what can you do when perseverence doesn't do you any good, and when hope is utterly useless? what else can you cling on to and what other possibilities can you harbour?
You called yesterday, to basically say,
That you care for me but that you're just not in love.
Immediately I pretended to be feelin similarly,
And led you to believe I was ok,
to just walk away from the one thing
that's unyielding and sacred to me
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it,
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you.
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind,
underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside.
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering.
So I wear my disguise until I go home at night,
and turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry...
So what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to suddenly just stops loving you,
and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through?
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say: "How dare you leave this way"
or do you just hold on in vain as they just slip away
i don't think that i'll see her again
but we shared a moment that will last till the end
you're beautiful
i saw your face in a crowded place
and i don't know what to do
you're beautiful
but i can't escape the truth
i will never be with you.....
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Friday, July 29, 2005
contentment
as i glance over the marina bay from the bowne conference room this morning, i can only marvel at the beauty and majesty that God has bestowed this world.
I have learnt to be content whatever the circumstances.
I know what it is to be in need, and i know what it is to be plenty. I have learnt the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
Phillippians 4:11-13
Festival of Praise. 5-7 aug.
anyone wanna go ? so far its me and greg ! trying to pull more smu pple..
I have learnt to be content whatever the circumstances.
I know what it is to be in need, and i know what it is to be plenty. I have learnt the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
Phillippians 4:11-13
Festival of Praise. 5-7 aug.
anyone wanna go ? so far its me and greg ! trying to pull more smu pple..
trouble.
isn't it ironic?
guys always say that girls are trouble.
but guys just can't help...
looking for trouble.
all the time.
guys always say that girls are trouble.
but guys just can't help...
looking for trouble.
all the time.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
3 Libras by A Perfect Circle
Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name
In your recollection
Down among a million same
Difficult not to feel a little bit
Disappointed and passed over
When I've looked right through
See you naked but oblivious
And you don't
See
Me
But I threw you the obvious
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy
Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see, see through it all
And see through
See you
So I threw you the obvious
To see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes of a tragedy
Oh well
Oh well
Apparently nothing
Apparently nothing at all
You don't
You don't
You don't see me
You don't
You don't
You don't see me at all
the usual is the best
nice dota session, albeit just a single game. complete with zhiguang bashing, talk cock at katong carpark, supper with free flow soft drink at chai chee ba chor mee. met nat boey by chance, chatted a bit. talked about rachel, debbie, jara, es... and all the babes that the cyberpark boys are associated with. sent shaun then ian home. not ian then shaun because ian wanna sit car longer.
home. tmr guys.
home. tmr guys.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
playing in my head
-Were you thinking of me, when you kissed him-
wah i wanna go diving too. if i weren't so broke, i'd go with you both. but needed one more person too right. SMU better organise some diving trip soon. pressure all the SMUXies to start another one soon.
funnily, the first song that played on my WMP this afternoon was 'Adrienne by The Calling'. somehow 2 lines just call out to me. so scandelous. so tasty the 2 lines.
funnily, the first song that played on my WMP this afternoon was 'Adrienne by The Calling'. somehow 2 lines just call out to me. so scandelous. so tasty the 2 lines.
-Could you taste me when you licked his skin-
Friday, July 22, 2005
after the gloom, the sun shines brighter
and it's true! anyway someone commented my posts very sad. so i shall remove them!
let the world move. i shall sit and watch.
i've resolved to let the world do their thing and i shall just sit and watch. i have nothing left to say and nothing left to do.
-even the warmest hearts freeze and harden when left alone-
Thursday, July 21, 2005
a night to remember.
ah.. zouk on a weds after diving =) ditto bro. AWESOME! lol.
ohh u owe me much more... not only grand prize my friend.. bonus prize, consolation prize, mystery price etc etc. u owe me many many shaun. we'll sort this out later my open water diver buddy with the ear problems.
ohh u owe me much more... not only grand prize my friend.. bonus prize, consolation prize, mystery price etc etc. u owe me many many shaun. we'll sort this out later my open water diver buddy with the ear problems.
if you ascend too fast, short term euphoria occurs
yesterday, was awesome. i don't owe anyone chivas then?
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
last one
ok final one before i go poof. just had my filling lil breakfast. recharged the brain. warmed my body. so it's time to hibernate but not before a final word.
relationships. such a touchy topic. so many people have tried to define it but to no avail. i'm here not to define it myself, but to allow YOU to define it for yourself. cos in the end, it doesn't matter what relationships mean. what matters is what you want out of a relationship. for me it's rather simple, you can want a relationship for 3 reasons**:
(1) you seek companionship. you're into the relationship cos you like the idea of someone always being there for you. a companion so to speak. someone you can rely on. you thrive on their stability.
(2) you seek love. you're into the relationship cos you live on the fact that someone loves you. their attentiveness to you thrills you and makes you want more of them. you thrive on their love.
(3) you seek to love. you just wanna give and give. you wanna make people happy. it brightens your day just to see them smile. you thrive on making others happy.
relationships are a combination of all 3. it's just which one you lean more towards. personally, i think i'm more of a (3) person. leaning heavier onto that side. i'm glad just to see others glad. i'd smile if you smiled. regardless of the situation. so which one are you? why are you in a relationship?
**there is another category: you seek material/physical gain. but i shall not touch on that. i'm not knowledgeable enough in that aspect as yet. maybe when i become a millionaire or i get acquainted with a sugar mommy then i'll come back and blog about it.
relationships. such a touchy topic. so many people have tried to define it but to no avail. i'm here not to define it myself, but to allow YOU to define it for yourself. cos in the end, it doesn't matter what relationships mean. what matters is what you want out of a relationship. for me it's rather simple, you can want a relationship for 3 reasons**:
(1) you seek companionship. you're into the relationship cos you like the idea of someone always being there for you. a companion so to speak. someone you can rely on. you thrive on their stability.
