he loved most dearly.
the next story, about joan chan. a 20 year old ex rgs student, with a place in NUS archi waiting for her. shes suffering from tongue cancer and has taken for a worse, with the disease spreading on its own. her ex school rallied around and raised 130k for her treatment.
the connection of two human beings living in different continents. the fraility of life.
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Friendship Never Ends
TEG!!!!! Finally posting my first blog ever on the website..My maiden post, wanna tell each and everyone a lil something before they leave for holiday plans..gonna miss you guys a whole lot..lucky still got Cai to train Dota and ummm zhi ummm zhi with :)
Isaac: As Nelson has said before, you're a 'buddy for life' and I'm here to completely ratify that you are a friend for keeps..Don't be too happening la, or else will make the rest of us look damn bad..Actually you already make us look so not happening, hur hur hur..And yes I will accompany you to go for year-end marathon, but I'll probably be thrashed by you and everyone else :P Remember to call me when you're over in U.S. and train Dota if you can.
Greg: My most preferred Sandking (not only in dota but in life :) ), the one who always initiates and makes things happen all the time, go in, epi, sacrfice, if don't die, chop opponents, if die first..for the benefit of the group. Keep up the DotZ standards when you're there, but be aware of the secret training that Cai and I will be having back home..haha! Take care of yourself in U.S. and I'll try to make a trip over to visit.
Cai: One of the most analytical and perceptive people that I know, was great talking at your place..It's one of those reflective sessions where you dig deep in your soul and think about what life entails for us all..Gotta great big feeling we're gonna be mambo-ing away pretty often during the hols, since the rest are not around..Lets pull through the rest of our exams together and look forward to better days. Come back to NTU to study if ya can!!! :)
Shaun: Peepeedog..Everclear..Stroke 9..3.9..4.9..Lit..Kenneth Seah..Fiona Ho..Memories that stick wit me as friendship never ends..Will always remember isaac you and i..sing song at the back of class, copying homework, talking about CS, kenna conned by marc foong to buy his pirated cds (actually that's only me)..and yes, today your drow ranger very pro..have to admit..wonder what happened to Tan Heok Muay and Fiona Ho, looks to me like a compatible married couple..wonder how their 'kids' will look like..Buy me something while you're over in U.S!! :)
Ian: My shi fu in clubbing and DotZ..You da man! Now my turn to wait for you all come back to snoooooop! Not power when i don't go wit you la..so come back quick, and re-live the mambo nights filled with drinks, ciggs, and good music..Yes you're my brother..Xia La!!! Brudder!!! (Hand Gesture) Relak one corner!!! Teknology!! Teksi!!! Will sms you once you're in U.S. to see how things are :)
Jian Hong: SCB since BMT, feels like i've known you since childhood, inside out..Always a listening ear and giving good advice..advice that would probably decide on many things in my life now..shhh..what's safe wit me is safe wit you..don't worry bro..remember to take lotsa pictures in U.S. and will try to work out something to go over at least for a few days..depending on whether i can make it or not :)
One of the main reasons why I'm writing this blog is coz my exams are still ongoing..and I'm probably not going to see you all until after end august (unless we can sneak in another hang out session next week hur hur)..next friday exams end..saturday going thailand wit family..by then teg will be gone, leaving Cai and I behind :(..got back-packing plans, orientation, trying to look for work earn some money..hope my holidays will be filled to the brim.
meanwhile i'm sinking in NTU..the only things that are keeping my head above the water in school: friends..the anticipation of a well-deserved holiday..and great company.
Friendship never ends.
Isaac: As Nelson has said before, you're a 'buddy for life' and I'm here to completely ratify that you are a friend for keeps..Don't be too happening la, or else will make the rest of us look damn bad..Actually you already make us look so not happening, hur hur hur..And yes I will accompany you to go for year-end marathon, but I'll probably be thrashed by you and everyone else :P Remember to call me when you're over in U.S. and train Dota if you can.
