SIGH

damn freaky la the pic. looked like julin at first glance.

haha looks like you've been enjoying yourself tremendously. you deserve it baby. enjoy wakeboarding this sat yep, we'll meet up soon. after my atec next week.

anyways yesterday i drove my dad's car. and guess what. i drove for a distance, thinking why i can't really accelerate much. i didn't release the handbrake!!!! haha i almost died laughing. then i realised i forgot to on the headlights too. er... so i don't really deserve to pass? .. hmm..

anyways, i miss you guys tremendously. sigh.

hmmm

i haven't posted for sometime, shall post one now.

hows everyone been ? met up with the guys yesterday night. and i passed my driving! yay. 12 points. haha fucking hell. there was this junction and i was waiting to turn left. there was a sign saying "turn left when RED" i was like WTF. shd i follow the sign or what, i mean who the hell turns left when the light is RED ?! oh well i waited and waited and waited. till the instructor said, i think you shd read the sign. SHIT! haha fuck la. lost like 4 points for "delay in moving off" and 4 points for "insufficient acceleration". wth. haha but i'm just glad i passed.

oh anyways, its the mooncake festival today ? Happy mooncake day! poor me, i'm spending this glorious and joyous occasion at Tanjong Gul camp. S2 608 Bn. sigh. atec's next week and i'm not ready. i think. i don't know. i hope i'm up to it. anyways i'll be here all the way till next fri, so don't ask me to mambo or anything yep.

anyways mavis i know you're reading this. *big hug!* you're becoming another regular reader. welcome to the clan. =o)

mooncakes

mmm. white snow-skin mooncakes with white chocolate truffle and champagne. heaven haven't tasted so good in a loooooooooong time. care for some my friends?

beautiful days.

ian, let them come at you, let this make their judgement.
let them think whatever they like of you.
s'long as you mean well, who can stop you?
maybe then nice guys wont finish last.

random thought: there was once 2 guys, and another 3 guys. they met, they saw, they got along just fine.=]

let's talk about...

i'm pretty tired today from all the running and constant lack of sleep. maybe i should sleep soon. maybe later.

i now know that posts made today can have repercussional(?) effects in the future. as cai would understand since i showed and explained to him. when writing, it's best to be clear about things otherwise people might imagine u to be talking about them. but, i'm really just a vague sorta guy. i like things in the blur and all. so things with me won't change. and then why did i just say that load of crap? well, i'm just saying, you know?

this weekend has been a continuous cycle of sleep, pool, lan. with the exception inclusion known as the AHM 21km run. as i've said. i'm tired.

"a boy must learn to be decisive. then shall he be a man."

nothing's gonna stop us now.

here's a wake up call from the positive me today.

be glad, we spend time with one another now, cos when we school we may have less time than now.
be glad, we have our own money to spend indiscriminately rather than a meagre allowance.
be glad, we have common interests and experiences cos we may not in our different courses in university.
be glad, we made new friends and still realized the old ones rock best.
be glad, we all suffered together rather than apart.
be glad, we all understand what each other are going through.
be glad, that we ord together.


as we bitch about our current plight, we shant forget the perks and benefits, and await better days.
thanks shaun, sitting at busstop waiting for bus which wouldnt come was engaging.=]

21km and still running

the most i've run was 15km in ocs. and 10km in my formation. this morning i suddenly discovered myself running the whole fulfilling 21km. but time passed with steady progress. thanks to my two gay partners. though we promised and swore to stick together all the way, they dumped me a couple of times due to my lack of physical fitness. the bastards. but nevertheless, i caught up and we finished the race together. funny we just got beaten by many many ladies. and also just made the timing by less than a minute. WELL.

one thing i've learnt, make sure you hydrate and sleep the night before. more than 7 hours. if you don't sleep at all, and instead watch futurama and play mindless endless ice worlds, you'd start to hallucinate by the 15km onwards. i swear guys, that was a fish hanging from the tree we saw today. not a twig.