(2) you seek love. you're into the relationship cos you live on the fact that someone loves you. their attentiveness to you thrills you and makes you want more of them. you thrive on their love.
(3) you seek to love. you just wanna give and give. you wanna make people happy. it brightens your day just to see them smile. you thrive on making others happy.
relationships are a combination of all 3. it's just which one you lean more towards. personally, i think i'm more of a (3) person. leaning heavier onto that side. i'm glad just to see others glad. i'd smile if you smiled. regardless of the situation. so which one are you? why are you in a relationship?
**there is another category: you seek material/physical gain. but i shall not touch on that. i'm not knowledgeable enough in that aspect as yet. maybe when i become a millionaire or i get acquainted with a sugar mommy then i'll come back and blog about it.
random feelings
blogging mania cos i can't sleep. pardon me and my nonsense.
i believe at our time and age, we should be able to do things on our own will such that in a way we look back not in regret but in a way where we'll say: hey, at least i tried. i want to jump into something and expose myself to the full glory of it and pop out saying it was great! sigh but i know that's impossible. sometimes you want in but you're confused, you don't know what's going on and you don't wanna hurt people if things fail. the fear of failure takes over and you'd leave, thinking things would be much better off if it'd never started. you retreat and brood over it, to realise you wanna try again only to find out that your chance has gone and left long ago.
as i've said, sometimes you wanna jump into something only to see that there's so much to consider that you start to fear and you only wanna go away cos you don't want to fear. you don't want to fail. you don't want to feel hurt anymore. lock yourself within you shall and mask yourself from the world you have.
the irony of man: you want yet you don't want. you need yet you don't want to need.
release me from my shackles and set me free. i want not to hurt no one. just let me fade to black for now and settle my thoughts so that one day i might return stronger and surer. but then again, when i return, my chance may have gone and left long ago.....
close my eyes and shut myself out. i shall run no more.
i believe at our time and age, we should be able to do things on our own will such that in a way we look back not in regret but in a way where we'll say: hey, at least i tried. i want to jump into something and expose myself to the full glory of it and pop out saying it was great! sigh but i know that's impossible. sometimes you want in but you're confused, you don't know what's going on and you don't wanna hurt people if things fail. the fear of failure takes over and you'd leave, thinking things would be much better off if it'd never started. you retreat and brood over it, to realise you wanna try again only to find out that your chance has gone and left long ago.
as i've said, sometimes you wanna jump into something only to see that there's so much to consider that you start to fear and you only wanna go away cos you don't want to fear. you don't want to fail. you don't want to feel hurt anymore. lock yourself within you shall and mask yourself from the world you have.
the irony of man: you want yet you don't want. you need yet you don't want to need.
release me from my shackles and set me free. i want not to hurt no one. just let me fade to black for now and settle my thoughts so that one day i might return stronger and surer. but then again, when i return, my chance may have gone and left long ago.....
close my eyes and shut myself out. i shall run no more.
nostalgia
chancing upon a bunch of letters made me seriously nostalgic. 6 yr old letters. i read all of them. what seemed so normal then, now seems so sweet.
i wanna go back to the time where we were all innocent and when we were all so shy that we wrote notes to be passed around. then notes got longer and became letters. letters led to songs and poems and sweet nothings.
those days were so simple. you didn't care how things went, you just went with your feelings. puppy love. amazingly cute. amazingly faraway now. how much we've grown in 6 yrs.
if i could collect every moment that made me smile and pack them into one single day, i'd live the 24 hours and die happy.
i wanna go back to the time where we were all innocent and when we were all so shy that we wrote notes to be passed around. then notes got longer and became letters. letters led to songs and poems and sweet nothings.
those days were so simple. you didn't care how things went, you just went with your feelings. puppy love. amazingly cute. amazingly faraway now. how much we've grown in 6 yrs.
if i could collect every moment that made me smile and pack them into one single day, i'd live the 24 hours and die happy.
ever?
everyone has someone/some people placed in a special corner of their hearts. these parts are called 'soft spots'. people placed on a soft spot are those whom you've liked before and what you remember of them, are generally good. they've left a good impression in your heart and you'd wanna be nice to them, whenever you see them.
most of the time these people have moved on, but still a special place you hold for them cos of what they've meant to you before. and wherever they go, you hoped them to have the best and hoped those around them would treat them as sweetly as you would or more. when you see that they're happy, you'd not begrudge as to why weren't you there with them, but rather, you'd smile along and acknowledge that they are indeed having a good life now and you'd be happy for them too.
but consequently, if you found out that, they weren't happy as you thought, or that people were mean to those you treasure, you'd be enraged. fueled by anger, you'd wanna kill those 'evil-doers' so-called, regardless if they were your brother/friend/enemy for they've tainted those who rest within your soft spot and cut them deep. you feel their pain and you'd cry for them if you could. but you know nothing soothes. helpless you are, you just stare from afar. hoping they'd be fine.
i'm sure you've all felt this way before. not that it's happening to me, it's just something for all of you to think about. it's been a night of reflection, just giving my penny's worth.
most of the time these people have moved on, but still a special place you hold for them cos of what they've meant to you before. and wherever they go, you hoped them to have the best and hoped those around them would treat them as sweetly as you would or more. when you see that they're happy, you'd not begrudge as to why weren't you there with them, but rather, you'd smile along and acknowledge that they are indeed having a good life now and you'd be happy for them too.
but consequently, if you found out that, they weren't happy as you thought, or that people were mean to those you treasure, you'd be enraged. fueled by anger, you'd wanna kill those 'evil-doers' so-called, regardless if they were your brother/friend/enemy for they've tainted those who rest within your soft spot and cut them deep. you feel their pain and you'd cry for them if you could. but you know nothing soothes. helpless you are, you just stare from afar. hoping they'd be fine.