Greg: My most preferred Sandking (not only in dota but in life :) ), the one who always initiates and makes things happen all the time, go in, epi, sacrfice, if don't die, chop opponents, if die first..for the benefit of the group. Keep up the DotZ standards when you're there, but be aware of the secret training that Cai and I will be having back home..haha! Take care of yourself in U.S. and I'll try to make a trip over to visit.
Cai: One of the most analytical and perceptive people that I know, was great talking at your place..It's one of those reflective sessions where you dig deep in your soul and think about what life entails for us all..Gotta great big feeling we're gonna be mambo-ing away pretty often during the hols, since the rest are not around..Lets pull through the rest of our exams together and look forward to better days. Come back to NTU to study if ya can!!! :)
Shaun: Peepeedog..Everclear..Stroke 9..3.9..4.9..Lit..Kenneth Seah..Fiona Ho..Memories that stick wit me as friendship never ends..Will always remember isaac you and i..sing song at the back of class, copying homework, talking about CS, kenna conned by marc foong to buy his pirated cds (actually that's only me)..and yes, today your drow ranger very pro..have to admit..wonder what happened to Tan Heok Muay and Fiona Ho, looks to me like a compatible married couple..wonder how their 'kids' will look like..Buy me something while you're over in U.S!! :)
Ian: My shi fu in clubbing and DotZ..You da man! Now my turn to wait for you all come back to snoooooop! Not power when i don't go wit you la..so come back quick, and re-live the mambo nights filled with drinks, ciggs, and good music..Yes you're my brother..Xia La!!! Brudder!!! (Hand Gesture) Relak one corner!!! Teknology!! Teksi!!! Will sms you once you're in U.S. to see how things are :)
Jian Hong: SCB since BMT, feels like i've known you since childhood, inside out..Always a listening ear and giving good advice..advice that would probably decide on many things in my life now..shhh..what's safe wit me is safe wit you..don't worry bro..remember to take lotsa pictures in U.S. and will try to work out something to go over at least for a few days..depending on whether i can make it or not :)
One of the main reasons why I'm writing this blog is coz my exams are still ongoing..and I'm probably not going to see you all until after end august (unless we can sneak in another hang out session next week hur hur)..next friday exams end..saturday going thailand wit family..by then teg will be gone, leaving Cai and I behind :(..got back-packing plans, orientation, trying to look for work earn some money..hope my holidays will be filled to the brim.
meanwhile i'm sinking in NTU..the only things that are keeping my head above the water in school: friends..the anticipation of a well-deserved holiday..and great company.
Friendship never ends.
Friday, April 21, 2006
hap-hap-happening
These days I'm how hot.
No time to cut hair. No time to sleep. No time to replace guitar string. No time to book flight. No time to go chill. No time to cycle. No time to play soccer. No time to pop pimple. No time even to go get my camera fixed before heading off to the states.
"Digital....film, same same one." Thats what my mother said.
Ok la but got time go Zouk and see hot chicks. Chicks...you know....za bos?
Boat buang bridge naturally become swimming lesson. How to translate that into chinese?
No time to cut hair. No time to sleep. No time to replace guitar string. No time to book flight. No time to go chill. No time to cycle. No time to play soccer. No time to pop pimple. No time even to go get my camera fixed before heading off to the states.
"Digital....film, same same one." Thats what my mother said.
Ok la but got time go Zouk and see hot chicks. Chicks...you know....za bos?