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"what happened to us? we used to be so perfect" - hoobastank

random incoherent semi-intelligible ramblings

here i am, at the nice lil shop we always hang out at waiting for the latecomers. it's suck a miracle that im here early. im the most infamous latecomer. i guess hell will soon freeze over and the sun will start coming out from the west.

well, actually i've nothing to say, just posting to spend my time away here. i'll type till the above-mentioned sinners repent(arrive).

ok, so what shall i talk about? ok, for starters, i love the goth girl. she's so cute. i think i've said that already. ok then, i'll talk about my dinner then.

had a really family-ish cosy night with the parents eating out in the 'NO SIGNBOARD' seafood place. so the 3 of us ate and talk about stuff and all. i swear i've not been so nice to my parents for awhile. like passing them food, having proper convos, etcetc. (awww...) it was just a nice simple dinner, chilli crab, butter prawns and stuff. wanted to get the cereal prawn or what's its name prawn but dad objects. dad wins today coz i'm feeling nice. so ate we did. so talked we did. so the sinner have repented. so it's time for me to leave.

hey you! do take care in london k? i'll be seeing you around in a year's time!

grey man...

Cloud and Tifa....

the good life

when i look in the mirror

i can't believe what i see

tell me who's that funky dude

starin' back at me

folking bitten down

can't even get around

without an old man's cane

fall and hit the ground

shivering in the cold

bitter and alone

excuse the bitchin

i shouldn't complain

i should have no feeling

'cause feeling is pain

'cause everything i need

is denied me

and everything i want

is taken away from me

but who do i got to blame

nobody but me

and i don't wanna be a lone man anymore

it's been a year or two since i was down on the floor

shakin' booty making sweet love all the night

it's time i got back to the good life

it's time i got back

it's time i got back

and i don't even know how i got off the track

i wanna go back, yeah

screw this crap i've had it

i ain't no mr. cool

i'm a pig i'm a dog

so 'scuse me if i drool

i ain't gonna hurt nobody

ain't gonna 'cause a scene

justly to admit i want sugar in my tea

hear me (hear me) i want sugar in my tea

and i don't wanna be a lone man anymore

it's been a year or two since i was down on the floor

shakin' booty making sweet love all the night

it's time i got back to the good life

it's time i got back

it's time i got back

and i don't even know how i got off the track

i wanna go back, yeah

i wanna go back

i wanna go back

and i don't even know how i got off the track

it's time i got back

it's time i got back

and i don't even know how i got off the track

i wanna go back, yeah

i love work

seriously. i mean you guys might think i'm bonkers but i really enjoy being busy, as compared to slacking my ass off in an office like shaun or saying "roger, strength 5" like eugene. (have you spoken to eugene before in camp? there will DEFINITELY be intermittent ROGERS and STRENGTH 5s in the middle of the conversation! i swear! haha. ask him.

you know, being caught up in work elevates your mind from other things. in my case, ***** (no mav, not you =o) ). in shaun's case, ms ong. eugene's case, ms wee. ian's case. errr ? ms maine? or ms sam. haha. no ok i don't mean just girls but other outside stuff as well. just anything everything that bothers you. i'm always so intrigued why workholics exist. is it because they simply love their work too much, or is it because they want to be distracted. hmm..

anyways i am REALLY caught up with work these days. mav's getting irritated, i'm getting irritated. got home at like 12am last night and left the house at 6am this morning. like wtf right. sorry guys, not much time to meet. lucky bought ian's present last week heh, if not no time to buy and give him already. ian : hows the cd btw! you're my tester!

nic mok: regular reader of this blog. are our lives really so interesting!! i think you keep pressing refresh right haha.. you're only tired when you're hyper. no, hyper when you're tired. oxymoron. hyper-ly tired.

jie: you just have to go ian's place to grab a few cats. he rears cats for a living. so much so hes beginning to act like one. (KIDDING!!)

bye for now.

and now, the end is near.
and so i face, the final curtain.

simpen simlab simcity thesims simcard simwonghoo simjianhong. (i'm famous!)

they've got a zillion tons of coffee in Brazil !!

Happy birthday ian. always remember that i have always loved you, i love you still, and will love you forever.

lau when you're in depression because of girls(or rather a certain gal), it's best not to listen to such music. It'll only make you emotionally masochistic. Because all of a sudden, you realize, in one way or another, you can relate to practically every sappy song ever produced. From "Come What May" - Moulin Rouge (yes we've all been there at some point) to "Screaming Infildelities" - dashboard confessional, to "I don't wanna know" - Mario Winans and finally to "Fuck you you Hoe, I Don't Want You Back" - Eason.