i'm sure you've all felt this way before. not that it's happening to me, it's just something for all of you to think about. it's been a night of reflection, just giving my penny's worth.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
huh? part 2
nvm the irrelevant topics. huh? is just the word of the day.
just had my rather ok home dinner and rmbred smth cute which happened yesterday on the train. being the lazy bum i am, i'm just leaning against the glass thingy near the door and i was just minding my own business, glancing 'round the train, looking at pple and i chanced upon the most unassuming couple.
i don't mean to eavesdrop but hey, can't blame me if i've got sharp ears when i'm tuned into the kaypoh mode. so this guy and this girl right, were leaning against the glass on the other side. 1st look tells you they're friends, cos they're not lovey-dovey like every other couple that needs a room. they're standing a reasonable distance apart. so there, nothing much to look at, just friends chatting. but as the train moved, the guy leans in closer and closer. i couldn't actually hear what was going on between the 2 cos my ears' attention was spread thru-out the train, but now this guy caught my attention. haha and suddenly all i can hear is their conversation. so the girl was suddenly getting very shy and all, covering her face with her jacket and saying..no..no..no. or smth like that. their conversation was in chinese, i shall happily translate whatever i heard/understood.
so...anyway, the guy was looking like an unassuming normal dude/beng. he was in office wear with oval specs, looks kinda decent and stuff, but he had bronze coloured hair, so i call him the normal guy/beng. the girl was in office wear too. quite obvious they were just done with work, had dinner and the normal guy/beng was sending her home. the girl, i shall just call girl cos...she's kinda normal.
and i was saying, it all started with girl: no..no..no.. then i was like. huh? no what no? what does the beng want? so my ears focus in and...
GIRL(hiding and giggling behind her jacket): why of all people me...there are thousands and millions of girls, why me?
BENG(looking very serious): cos you're so nice to me.
GIRL(peeking out of her jacket to look around. but still giggling): but everyone's nice to you what. why me? why me me me?
BENG(Looking Very Serious{LVS}): but they're nice to me in a friendly way. you...you're different!
GIRL(Still Hiding And Giggling{SHAG}): so then how am i different? you mean you can tell that i'm nice to you in a different way?
BENG(pekchek already but still LVS): no...what i mean is...
GIRL(SHAG..alot)
BENG(silent, just looking, lost for words already but still! LVS)
GIRL(SHAG but leans toward the beng and leans on the beng's shoulder)
then...i don't know what happen anymore cos, i reached my station. sorry for the anti-climax la. i'm not so kaypoh to follow their saga all the way and miss my stop. anyway, gist of the story is most probably, beng told the girl he likes her. the girl paiseh and don't know how to react so keeps asking dumb questions. the beng tries to answer all the questions but just kena overwhelmed by all her giggling and questioning. but apparently, should be a happy ending cos she leaned on his shoulder. a gesture of affection perhaps.
moral of the story is..it takes alot of guts for guys to tell someone that they like her(or him whatever your preference) and it'll most probably wreck their brains to muster that kinda courage. so girls can help by reciprocating and showing the appropriate affection or if you don't like him just spare his paisehness and tell him gently. DON'T i repeat DON'T ask so many questions. cos his brain would most likely be dead already after letting it all out. asking more dumb questions would most probably confuse him/make him more paiseh/kill him.
anyway i'm just rambling. don't take anything for real except the story. it's real! but there is some truth in the last paragraph. don't confuse the poor guy la. don't say huh? just say ok or not ok. ok?
just had my rather ok home dinner and rmbred smth cute which happened yesterday on the train. being the lazy bum i am, i'm just leaning against the glass thingy near the door and i was just minding my own business, glancing 'round the train, looking at pple and i chanced upon the most unassuming couple.
i don't mean to eavesdrop but hey, can't blame me if i've got sharp ears when i'm tuned into the kaypoh mode. so this guy and this girl right, were leaning against the glass on the other side. 1st look tells you they're friends, cos they're not lovey-dovey like every other couple that needs a room. they're standing a reasonable distance apart. so there, nothing much to look at, just friends chatting. but as the train moved, the guy leans in closer and closer. i couldn't actually hear what was going on between the 2 cos my ears' attention was spread thru-out the train, but now this guy caught my attention. haha and suddenly all i can hear is their conversation. so the girl was suddenly getting very shy and all, covering her face with her jacket and saying..no..no..no. or smth like that. their conversation was in chinese, i shall happily translate whatever i heard/understood.
so...anyway, the guy was looking like an unassuming normal dude/beng. he was in office wear with oval specs, looks kinda decent and stuff, but he had bronze coloured hair, so i call him the normal guy/beng. the girl was in office wear too. quite obvious they were just done with work, had dinner and the normal guy/beng was sending her home. the girl, i shall just call girl cos...she's kinda normal.
and i was saying, it all started with girl: no..no..no.. then i was like. huh? no what no? what does the beng want? so my ears focus in and...
GIRL(hiding and giggling behind her jacket): why of all people me...there are thousands and millions of girls, why me?
BENG(looking very serious): cos you're so nice to me.
GIRL(peeking out of her jacket to look around. but still giggling): but everyone's nice to you what. why me? why me me me?
BENG(Looking Very Serious{LVS}): but they're nice to me in a friendly way. you...you're different!
GIRL(Still Hiding And Giggling{SHAG}): so then how am i different? you mean you can tell that i'm nice to you in a different way?
BENG(pekchek already but still LVS): no...what i mean is...