Boat buang bridge naturally become swimming lesson. How to translate that into chinese?
the blame game
shaun i really shudve gone to play doza with you.
i ended up not doing any work tonight.
i wanted to go but but.
siqings flying off earlier than u guys?
incoherant thoughts. mixed feelings.
i guess when i reach the end of the tunnel it'll be better. tell me you guys are enjoying yourself so i can look forward to tt.
boat reach bridge head naturally become straight.
i ended up not doing any work tonight.
i wanted to go but but.
siqings flying off earlier than u guys?
incoherant thoughts. mixed feelings.
i guess when i reach the end of the tunnel it'll be better. tell me you guys are enjoying yourself so i can look forward to tt.
boat reach bridge head naturally become straight.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Theodore Roosevelt.
its not the critic who counts,
not the man who points how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
the credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena;
whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood;
who strives valiantly.
who errs and comes short again and again;
who knows the great enthusiams, the great devotions.
who spends himself in a worthy cause.
who at best knows in the end the TRIUMPH of high achievement;
and who at the worst, if he fails,
at least fails while daring greatly so that his place will never be with those timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.
not the man who points how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
the credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena;
whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood;
who strives valiantly.
who errs and comes short again and again;
who knows the great enthusiams, the great devotions.
who spends himself in a worthy cause.
who at best knows in the end the TRIUMPH of high achievement;
and who at the worst, if he fails,
at least fails while daring greatly so that his place will never be with those timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
joga kelong
Jh showed you joga bonito. I present to you "What not to do when your friend chu one friggin power cross and you have a free header in front of goal".
Maybe if i shaved my head like zlatan imbrahimovic........
Monday, April 17, 2006
eye flow.
Who has believed out messageand to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?He grew up before him like a tender shoot,and like a root out of dry ground.He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.He was despised and rejected by men,a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering.Like one from whom men hide their faceshe was despised, and we esteemed him not.Surely he took up our infirmitiesand carried our sorrows,yet we considered him stricken by God,smittemn by him and afflicted.But he was pierced for our transgressions,he was crushed for our iniquities;the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,and by his wounds we are healed.We all, like sheep, have gone astray,each of us has turned to his own way;and the Lord has laid on himthe iniquity of us all.He was oppressed and afflicted,yet he did not open his mouth;he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,and as a sheep before her sheareres is silent,so he did not open his mouth.By oppression and judgement he was taken away.And who can speak of his descendants?For he was cut off from the land of the living;for the transgression of my people he was stricken.He was assigned a grave with the wicked,and with the rich in his death,though he had done no violence,nor was any deceit in his mouth.Yet it was the Lord's will to crush him and cause him to suffer,and through the Lord makes his ife a guilt offering,he will see his offspring and prolong his days.and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.After the suffering of his soul,h will see the light of life and be satisfied;by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,and he will bear their iniquities.Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,and he will divide the spoils with the strong.becahse he poured out his life unto death,and he was numbered with the transgressors.For he bore the sin of many,and made intercession for the transgressors.
isaac please cry now.
im crying cos u got hot chicks like denise and bern coming upto you n school.
isaac please cry now.
im crying cos u got hot chicks like denise and bern coming upto you n school.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Saturday, April 15, 2006
things will go my way
hmm
things are getting better
after the horrendous exams and lousy sem
after struggling with no money and stupid distractions
i'm going manado again. yes manado, land of the neverending crystal clear sea, land of the viscious trigger fish and barracudas. all for $87 bucks - airport tax.
then new york. only $2300
i can't wait.
because things will go my way.
things are getting better
after the horrendous exams and lousy sem
after struggling with no money and stupid distractions
i'm going manado again. yes manado, land of the neverending crystal clear sea, land of the viscious trigger fish and barracudas. all for $87 bucks - airport tax.
then new york. only $2300
i can't wait.
because things will go my way.
it's ok. i'm fine.
shaun:
you wouldn't enjoy it anyway.
not your type of music.
no chicks for you to own.
overflow of alcohol...but you don't drink much.
yeah you wouldn't enjoy it anyway. save money better.
i spent 6+5+38+70+5+6. ( cab, corona, entry, chivas bottle, supper, cab)
no money for anything else now.
edit: supposed to go diving in manado but i think cannot go now.
still got money to go. but i have rationalised that it would be in my best interest not to go.
no difference anyway...right. since your main aim is to dive. not to see ian try to dive. haha.
you and greg have fun.
don't fall down the slope too often.
don't rise up from the water too fast.