Best advise i can give today will be to run your heart out on sunday :

On a lighter note, i'm proposing we ton on saturday night. Wear light, pack light (running shoes and attire), chill at like chijmes until 3am++, talk cock sing song, reminicense. Then walk over to the padang, report strength to our respective BNs, then run together. good no?

*have a feeling it won't happen, but it'll be so rebellious. no 7 hours of sleep at all!*

btw, i bet you wore the new shoes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN !!!!

anyways what are you talking about. call me to tell me ! or i'll give you a ring later. adios!

23 September 2004

i'm 20!

at 20, i lied to laura about phuture. laura is charmain's friend. we're clean. =).
at 20, i decided to join eugene at phuture to help him in his pursuit of 'her'.
at 20, i'm satisfied enjoying one glass of lychee martini. i'm not an alcoholic.
at 20, i met charm and friends at phuture. said 'hi', but nothing more. as a friend, maybe i should've talked more?
at 20, i watched my friends drink and drink. mmm, once again i'm anti-drinking. not in the mood.
at 20, i wish i had danced more tonight. the music was great. the crowd was tight as usual, but somehow more enticing. i'm once again, addicted to wednesday phutures.
at 20, i spent the 2nd hour taking care of eugene, afraid he would get into a fight. he was getting angry at every guy walking by. ahh, temper, temper.
at 20, i was getting more and more irritated by everything around me.
at 20, i said 'fuck it' and left. i took a cab and went home. it was 13 bucks.
at 20, i went online and read the ode to the nice guy. i realised that if u agreed to most of the things it said, you're most probably a nice guy.
at 20, i realised i'm used to finishing last.
at 20, i realised that i've wasted most of my life.
at 20, i think i should change the way i live.

i'm sorry this post is so self-centred, just that...
at 20, i realised i should've reflected on myself long ago.

Ode to nice guys - we all are!

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last,
that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and
bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very
point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder
to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who
hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently
outside the changing room at department stores.

This is in honour of
the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy
their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know
most girls need that litany of support. This is in honour of the guys
with open minds,with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is
in honour of the guys who respect a girl's every facet, from her
privacy to her theology to her clothing style.This is for the guys who
escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and
never take advantage once they're at her door, for the guys who
accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male
population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments
but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in
a game where the rules favour cheaters, for the guys who are
accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don't end up being
boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated,
and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled,
and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left
40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back,
she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her
boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her
boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok
and she shouldn't worry about it. This is for that time she
interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to
rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks
is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought
it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the
game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread
around the floor. This is also for that time she didn't have a date,
so after numerous vows that there was nothing "serious" between the
two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer
was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit
of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: "oh, but we're just
friends!" And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic
warmbody for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like
that.The nice guys don't often get credit where credit is due. And
perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don't seem to get laid as often
as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I
can't.

From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned
from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the
only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical,
manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice
guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational,
confusing things such as "oh, he's too nice to date" or "he would be a
good boyfriend but he's not for me" or "he already puts up with so
much from me, I couldn't possibly ask him out!" or the most
frustrating of all: "no, it would ruin our friendship." Yet, they
continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they
expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathise and apologize
for the men that are jerks.

Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my
ability to fathom. I can't figure out why the connection breaks down
between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do(I'm going
to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say
that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn't last forever. There
are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and
realise they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for
granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier,
finding the ones that are single.So, until those girls are found, I
propose a toast to all the nice guys.You know who you are, and I know
you're sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But
the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the
department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting
services, your propensity to be a sucker fora pretty smile.

For all
the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations
where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my
acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have
credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is
coming.

someone sent this to me. i'm a nice guy!!

ANYBODY ??

hey guys, wanna organise any fun stuff to do ? like a trip to sentosa or a few hours at KARAOKE ? i went that day with mavis and her friends and it was damn fun ! haha. i've got a 4 hr free room at partyworld too. so anyone game ? probably the next weekend cos this weekend i'm packed with the exercise.