GIRL(SHAG..alot)
BENG(silent, just looking, lost for words already but still! LVS)
GIRL(SHAG but leans toward the beng and leans on the beng's shoulder)
then...i don't know what happen anymore cos, i reached my station. sorry for the anti-climax la. i'm not so kaypoh to follow their saga all the way and miss my stop. anyway, gist of the story is most probably, beng told the girl he likes her. the girl paiseh and don't know how to react so keeps asking dumb questions. the beng tries to answer all the questions but just kena overwhelmed by all her giggling and questioning. but apparently, should be a happy ending cos she leaned on his shoulder. a gesture of affection perhaps.
moral of the story is..it takes alot of guts for guys to tell someone that they like her(or him whatever your preference) and it'll most probably wreck their brains to muster that kinda courage. so girls can help by reciprocating and showing the appropriate affection or if you don't like him just spare his paisehness and tell him gently. DON'T i repeat DON'T ask so many questions. cos his brain would most likely be dead already after letting it all out. asking more dumb questions would most probably confuse him/make him more paiseh/kill him.
anyway i'm just rambling. don't take anything for real except the story. it's real! but there is some truth in the last paragraph. don't confuse the poor guy la. don't say huh? just say ok or not ok. ok?
huh?
you want me to blog?
i got nothing to say really. just very very bored. should i ramble? i shall rant then.
recently, i've just been camping at home. sleep@3, wake up@11, sleep again till 2-3, lunch@4, dinner@7, supper@11, sleep@3. rinse, repeat. occasionally hang out east side. parkway area, etc. what i feel like doing: go mambo, chill out in town, watch movie, etc. but then again, too lazy to ask pple to go out, whole day just sit at home, wait for pple to jolt me out of my rotting state and invite me to go out. i can feel all the moss growing all over me already. speaking of which, don't really feel like going out also cos, skin's all peeling like a banana. started out with the back. that's fine, still can cover up with my shirts and all, then it spread to my arms! wah, look like freak, dried skin on the arms, white and all. like snake molting. sick la. looks like i've got 2 snakes growing out of my shoulders. tsk. then i've got this swollen eye. my left eye. swelling since friday. so like saturday i went out it was kinda swollen, so trying to hide it behind my specs but still everyone gave me the weird look. just imagine a guy with swollen left eye, peeling like a banana and having 2 snakes for arms. whicked sick. yeah that's how i look now. i think i shall just hide at home la. away from everyone's peering eyes. :( more over, i'm a poor broke boy. go out gotta rely on people to feed me. if i go out with girls then the girls have to feed me. if go out with boys..er...they can pay then i'll feed myself(it's ok guys. really.) sad life laaa.
okok, i shall spare you all my nonsense then. shan't ramble. cos my brain is empty. when i got more stuffings in my mind then i shall come back to ramble again.
i got nothing to say really. just very very bored. should i ramble? i shall rant then.
recently, i've just been camping at home. sleep@3, wake up@11, sleep again till 2-3, lunch@4, dinner@7, supper@11, sleep@3. rinse, repeat. occasionally hang out east side. parkway area, etc. what i feel like doing: go mambo, chill out in town, watch movie, etc. but then again, too lazy to ask pple to go out, whole day just sit at home, wait for pple to jolt me out of my rotting state and invite me to go out. i can feel all the moss growing all over me already. speaking of which, don't really feel like going out also cos, skin's all peeling like a banana. started out with the back. that's fine, still can cover up with my shirts and all, then it spread to my arms! wah, look like freak, dried skin on the arms, white and all. like snake molting. sick la. looks like i've got 2 snakes growing out of my shoulders. tsk. then i've got this swollen eye. my left eye. swelling since friday. so like saturday i went out it was kinda swollen, so trying to hide it behind my specs but still everyone gave me the weird look. just imagine a guy with swollen left eye, peeling like a banana and having 2 snakes for arms. whicked sick. yeah that's how i look now. i think i shall just hide at home la. away from everyone's peering eyes. :( more over, i'm a poor broke boy. go out gotta rely on people to feed me. if i go out with girls then the girls have to feed me. if go out with boys..er...they can pay then i'll feed myself(it's ok guys. really.) sad life laaa.
okok, i shall spare you all my nonsense then. shan't ramble. cos my brain is empty. when i got more stuffings in my mind then i shall come back to ramble again.
awol
As shaun and greg are stillll away, i'll try to fill the void in this blog.
Watched sin city yesterday and it was good! much better than i expected really. the B/W, the yellow hair-ed red lipstick GOLDIE, the harry potter look-alike (almost thought it was a spoof), the blue eyes of betty, the yellow skin guy. the extra-ness of josh harnett in the show. really felt like i was watching a comic book real-time. catch it if you can! oh yah and alba's really hot.
Oh yah SHAWN, the faci's mentioned a shawn who is uncontactable and thats you! haha guess what. the 4 of us will be in the same group for sports camp. hows that. lol. anyways i heard 80% of sports camp will be guys so better luck next camp!
ian your turn!!
Watched sin city yesterday and it was good! much better than i expected really. the B/W, the yellow hair-ed red lipstick GOLDIE, the harry potter look-alike (almost thought it was a spoof), the blue eyes of betty, the yellow skin guy. the extra-ness of josh harnett in the show. really felt like i was watching a comic book real-time. catch it if you can! oh yah and alba's really hot.
Oh yah SHAWN, the faci's mentioned a shawn who is uncontactable and thats you! haha guess what. the 4 of us will be in the same group for sports camp. hows that. lol. anyways i heard 80% of sports camp will be guys so better luck next camp!
ian your turn!!
Monday, July 18, 2005
Praise You
As i wake up this morning, this fine morning, i put in my favourite french cd and played track 12, Apres Toi by Liane Foly. Listening to your favourite songs in the morning is the best thing that can happen.
I feel compelled to post this.