don't get that pressure sickness thing.
and don't have close encounters with other boats.
on another note:
whole night never see lionel kong also. too busy owning chicks i suppose.
only see desmond ong twice. when i pass him his ticket and at supper.
saw david twice as well. weirdly both times in the toilet.
saw matthew many many times.
saw kelly one time. at the end. she said something about craving for shaker fries.
i was like "THERE'S SHAKER FRIES STILL?!?!"
tiesto was good. great to be honest but maybe it's cos i was high on chivas.
though it be true i miss my brothers.
while i was high i sent a msg to greg cos i miss him. (i am not gay. repeat: i am not gay.)
i sent poh a msg as well. can't remember what's it about. gotta re-read everything.
(edit: unfortunately, i just deleted everything.)
sent mark a msg telling to him we'll all be ready to party soon and he better be ready as well.
sorry never send cai, shaun, jh any msges.
cai, shaun: when tiesto is playing, somehow my brain doesn't register the two of you. but i'll msg you when mambo/rnb plays. or not...depends
jh: er...my brain doesn't register you at all when i'm in the club. hurhur. but when there's jazz and dota...
i think the point is i think of my brothers everywhere i go.
i am how brother.
oh yes before i forget:
liberation takes on a whole new meaning last night. (and spelling as well)
this morning (afternoon?) i re-read greg's msg (actually can count as i read it the first time), he told me to "take care man. weds it is."
thurs and fri as well if all goes to plan.
we'll see these bags of old bones can take the infamous challenge of 3 nights in a row.
i write to you with alcohol in my veins, throbbing in my head and ringing in my ears. pls pardon the lack of coherence. i blame it on standing beside the speakers.
damn, i need some ice on my head. (edit: i need more ice)
laters.
you wouldn't enjoy it anyway.
not your type of music.
no chicks for you to own.
overflow of alcohol...but you don't drink much.
yeah you wouldn't enjoy it anyway. save money better.
i spent 6+5+38+70+5+6. ( cab, corona, entry, chivas bottle, supper, cab)
no money for anything else now.
edit: supposed to go diving in manado but i think cannot go now.
still got money to go. but i have rationalised that it would be in my best interest not to go.
no difference anyway...right. since your main aim is to dive. not to see ian try to dive. haha.
you and greg have fun.
don't fall down the slope too often.
don't rise up from the water too fast.
don't get that pressure sickness thing.
and don't have close encounters with other boats.
on another note:
whole night never see lionel kong also. too busy owning chicks i suppose.
only see desmond ong twice. when i pass him his ticket and at supper.
saw david twice as well. weirdly both times in the toilet.
saw matthew many many times.
saw kelly one time. at the end. she said something about craving for shaker fries.
i was like "THERE'S SHAKER FRIES STILL?!?!"
tiesto was good. great to be honest but maybe it's cos i was high on chivas.
though it be true i miss my brothers.
while i was high i sent a msg to greg cos i miss him. (i am not gay. repeat: i am not gay.)
i sent poh a msg as well. can't remember what's it about. gotta re-read everything.
(edit: unfortunately, i just deleted everything.)
sent mark a msg telling to him we'll all be ready to party soon and he better be ready as well.
sorry never send cai, shaun, jh any msges.
cai, shaun: when tiesto is playing, somehow my brain doesn't register the two of you. but i'll msg you when mambo/rnb plays. or not...depends
jh: er...my brain doesn't register you at all when i'm in the club. hurhur. but when there's jazz and dota...
i think the point is i think of my brothers everywhere i go.
i am how brother.
oh yes before i forget:
liberation takes on a whole new meaning last night. (and spelling as well)
this morning (afternoon?) i re-read greg's msg (actually can count as i read it the first time), he told me to "take care man. weds it is."
thurs and fri as well if all goes to plan.
we'll see these bags of old bones can take the infamous challenge of 3 nights in a row.
i write to you with alcohol in my veins, throbbing in my head and ringing in my ears. pls pardon the lack of coherence. i blame it on standing beside the speakers.
damn, i need some ice on my head. (edit: i need more ice)
laters.