hey folks...just a thought to share with you guys...
god damn could there be a stupider person around.
i spent the last 2 weeks easily checking out people's blogs on my favourites lists wondering why no one posted....this one included...then one fine day i considered the inane option of clicking the refresh button cos the fucking thing decided to load the same goddamn page allofasudden...
owell, 2 hours later, im done reading all the posts since time immemorial.
much has happened...hope you like the shoes ian....i liked them so if you dont want i'll buy them from you..haha...here's your happy pre-emptive birthday wish... and i must say i've gotten to know you much more over the past few months at least.
oops...hahha knowing me i tore a hole in ian's pants that day cos i was taking a shot at the pool table and cheekily sat on him whilst doing that....somehow the sharp thingy in the bench poked thru his stussy pants and booo...
sorry dude....thought it was funny...anyways... now i post!!...oh god help me...
greg just texted me...the lucky bugger's back to bmt to enjoy his slack life again....but the sorry dude has been suffering so much lately he deserves it.... been a fucker lately i think...(me of course).... i cant think of a single person in my life i havent pissed off lately.....maybe my sis...
we some how get along like super...in a distant way tho....we had an argument bout who's had life better on the mrt in the presence of a very stunned crowd which was utterly fun... esp bitching about who got to use handphones and pagers first...lol..i gotta attend a military wedding on thurs...freaking cool so far...wearing uniforms and shit...rather cool i must say.... the swords help....adds to the gay factor...
i got sommany many things to say pent up over these few weeks...but yea... to all the girls who visit this blog, I THINK YOU'RE HOT!!!. yea if shaun or jianhong hasnt told you that already...

here's the parting shot.. its on my personal blog but thats too poseurish for sure :

A PSYCHOLOGICAL TIP

Whenever you're called on to make up your mind,
and you're hampered by not having any,
the best way to solve the dilemma, you'll find,
is simply by spinning a penny.
No - not so that chance shall decide the affair
while you're passively standing there moping;
but the moment the penny is up in the air,
you suddenly know what you're hoping

heather ong

mindless obsession.
.get.out.of.my.head.

i'm so tired nowadays i don't know why. last night i got home at 8, spoke to mav for a while and i seemingly fell asleep. i woke up the next morning and i don't remember a thing! i don't even remember why i put or how i put down the phone. sigh i think i'm turning into a shaun. speaking about shaun, i haven't seen you in ages! wtf have you been!?! playing with your comp? watching too much porn on it i suppose? =o) ok kidding. anyways. i wanna go your house soon, to play some battlefield and call of duty. did u buy that? how about ground control? dammmit i really miss my comp. fucker maxtor.

adios!

from left, van, nic phua, nise and claire. at kopitiam outside zouk. 

nice? splurged on a wine connoisseur's set. 

ian's presents! happy birthday ian!! 

me and lil bitch stoning at stairs.. met ltc chiang kai heat's daughter. sign on io. like wtf, damn garang. 

cai and clement and me at the ramen place yseterday! ECHO PL 2!! 

eh wake up leh!! 

i wish i could go up to my dad and say, " can you get your fucking act together."

i'm happy. elated. excited. overjoyed. guys, words fail to describe how i feel now. thanks guys. really. u guys just melted my lil heart. thanks thanks thanks. thanks for the CD. thanks for the shoes. i loved them all. i love you all. ladies and gentlemen, ian is gay for tonight. i repeat. ian is gay for tonight.

i'm alone now. today was busy busy ! had swimming carnival in the morning at nee soon camp and had loads of fun playing water polo! HQ coy won polo! ahha.. i was left back. rushed home to bathe, change and meet cai, clement and supposedly darren. they were late, as usual. and i walked around wisma on my own... caught up with lots of old stuff and they left at 7. tried to finish up da vinci but failed with half the book to go in kino, and waited for my pri sch pals to come, xiongkun and wee seng. tried the ice earl cool j. elephancino at nydc, not bad. and the waitress' name is genius! i wanted to go up to her, "so are you a genius or what".

went down to meet claire at zouk with weeseng and ended up sitting at the kopitiam watching in disbelief, the girls' apparent addiction to beer, and of course cigs. van, nic phua, nise and of cos, claire. talked cock for a while, and took a cab back to the east with weeseng, he stays in tampines. dropped me off at parkway and here i am, alone. waiting for the guys to come. interesting day? tiring more like it. -random ramblings-

hello. i've returned. finally. 6 days stuck in camp is not fun. missed out mambo. missed out phuture fridays. missed out on a whole lotta shit. i feel zombified by my workload this week. i need therapy. i feel so detached from everything now. i feel lost. i feel tired.

it sucks to have pple asking you to go mambo when u're half way through a painfully boring meeting at 10pm. it hurts when u have pple msging u on a friday night inviting you to phuture when you're stuck in camp doing duty, writing reports.

it's been a wtf-ing long week. i've had a short taste of an office job. endless work reports, followed by meetings, then reports, then meetings and reports and meeting and...blah. what a way to live my next 40 yrs. damn. boils me even as i speak. i'm pissed.

anything

i totally hate SPGs. and stupid girls like laura tan. and other what nots.

er alright. yeh sp looks fun. chinese suck though.

haha mavis told me about your KIND HEART yesterday and i told her i was damn fucking sure you're not like that. you'll be the first one to say something negative about them, followed by cai haha. VS boys. sigh. ahha maybe you've changed!!

frank.

hmmm

hi i'm the DO again.