I feel so blessed. Why can i wake up this morning with no worries in the world, to play my favourite french cd on my favourite speakers. Why can i have a new laptop to type this, or even a new phone to play with. Why can i have a nice bed to sleep a peaceful sleep in. Why can i have a nice school to go to, with new friends and old friends together. Why can i do all these while there are others who are not so blessed? While there are others struggling to make ends meet, working hard to pay for their textbooks, no nice music to listen to, maybe even no bed to sleep in, just a straw mattress. With no shelther over their heads while wondering when their next meal will come.
Why me?
I know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
To everything there is a season, a Time for every purpose under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1
I feel compelled to post this.
I feel so blessed. Why can i wake up this morning with no worries in the world, to play my favourite french cd on my favourite speakers. Why can i have a new laptop to type this, or even a new phone to play with. Why can i have a nice bed to sleep a peaceful sleep in. Why can i have a nice school to go to, with new friends and old friends together. Why can i do all these while there are others who are not so blessed? While there are others struggling to make ends meet, working hard to pay for their textbooks, no nice music to listen to, maybe even no bed to sleep in, just a straw mattress. With no shelther over their heads while wondering when their next meal will come.
Why me?
I know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
To everything there is a season, a Time for every purpose under heaven. Ecclesiastes 3:1
Thursday, July 14, 2005
SMU Circle Xperience
basically put, it's SMU's orientation camp. split into 2 waves. 12-14 july being the first and 20-22 july being the second.
just back! honestly, it was a blast. better than i thought it would be. not so much the activities, but rather the people. when the company's good, everything just seems great. playing dumb amazing race like games, walking at night through semi-constructed japanese garden, trekking halfway cross west singapore from chinese gardens to CDANS adventure resort(it was supposed to be a race to find checkpoints but we really couldn't be bothered. just took our own sweet time, bought canned food from provision shops, ate ice cream, etcetc.) sleeping under the stars(praying that it wouldn't rain. it didn't.) climbing nonsense high obstacles. water wars to end it all. it really didn't matter that it all sounded dumb. i thought it was good. met several interesting individuals. good friends they'll make i foresee. ok guys i've made up my mind to go for SMUve. join me la.
ok, i'm beat. not in the mood for descriptions but i've got a feeling school's gonna be great. gonna conk out now. laters.
just back! honestly, it was a blast. better than i thought it would be. not so much the activities, but rather the people. when the company's good, everything just seems great. playing dumb amazing race like games, walking at night through semi-constructed japanese garden, trekking halfway cross west singapore from chinese gardens to CDANS adventure resort(it was supposed to be a race to find checkpoints but we really couldn't be bothered. just took our own sweet time, bought canned food from provision shops, ate ice cream, etcetc.) sleeping under the stars(praying that it wouldn't rain. it didn't.) climbing nonsense high obstacles. water wars to end it all. it really didn't matter that it all sounded dumb. i thought it was good. met several interesting individuals. good friends they'll make i foresee. ok guys i've made up my mind to go for SMUve. join me la.
ok, i'm beat. not in the mood for descriptions but i've got a feeling school's gonna be great. gonna conk out now. laters.
camp was fun!
ok honestly, i haven't been to many camps, other than army ones, but this camp was really fun! i just throughly enjoyed myself, no inhibitions (thanks ian), nothing to worry about.
had fun playing the groundsheet game at CDANS, the walk to chinese garden was relaxing and cheerful. met shaun tan along the way and had a shouting exchange with him =o) when we reached chinese garden, trees, grass, greenery, sky and the clouds...
lots of laughs and bridging after dinner the last night was followed by a lateeeee night chat in the darkness with youan, liping, ashley, louis, amanda and me. from talking about russell peters, to the jokes of a certain Dr ex PM from our neighbours "the man on the sun", to the story of the mother and son and the missing hand (*SCREAM by liping, everyone stared). slept way past lights out.
woke up the next day to an adventure race of obstacles around chinese garden, had a great time running and laughing too, "the connected towers". followed by river rafting and a very tiring dragon boat race which we won. "war of the worlds" was after lunch, but that was a pretty dumb affair. by then we were all shagged out already. just wanting to go home.. thanks facis yvonne and zing for the great time.
i'm sure greg had his fair share of fun, saw him connecting well with his group, went for dinner straight after the camp somemore!
ok, thats all for now. sports and smuX coming up soon. hope i won't be too tired.
had fun playing the groundsheet game at CDANS, the walk to chinese garden was relaxing and cheerful. met shaun tan along the way and had a shouting exchange with him =o) when we reached chinese garden, trees, grass, greenery, sky and the clouds...
lots of laughs and bridging after dinner the last night was followed by a lateeeee night chat in the darkness with youan, liping, ashley, louis, amanda and me. from talking about russell peters, to the jokes of a certain Dr ex PM from our neighbours "the man on the sun", to the story of the mother and son and the missing hand (*SCREAM by liping, everyone stared). slept way past lights out.
woke up the next day to an adventure race of obstacles around chinese garden, had a great time running and laughing too, "the connected towers". followed by river rafting and a very tiring dragon boat race which we won. "war of the worlds" was after lunch, but that was a pretty dumb affair. by then we were all shagged out already. just wanting to go home.. thanks facis yvonne and zing for the great time.
i'm sure greg had his fair share of fun, saw him connecting well with his group, went for dinner straight after the camp somemore!
ok, thats all for now. sports and smuX coming up soon. hope i won't be too tired.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
SMU
i so bored.
i miss u guys.
i sound gay
but i miss u guys.
i wanna go smu.
i dont really wanna go school
morale of the story is
i miss you guys
note: i sound gay.
i miss u guys.
i sound gay
but i miss u guys.
i wanna go smu.
i dont really wanna go school
morale of the story is
i miss you guys
note: i sound gay.