Friday, April 14, 2006
tiesto fiasco
hello
sorry ian i backed outta tiesto even though lionel was signing me in
no mood. feeling lousy. then greg not there my heart not there, even though i know if he's there he'll find some chick and pangseh. lol
i mean, it's only tiesto.
anyway there's something better than tiesto - dvd marathon.
officially begins tonight and everynight from tonight @ 143 seagull walk lvl 2 shaun's room.
freeflow of coke and chips
call before coming
sorry ian i backed outta tiesto even though lionel was signing me in
no mood. feeling lousy. then greg not there my heart not there, even though i know if he's there he'll find some chick and pangseh. lol
i mean, it's only tiesto.
anyway there's something better than tiesto - dvd marathon.
officially begins tonight and everynight from tonight @ 143 seagull walk lvl 2 shaun's room.
freeflow of coke and chips
call before coming
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
lost.
sometimes you know what you want. you really do. right down to the specification. every inch. every freckle. every nail.
but you can't find that which you want. they don't show. they don't appear.
i know. now. more. or less.
sometimes you have no clue as to what you want. everything's blurred. your life's a mess. nowhere to head to.
and that which you want, drifts. right by you.
in the your confusion.
lost.
but you can't find that which you want. they don't show. they don't appear.
i know. now. more. or less.
----------------------------------------------------
sometimes you have no clue as to what you want. everything's blurred. your life's a mess. nowhere to head to.
and that which you want, drifts. right by you.
in the your confusion.
lost.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Thursday, April 06, 2006
You can't erase it, you can't replace it, please let me forget it
I lie down and blind myself with laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I need
And now I wish that I could turn back the hours
But I know I just don't have the power
Could it be any harder to say goodbye
live without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day
I'd jump at the chance
We'd drink and we'd dance
And I'd listen close to your every word,
As if it's your last, but I know it's your last,
Cause today, you're gone.
Like sand on my feet
The smell of sweet perfume
You stick to me forever
I wish you didn't go,
I wish you didn't go,
I wish you didn't go away
To touch you again,
With life in your hands.
It couldn't be any harder
A quick fix of hope is what I need
And now I wish that I could turn back the hours
But I know I just don't have the power
Could it be any harder to say goodbye
live without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day
I'd jump at the chance
We'd drink and we'd dance
And I'd listen close to your every word,
As if it's your last, but I know it's your last,
Cause today, you're gone.
Like sand on my feet
The smell of sweet perfume
You stick to me forever
I wish you didn't go,
I wish you didn't go,
I wish you didn't go away
To touch you again,
With life in your hands.
It couldn't be any harder
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
this is for you, finally. Forgive me.
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you
Monday, April 03, 2006
important post
Hoi sluts.
Knowing how most of you are more inclined to use newspaper for your dog's litter box than for reading and to save myself some unnecessary whining, I thought I ought to inform you that the money the gah-men promised us.....must sign up one. They ain't gonna send you a cheque in the mail.
What they are going to send you in the mail is a username and password and then go to http://www.progress.gov.sg/ to get it done. Must go hor. 400 bucks le!!!!! Well ok $100 now and $300 after 7 years. For me at least :P
Money money money
Knowing how most of you are more inclined to use newspaper for your dog's litter box than for reading and to save myself some unnecessary whining, I thought I ought to inform you that the money the gah-men promised us.....must sign up one. They ain't gonna send you a cheque in the mail.
What they are going to send you in the mail is a username and password and then go to http://www.progress.gov.sg/ to get it done. Must go hor. 400 bucks le!!!!! Well ok $100 now and $300 after 7 years. For me at least :P
Money money money
staring at the sun.
i hope i'm not the only one,
that's staring at the sun.
no fear of going blind,
no fear of what i'll find.
know you're not the only one,
staring at the sun.
just take a look inside,
find your place right by my side.
i hope you're having fun,
just staring at the sun.
afraid of what you've found,
afraid of being bound.