EEEE JH HAS EAR WAX. gross shit.

and i'm so bored. shall watch more dvds later. damn sian. my driving's going exceptionally slow. i'm just lousy i suspect. haha... hope i can complete before i go wallaby. i wanna clubbbbbbbbb... but no money. so i ddin't swap my duty. if i did i bet i'd have wasted money again. shall save up this month. still owe pple money. lau how come you have so much money. you bookie right. chop stamp. see you in jail.

mandy: AMD 3000+ processor, 128mb ATI RADeon 9800, 120gb Hard disk, 512mb RAM (yes i know you got 768), DVD RW+- 16X, optical + wireless mouse and keyboard. BEAT THAT.

btw this is the watch i want. please buy it for me?
ck.FLASH

peach sunday.

haha how u know sam's not going today ?

oh yah guess what happened to me on monday. i went to dig my ear with a cotton bud, what u can call a Q-tip. when i pushed the damn bud into my right ear, i was like oh shit!!! i can't hear on my right. i kept digging but the bloody wax won't clear. went to get water to wash it off but i still couldn't hear. FUCK. HOW. i'm gonna go deaf. maybe i perforated my ear drum. SHIT. tried to sleep it off but the next morning i was still had that fullness in my ear, oh that deafness feels like i just came out of zouk. it was a damn shock man, luckily i went to check "ear wax" on some medical website and they gave a whole chunk of diagnosis, and i found out my deafness is common, or rather, normal. its due to compacted/impacted ear wax, unlikely a perforation.

SO i spent the entire tuesday trying to read lips in the meetings. and trying to act normal. luckily no one "noticed" my deafness haha. so embarrassing. oh yah basically due to that freaking 8 hr meeting from 10am - 6pm where i was mainly just taking notes. anyways, i went to CGH at night and the doctor checked my ear and it was just what i suspected, compacted ear wax. he suggested "syringing" my ear haha. also known as "irrigation" i was like err.. needles involved? he laughed and said no.

i was made to sit down on a black leather seat similar to a dentist chair and he pulled out a huge syringe. WTF! but he took out the needle and i heaved a sigh of relief. " just relax, you would feel a little cold, and a little dizzy but its normal " .... ok dammit, just do it. he stuck the syringe into my ear and suddenly i felt my brain swimming. he pumped water through the syringe into my ear! the room started to turn and i started to see double.
i was like wtf.
" doctor, how come i feel like i'm falling from my chair."
"don't worry, we'll be done soon"
" er doctor, how come you have 4 hands?!?!!!"
"relax .... (and he continued squeezing the syringe)"
" DOCTOR !! i think i'm gonna faint."

at last it was done. and i was dying.

well, i'm back. once again. this blog i realise, only comes alive on weekends. when we are all free to post as and when we like. such a mimic of our lifestyles.

help! jh, the taxi driver went crazy after he let u off. he kept going like, 'hell yeah', 'oh yeah, right on'. i'm on the brink of wtf.

me:'uncle, can u turn left later?'
cabbie:'hell yeah...'
me:'then afterwards go straight down.'
cabbie:'right on!'
etc, etc, etc.

haha! quite a funny ride. luckily it's only like 2 min. who knows what else he'll say?

sigh. in 3 hours, i've to head back to camp. still regretting my inactions. should learn to let things go now. anyway, it's just such a small thing. hope shaun's doing fine as DOO. as least he has internet! my stupid pulau tekong has zilch for internet, except in the spec's mess, which by the way i cannot use. coz i'm not a spec. yeah, whatever.

alright time for me to rest yeah. gentlemen, good night. ladies, good morning.

i came here thinking i had alot to say about last night. but it was not to be. i realised i have little to say. i could only seek solace in jh's quote. i do need the serenity, i do need the courage and i surely need the wisdom.