Monday, July 11, 2005
pain
http://dolby.dyndns.org/upfoo/mov/1111677575718.wmv
police on pretense. watch how the riot police become the rioters themselves.
police on pretense. watch how the riot police become the rioters themselves.
Oh at last blogger presents 765 posts instead of the usual 312 or 316 posts. anyone noticed?
Anyways i had a good long sleep last night. A long sleep with dreams of friends and fun. Maybe it was because i was so tired yesterday, had a really long day..
left home at 8am for church and Dr Don Richardson was the speaker, telling us about how he and his wife and young son integrated and lived with the indigenous people of new guinea. How the native people were cannibals and lived on treetops and how he spread the word of God to them. Devotion of the greatest kind, learnt their language, totally isolated from the world. (And shaun, theres no T3 connection, and no deer to hunt hurhur. sorry inside joke) Amazing stories from an evangelist.
11.30 went for lunch with the cell at thomson plaza and realised i didn't bring my coporate bankcard out, called my sis urgently at 1.30pm in town and met her to take it. rushed down to ikea afterwards at 2.30pm and it started to pour like crazy! i was stuck at the busstop for so long because i didn't want to wet my birkenstocks. er sounds gay but yet they take super long to dry once you get some water on them. i fell asleep at the bus stop......The rain subsided a bit and time was against me, so i decided to make a dash for ikea. did up my friends card and redeemed a free drink ! ahha i'm damn cheapskate la. sat down at the cafe alone and read through details of the contract i'm gonna sign with my investor later. Theres so many things i wanna buy at ikea !
leather table top - 75 (leather with white trimmings.) haha
leather mouse pad -10
leather pen holder -25
wine rack -40
ludde sheeprug -79
Jay Chou CD -20 i've been putting off this purchase for so long..
poster frame x2 -150
lounge chairrr -500? havent found a good one..
oh. can't really buy these as i'm broke now.. so i'll put them off. maybe for a year..
after my free drink at ikea (heh), rushedddd down to suntec to meet my investor in the business. she was late so i hung around hmv listening to olivia, if i'm not wrong, shes a singaporean teenager creating a storm in japan. Sounds of bossa nova, clear and refreshing voice, future lisa ono!
met up with eric because he was alone too, waiting for you an and we walked around looking for glasses... at last my investor came and we went through the contract briefly and signed the contract. done, and its 510pm! late for the OG gathering at the suntec info counter... shit. rushed there and i see a whole mess of people all over. looking dazed, tried to ask wheres grp 17.. my group seriously doesn't look very fun. like er... but maybe i shouldn't compare to TEG. at least you an and desmond wee are in my group, can talk cock a bit. had dinner at kenny rogers and played some dumb POLAR BEAR AND GURU game at the underground bunker of esplanade. superrr lame game. i got killed at the second round, because i was smiling. and they thought i was the polar bear. i don't want to elaborate. its dumb.
after the games 8 plus.. the guys were allll busy. shaun busy getting CHAUFFERED around in a BM 5. greg go for some bday party.. ian haven't end yet. so i called ian, "wanna dota ?" "huh then only you me cai, no point la" so i went to the mrt station. sat there for 30mins thinking of what i should do. go home.
I'm so ronery. So ronery.
Soronery and sadry arone.
Dere's no one,
just me onry,
sitting on my rittle throne.
I wook rearry hard and make upg reat plans.
But nobody listens, no one understands...
Seems that no one takes me
SER-RI-ROUS-REEEEEEEEE...
And so... I'm rone-ry... A rittle rone-ry...
Poor rittle me.
Dere's nobody I can rerate to.
Feel rike a bird in a cage. It's kind of sirry...
But not rearry...
Because it's firring my body with rage!
I 'm the smartest most clever,most physically fit but nobody
seems to rearize it.
When I change the world maybe
they'll notice meeeeeeeeee---until then I'll just be lonely...
poor little me...I'm so rone-ryyyyyy.
Anyways i had a good long sleep last night. A long sleep with dreams of friends and fun. Maybe it was because i was so tired yesterday, had a really long day..
left home at 8am for church and Dr Don Richardson was the speaker, telling us about how he and his wife and young son integrated and lived with the indigenous people of new guinea. How the native people were cannibals and lived on treetops and how he spread the word of God to them. Devotion of the greatest kind, learnt their language, totally isolated from the world. (And shaun, theres no T3 connection, and no deer to hunt hurhur. sorry inside joke) Amazing stories from an evangelist.
11.30 went for lunch with the cell at thomson plaza and realised i didn't bring my coporate bankcard out, called my sis urgently at 1.30pm in town and met her to take it. rushed down to ikea afterwards at 2.30pm and it started to pour like crazy! i was stuck at the busstop for so long because i didn't want to wet my birkenstocks. er sounds gay but yet they take super long to dry once you get some water on them. i fell asleep at the bus stop......The rain subsided a bit and time was against me, so i decided to make a dash for ikea. did up my friends card and redeemed a free drink ! ahha i'm damn cheapskate la. sat down at the cafe alone and read through details of the contract i'm gonna sign with my investor later. Theres so many things i wanna buy at ikea !
leather table top - 75 (leather with white trimmings.) haha
leather mouse pad -10
leather pen holder -25
wine rack -40
ludde sheeprug -79
Jay Chou CD -20 i've been putting off this purchase for so long..
poster frame x2 -150
lounge chairrr -500? havent found a good one..
oh. can't really buy these as i'm broke now.. so i'll put them off. maybe for a year..
after my free drink at ikea (heh), rushedddd down to suntec to meet my investor in the business. she was late so i hung around hmv listening to olivia, if i'm not wrong, shes a singaporean teenager creating a storm in japan. Sounds of bossa nova, clear and refreshing voice, future lisa ono!