- ian, 03/04/06, monday
Sunday, April 02, 2006
shaun's birthday part 2
k guys just a poll here
i'm going to organize a get together this wed night, dinner and drinks at my place. what do you guys think? Mid week break then you can mug again. who can make it and who can't make it? and who's going to pull an isaac?
just a question, have you guys bought my present? as in i'm not expecting but if you haven't right, i was thinking of catering food and it's kinda ex so maybe you guys can help me out.
mambo at my place. sound good? anyone who reads this post is invited... tag for your complimentary invites
i'm going to organize a get together this wed night, dinner and drinks at my place. what do you guys think? Mid week break then you can mug again. who can make it and who can't make it? and who's going to pull an isaac?
just a question, have you guys bought my present? as in i'm not expecting but if you haven't right, i was thinking of catering food and it's kinda ex so maybe you guys can help me out.
mambo at my place. sound good? anyone who reads this post is invited... tag for your complimentary invites
Our friend, Mellie.
The sickness that plagues us shall never leave,
as death and numbness serve our sole reprieve.
Melancholy, the curse of our sentient nature,
a feeling of depression, through life we nurture.
When stripped of love and care and desire,
Mellie feeds on your heart and mind without tire.
The gradual degeneration of will transcends,
your life a dictation of how Mellie intends.
An empty shell, your soul eroded,
your meaning to life inevitably corroded.
As you seek for what is left of your mind,
insanity you realise, is all that you can find.
- ian, 02/04/06, Sunday
as death and numbness serve our sole reprieve.
Melancholy, the curse of our sentient nature,
a feeling of depression, through life we nurture.
When stripped of love and care and desire,
Mellie feeds on your heart and mind without tire.
The gradual degeneration of will transcends,
your life a dictation of how Mellie intends.
An empty shell, your soul eroded,
your meaning to life inevitably corroded.
As you seek for what is left of your mind,
insanity you realise, is all that you can find.
- ian, 02/04/06, Sunday
Saturday, April 01, 2006
sweetish & serenglish
alright i just woke up
thanks cheryl for the afternoon
a big thanks to all who came down yesterday for the impromtu celebration
anna, greg lin, shaun, greg, ian, jh, isaac, celine, cai, mark, shiqin, manchi
and thanks for all those sweetish people who wished me happy birthday. some super sweetish people are especially eileen and vic. vic called me from shanghai but i didn't pick up cause i was driving so greg got wished on my behalf. thanks dear. uh... vic i mean, not greg. thanks manchi for singing happy birthday at 12am, albeit to greg again. very sweet. thanks to my previous domestic helper vangie, who smsed from shanghai as well i think. its been like 6 years or smth. and another strange foreign number smsed me. dunnoe who.
thank you luoren
thanks for smashing cake into my face for the second year in a row, please don't do it next year.
anyway i was thinking of having my birthday next week. are the looming exams a deterrant? come on it's just one night. this time i organize. my post sounds abit gay.
thanks cheryl for the afternoon
a big thanks to all who came down yesterday for the impromtu celebration
anna, greg lin, shaun, greg, ian, jh, isaac, celine, cai, mark, shiqin, manchi
and thanks for all those sweetish people who wished me happy birthday. some super sweetish people are especially eileen and vic. vic called me from shanghai but i didn't pick up cause i was driving so greg got wished on my behalf. thanks dear. uh... vic i mean, not greg. thanks manchi for singing happy birthday at 12am, albeit to greg again. very sweet. thanks to my previous domestic helper vangie, who smsed from shanghai as well i think. its been like 6 years or smth. and another strange foreign number smsed me. dunnoe who.
thank you luoren
thanks for smashing cake into my face for the second year in a row, please don't do it next year.
anyway i was thinking of having my birthday next week. are the looming exams a deterrant? come on it's just one night. this time i organize. my post sounds abit gay.
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