yesterday, i should've did something, but i didn't. i went home in regret, laid on my bed and thought myself to sleep. i thought it was done, but it was not to be. drinks did nothing for me. they never have and never will.

shaun, you'll never forget someone you never really wanna forget. i don't understand how u feel coz, i've never been in those shoes. just remember u've still got friends. we'll be here. we'll be around.

here i am, 5pm. just woke up and dropped by, posting my jumbled thoughts. i'll be here again soon, maybe later, maybe next week. ciao.

shaun you cry ? you piece of shit wuss.

shaun

i'm DOO.. damn sian... nothign to do all day but watch vcds and play cs. guys can you all just smack me so hard that i forget? party with me till i pass out? watch depressing shows with me and cry together? HAHAHAHHA.
save me. love you all

anyways. my menu for last night. 1 1/2 x glasses of red wine (eh it was really quite good merlot.) 02 x lychee martinis 06 or 07 x red and white stuff that i don't know. oh yah sex on the beach and apple shooters. i'm really not a strong drinker, and i pushed my limits yesterday! ahah started snapping at eugene and ian at about 3+ cos i was so tired and groggy and wanted to go home. SORRY GUYS. =o) i don't usually drink that much, but dont know why yesterday too...

anyways! i'm waiting for my mom to come back now, have golf later at 11, a quick session, and driving at 1.. afterwhich i have to rush home and meet mavis at 4! sigh busy busy day! try to meet u guys later at night yep. just call..

shaun: hope you recover promptly ... call me to talk !
greg : sucks man, how were the grenades yesterday? don't think u can come today right..
claire: baby! i was so surprised to get your msg yesterday, don't think too much about it. studies more important! we'll talk more when u get back next week yep.
eugene : sorry for snapping at you! haha
ian : errr i'm not gonna write a compo!
cai : shit i don't know what to say to you. see thats what happens when i don't see you much...
mark : i don't see you much but i think about you a lot! hope you like "music to watch girls by" !!

hmmm did i leave anyone out?

yeh! last but not least sinyee : happy birthday!!

sigh shaun! yeh i know what you're going thru. i've been through that and back, and its no easy task. i'm a free thinker, but maybe this quote would help :

God,

Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,

courage to change the things i can,

and wisdom to know the difference.

it pulled me through my darkest hour, and is still helping me with my struggles now. shaun you must know its really up to you.

we all love you!

hmmm

Ok dudes. sorry i didn't join any of you for clubbing.. yesterday or tonight. feeling messed up.

seriously speaking. i can't forget heather. neither will i forget her. everytime i see her name in my phone contacts my heart skips a beat. maybe you guys think i'm just being dumb but it's become hell for me not to see her. jh will understand. i met her yesterday for five mins (after i had dinner with my other friend) to pass her some photos. it was my way of closing my "relationship" with her. like you know, like defriending someone. jh will know. anyway.

so i thought i would just pass her the photos and tell her i'm off home or something and just walk out of the place. but when i saw her i couldn't do shit. i wanted to... well. anyway. i was kinda torn apart in the middle of far east square outside kazbar. (on the lighter note, we should chill at far east square. they have good pubs) she asked me to join her and her friends but i didn't want to. i asked her to walk with me and she didn't want to. so i just pissed her off, and left. 5 mins of foolishness for limitless depression. hmmm haha.

anyway she's the most gorgeous thing i saw last night.

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ANYWAY.
i fixed my new com. it's damn cool. and damn fast. playing doom 3 later. too bad i'm DOO tml. i also have a wireless mouse and keyboard! so now msn works. and everything else. i'm gonna start playing diablo2 again. serious. is there NOONE ELSE??


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haha. i'm just so full of shit dudes. all my posts are like compo man. maybe i miss GP. yeah right. k on my way to meet the dudes at phuture now. immediately after this post that is.

true true, anyone that touches my gf in the club will get a crash course in kungfu by yours truly. of coz, in a club naturally she should be at my side but if she's with her friends(ala last night), then i'll let her be and just hang around with her group. i won't be like having her on a leash all the while. point being i'll be around for protection if need be. haha, jh, your point is in exaggeration. no man in the right mind would share their girl. and i'm sure we're all in our right mind.

okok! it's time for me to go. late late late late. as usual! ian the compo man signs off!