met up with eric because he was alone too, waiting for you an and we walked around looking for glasses... at last my investor came and we went through the contract briefly and signed the contract. done, and its 510pm! late for the OG gathering at the suntec info counter... shit. rushed there and i see a whole mess of people all over. looking dazed, tried to ask wheres grp 17.. my group seriously doesn't look very fun. like er... but maybe i shouldn't compare to TEG. at least you an and desmond wee are in my group, can talk cock a bit. had dinner at kenny rogers and played some dumb POLAR BEAR AND GURU game at the underground bunker of esplanade. superrr lame game. i got killed at the second round, because i was smiling. and they thought i was the polar bear. i don't want to elaborate. its dumb.
after the games 8 plus.. the guys were allll busy. shaun busy getting CHAUFFERED around in a BM 5. greg go for some bday party.. ian haven't end yet. so i called ian, "wanna dota ?" "huh then only you me cai, no point la" so i went to the mrt station. sat there for 30mins thinking of what i should do. go home.
I'm so ronery. So ronery.
Soronery and sadry arone.
Dere's no one,
just me onry,
sitting on my rittle throne.
I wook rearry hard and make upg reat plans.
But nobody listens, no one understands...
Seems that no one takes me
SER-RI-ROUS-REEEEEEEEE...
And so... I'm rone-ry... A rittle rone-ry...
Poor rittle me.
Dere's nobody I can rerate to.
Feel rike a bird in a cage. It's kind of sirry...
But not rearry...
Because it's firring my body with rage!
I 'm the smartest most clever,most physically fit but nobody
seems to rearize it.
When I change the world maybe
they'll notice meeeeeeeeee---until then I'll just be lonely...
poor little me...I'm so rone-ryyyyyy.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
sentosa 090705. we eventually got there after delaying the time to 1130, walking to n from harbourfront a few times due to faulty intel tt the hawker centre at the bus terminal where we had our lunch was still open when in fact it was closed for renovations lol. so with yoshinoya in out belly n 2 cabs later, we finally parked our asses in a shady spot. from left there is myself n sahun checking out cai's new shades, there is ian posing with amber nearer ther front, jh still not getting enuff of his BRAND NEW 02 XDA MINI!, liwen ( cai sista) in her much discussed sun-dress and what i believe is half of nicole deciding where to lay the towel. pictureee courtesy of kelly cai. oh yeah n the nice patch of sand behind was where we got hot feet n burnt playing frisbee. lol.
sunshine
sun.
sand.
sea.
3 primary elements made it a good day.
fun.
frisbee.
friends.
3 important factors made it a great day!
burnt.
burnt.
burnt.
3 painful reminders of this wonderful day's gonna make the night impossible to pass asleep.
a day in sentosa, summarised into 9 words. ok, 7. you pass maths and english. tired, 'nuff said. sleep and get ready for SMU camp. 12-14 July. wah lau. see a 'packing list'. field camp anyone?
in...need...of...aloe...my...skin...burnssssssss
sand.
sea.
3 primary elements made it a good day.
fun.
frisbee.
friends.
3 important factors made it a great day!
burnt.
burnt.
burnt.
3 painful reminders of this wonderful day's gonna make the night impossible to pass asleep.
a day in sentosa, summarised into 9 words. ok, 7. you pass maths and english. tired, 'nuff said. sleep and get ready for SMU camp. 12-14 July. wah lau. see a 'packing list'. field camp anyone?
in...need...of...aloe...my...skin...burnssssssss
Saturday, July 09, 2005
anyone?
John Pizzarelli
Jazz guitarist extraordinaire.
Sings like Nat King Cole
Plays Like Les Paul
$38 bucks
Interested parties?
Jazz guitarist extraordinaire.
Sings like Nat King Cole
Plays Like Les Paul
$38 bucks
Interested parties?
Friday, July 08, 2005
SENTOSA vs LAN SHOP vs MY ROOM (vs triathlon/newbalance run)
sentosa:
- hot
- sandy
- many many people
- no money to buy drinks
- have to bathe after getting sticky salt water on you
- perspire much much
- grumpy
- getting scolded for not being able to catch
lan shop:
- cooling
- cheap drinks
- customer service
- nice chairs
- nice mouse/keyboard
- many many games
- cheap cheap for hours of endless fun!
- can trash the people who scold you for not being able to catch
my room:
- cooling
- Xbox cum dvd player
- HiFi with nice music
- 2 TVs
- many many DVDs
- mini bar fridge stocked with coke
- nice bed
- don't have evil people who scold you for anything
- can watch the london bombing on one tv and bomb london in grand theft auto on the other tv
IMHO, it's a good fight between the lan shop and my room. you think?
(what triathlon? what what what? i read you strength 1 over)
- hot
- sandy
- many many people
- no money to buy drinks
- have to bathe after getting sticky salt water on you
- perspire much much
- grumpy
- getting scolded for not being able to catch
lan shop:
- cooling
- cheap drinks
- customer service
- nice chairs
- nice mouse/keyboard
- many many games
- cheap cheap for hours of endless fun!
- can trash the people who scold you for not being able to catch
my room:
- cooling
- Xbox cum dvd player
- HiFi with nice music
- 2 TVs
- many many DVDs
- mini bar fridge stocked with coke
- nice bed
- don't have evil people who scold you for anything
- can watch the london bombing on one tv and bomb london in grand theft auto on the other tv
IMHO, it's a good fight between the lan shop and my room. you think?
(what triathlon? what what what? i read you strength 1 over)
participants' list
Here we have the participants' list for the Annual Sentosa Ironman/woman Race held tomorrow at sunny Sentosa, Singapore.