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hello! guess where we are? TOPMAN internet corner. er lame. haha me and lau are just bored. - JH@TOPMAN

hello ian. lets say you and your gf go to zouk. this guy starts eyeing her and inches closer to her. what would you do ?

"Go! i mean, life is short. share the girls."
"Come, i'll slime her from 10-12 alrighT? then i'll go have my 1-1 while you can take care of(SLIME) her till 2 alright? "
"wanna ask your friends to dance with my girlfriends? she likes to dance with guys other than me. bitch."

if i had a gf, and i brought her to zouk. i'll be the most protective AND possessive motherfucker on earth. you know the guys in zouk. 2 girls dancing alone for 2 mins and immediately 20 guys crowd around. wanting a piece of the tofu, er i mean pie. anyone trying to touch or even inch near my babe, its a sulaiman-style chop to his hichu (adam's apple) and a punch to the suigetsu (solar plexus). don't even touch a hair man.

i pity that guy actually. went with his gf but shes actually eyeing other guys. sigh. poor bastard.

last night was quite rocking i must say. saw a kirsten dunst look-alike and tengren was so ultra smitten (plus high). he eyed her. she eyed him...

"...the boys watch the girls

and the girls watch the boys

who watch the girls go by..."

so we inched and inched there, trying to help dear tengren secure 'kirsten'. ALAS! suddenly, in the black background popped out a chinese dude wearing black shirt and black pants, aka mr. boyfriend. ren(tengren) took his broken heart and ate it. very sad. but even more saddening is mr. boyfriend, whom we observe is having a hard time with 'kirsten'. 'kirsten' seemed hell-bent on dancing with dear ren (plus some other guys) and kept eyeing him. mr. boyfriend also kept eyeing him. i'm sure both then were feeling rather hot under the collar, for obviously different reasons.

in the end, ren being the good guy, stayed away from 'kirsten'. the other reason is that we sympathise with mr. boyfriend. observing him, we can't help but feel like he seemed like a dog. following 'kirsten' everywhere she goes. dude, there is a thin line between protectiveness and possessiveness. i think he just ran across it. we're talking like cm by cm. 'kirsten' moves a cm, mr. boyfriend moves a cm, and so on. give her some breathing room i say!(and give ren a chance with her!!) haha, alright, alright...but as i've said, in the end ren decided she was to be left alone. sucha nice guy don't u think?

oh yeah, we had our night kicked started by having leon and all treating us to trays and trays and trays and trays of shots (ala eulau with his apple shooters/sex on the beach). i may be against unconditional and uncontrollable drinking, but hey, i've got a sweet tooth and i like shots, so let our 'shooting' begin! guys, i think i found my weakness. leon, who downed a flamin', some coronas, lotsa shots plus 1 jug of 'dunno what', got ever so high and started his ultra hip-hoppin' routine. superlative movements were abound and soon he got some competition! a lesbian couple were trying to get their share of the attention. haha, let's just say their dance moves resembled very much like bed moves. naturally, they won. mmm, M18+.

ok, so tonight will be another day at phuture with my usual suspects. i can't help but have that lingering feeling that it won't be so good. tsk. we'll see, we'll see. guys, we're gonna rock this party till the after-party.

shaun, who is she?

and as i end, i hold up my lychee martini and toast to cyberpark replugged for having survived 200+ posts. don't worry, as long as there's eugene and jianhong posting about their ever intriguing lives, we'll see cyberpark even after 1000 posts. cheers. merci. au revoir.

*shakes head*
just woke up, was supposed to stay up just now to talk on the phone. but i fell asleep on the floor. damn floor, why was it so comfortable for me to fall into deep sleep. damn sister, why did she come back so late. damn boss, why did he make me go to camp for nothing when i could have rested at home. damn eyes, why did they close when they need to keep open. damn gym, why did you make me so shag after today's 1 hr struggle with you. damn everything. i think you guys get my drift. i'm blaming everything but myself for my inability to stay awake. is it my fault i couldn't stay awake and talk on the phone with you? really ?

sigh.

nothing exciting around here. just that this is the 200th post? just that i just bought a new computer? guys, this time it's for real. i've been saying that like since we played warcraft. which was like 2 yrs ago. haha.

well, dudes. it's time again for phuture on phridays. and back to phuture tmr? guys, it's time. time to party. seeya dudes soon.

question of the day:

"would you rather love a friend? or be friends after love?" - claire

i'm in a fix. i'm just indecisive. i shouldn't be really. thought i knew what i wanted, guess i'm not sure. there comes a point in time where you think you have an answer to everything but when the crunch comes, you're a bundle of nerves, or rather, a lost of words. or both. God give me some direction!! ( shit can't always ask God for help. i've used up too many chance cards already.)

HELP ! the usual sunday activity . lanning at this shop beside pool junction. the very first time all 6 of us are here! YAY haha but they're playing cs and i'm super bored cos i'm shit at that. msn's better.

samantha's just this pretty cool girl i met in Phuture last night. we talked awhile and that's it. nothing sensational. there's nothing! anyway guys, let's move on. it's over.

whos sam u seaky bastard!! hah yay ian turning on his charmmmmm

Event of the day:

wore my pink polka dot and leaf long sleeve shirt to cocco latte. honestly, it sucked. took a cab with shaun, gene, navin back to the Phuture. we met sam. talked and danced for awhile. got everything out of sam except her number. such is the regret of the day. didn't think i left a good impression anyway. shit happens when you're neither good-looking nor eloquent.

me gay? =o) i think not.

nat ho? no i don't know any nat ho, only a nat huang. hurhur.

anyways, anyone going army open house tmr?

jianhong is gay!!!

mmmm hahaha

anyway u ass here's sth from ur post.
haven't spoken to any friends much, everyone's so busy with stuff. called eugene the other day, msged shaun using army mail haha. ian and cai didn't reply

so what happened to greg? did u call or msg greg?? no..... haha my turn to be gay.

yes yes candice was good. eh frank, u remember nat ho.. ur friend right? sisperc ooc. how come u din mention anything bout his attempt at super stardom? haha. but no doubt the 3 finalist were who i expected em to be. the rest were like... *ahem* man. esp tt sylvester character. think he shd be in like f4 or sth.

oh yeah. go read the 'LIFE' tdy. EMI spokes-person openly criticized the 4 judges. i mean like seriously la. they are not even funny. they aint original either. whatever dick lee says, fiona follows n i dunno what the 4th guy, is ken his name?, there for. "oh, preety young girls will vote for u" smlj. no creativity at all. only acid comments. did u see how they tore apart the fat girl. 'joyce the voice' oh well who am i to judge right?

this is wierd. greg is posting. yo... where are the rest of u maggots!

hey! its a thursday, and i'm home. work's been really piling up nowadays and i have hardly time to even breathe! just watched singapore idol and i really like candice and daphne! haha i bet at this moment in time someone else somewhere out there's typing something about them. yeh candice sang that song really well. oh whats there to look forward in the weeks ahead? nothing much really.. but u know, when u're busy, u hardly think about anything else but your work, it kinda takes your mind off things. not that i have much on my mind these days, but the work really alleviates your other problems. now i know why workaholics indulge themselves in tonnes of work ..

haven't spoken to any friends much, everyone's so busy with stuff. called eugene the other day, msged shaun using army mail haha. ian and cai didn't reply. i wanna watch terminal!!

i'm just raving and ranting.

i'll just tell about my day, went to Kranji camp today for a little recce of the place, it was just beside this place i was based in last year, SAFPU. military police.. met some of my old friends, whom i cannot place their faces to names, but had a fun time chatting anyway, really miss the old days. you know, when you always look back, its always so enjoyable, so longing. i guess your mind plays tricks on you, and you only think about good things that happened before, hardly the bad.

anyway, as i was walking out, i thought about my days in bmt too, with mark. mark can totally sum up my days in tekong. i can still remember him waiting for me at the bunk door cos i was always late, he always wanted to stand next to me in file, even when the PC said we were gay. haha.. ran with me for my SOC.. and slept with me on my SINGLE bed cos he was scared that night!! haha "jianhong... ehh. i sleep with you today la, scared sia , keep seeing something.." haha something along those lines. i was so sleepy i just said " mmm.."

thanks mark.

where is everybody? is this like a busy week for all you folks or what? like i mean apart from a call from shaun on monday inquiring bout some recruit n another sms a day ltr bout borrowing shoes, haven heard a squeak from the rest. oh yeah. lau did msg sth bout fri night but oh well. make some noise gentS. think e-messenger has negative effects on shaun. the look he gave me when he found out there was a web based msn was well.. scary. haha toodles.