1. Mok Hui Qi
2. Li Wen (shit i don't know your surname, Li Wen sounds like a china name)
3. Sim Jian Hong
4. Yi En Tan
5. Tan Yu Xun
6. Ng Sin Guan
7. Cai Wei Guo
8. Unconfirmed : Tan Le Min
Please bring the necessary items like sunblock/tan lotion, ipods (SPEAKERS), towels, anyone got groundsheet please bring, bathing equipment, FRISBEE (greg...), balls of any sort, reading material if you intend to read, and a truckload of humour pls, don't wanna go there and start PEOF. ok bad joke. hurhur.
anyways remember to bring your number tags and registration papers as those who do not would be disqualified.
Timing : 1030 Harbourfront MRT (please wake each other up...). Maybe breakfast first b4 heading down ? Need some food and energy to run ironman/woman..
1. Mok Hui Qi
2. Li Wen (shit i don't know your surname, Li Wen sounds like a china name)
3. Sim Jian Hong
4. Yi En Tan
5. Tan Yu Xun
6. Ng Sin Guan
7. Cai Wei Guo
8. Unconfirmed : Tan Le Min
Please bring the necessary items like sunblock/tan lotion, ipods (SPEAKERS), towels, anyone got groundsheet please bring, bathing equipment, FRISBEE (greg...), balls of any sort, reading material if you intend to read, and a truckload of humour pls, don't wanna go there and start PEOF. ok bad joke. hurhur.
anyways remember to bring your number tags and registration papers as those who do not would be disqualified.
Timing : 1030 Harbourfront MRT (please wake each other up...). Maybe breakfast first b4 heading down ? Need some food and energy to run ironman/woman..
are you sure ?
isaac are you sure you wanna ask the guys to do all these?
i mean shaun aka "the sloth" would probably not wake up for the race at all la.
and ian might just arrive late for the start of the race.. =o)
and i can't swim 50m without seriously panting so..
eh maybe we can do some practice at sentosa tmr ? forget the speakers! lets do some exercise..
i mean shaun aka "the sloth" would probably not wake up for the race at all la.
and ian might just arrive late for the start of the race.. =o)
and i can't swim 50m without seriously panting so..
eh maybe we can do some practice at sentosa tmr ? forget the speakers! lets do some exercise..
pump it up
Hey guys, how bout a good workout to break the sedentary cycle?
NUS Triathlon - 14th August - 800m swim, 17km cycle, 5 km run
New Balance Real Run - 28th August - 10km trail run
New Balance Aquathlon - 3rd September - not sure the distance but its swim, run swim
Come on, it'll be fun.
NUS Triathlon - 14th August - 800m swim, 17km cycle, 5 km run
New Balance Real Run - 28th August - 10km trail run
New Balance Aquathlon - 3rd September - not sure the distance but its swim, run swim
Come on, it'll be fun.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
alone
have you ever felt that you are alone?
the type as if you're bare to the bone?
but in physical solitude you are not.
with friends abound, alone you're not.
it's inside yourself that you have no one.
to share your troubles and woes, you've none.
when you lie alone in your bed at night,
you roll around, you can't sleep tight.
your thoughts twisting, mind churning.
the fire in your heart, weak and dying.
when you're so alone, your dreams are bust.
your hopes and desires all turn to dust.
and you feel so empty deep within.
a husk, you're hollow, you're nothin'!
and to think all you need is a listening ear,
how no one ever seems to be near?
it's sad! sucha sad sad situation.
like a lone star in the constellation...
but what's the point if you moan and groan.
no one hears, no one cares cos...
i feel............ so alone.
the type as if you're bare to the bone?
but in physical solitude you are not.
with friends abound, alone you're not.
it's inside yourself that you have no one.
to share your troubles and woes, you've none.
when you lie alone in your bed at night,
you roll around, you can't sleep tight.
your thoughts twisting, mind churning.
the fire in your heart, weak and dying.
when you're so alone, your dreams are bust.
your hopes and desires all turn to dust.
and you feel so empty deep within.
a husk, you're hollow, you're nothin'!
and to think all you need is a listening ear,
how no one ever seems to be near?
it's sad! sucha sad sad situation.
like a lone star in the constellation...
but what's the point if you moan and groan.
no one hears, no one cares cos...
i feel............ so alone.
brighter than sunshine
suddenly it dawned upon me it's such a nice song. i'm hooked.
sorry prepare for an avalanche of randomness.
zouk was great last night. not zouk. phuture. eugene lau with his long islands, vodka sprite?(i think) and what else i can't remember. navin(yo!) and his chiva and apple shooters. marcus and his, 'i dunno what's in the jug'. cong and his vodka ribenas all over the table. drank to my fill i did. and lancing lancing the night away as someone would say. i have no recognition of what else i took into system. ow...i feel for my liver.
and cigs. they stink. my tongue feels violated. as if they're corroding. but honestly down the throat into the lungs, wasn't so bad. no coughs no chokes. just smooth. just the aftertaste in the mouth. definitely not smth i'd like or actively associate myself with. ugh. ow...my poor tar-coated lungs. i reiterate. i hate cigs. i hate smoking. i did promise myself a long long while ago to try a puff. and tried i did. like it i didn't.
sigh, got my friend into some trouble. oh well, sorry there. i know you probably don't read this blog, but, i'm still sorry. i'm sure everything will be fine soon. don't worry!
supper at newton! wah. mee goreng with kailan and stingray. have never seen such a weird combi. never seen such a BIG plate of mee goreng! and saw my recruits. thanks alot la, first thing they ask me why i'm so white. and still talking about after grenade live throw i look chao ta. now i look so peh peh. gimme a break can. try to stay at home and not have any day activity for 3 months. see whether u peh peh or not.
5 pple! squeezed into a cab! so nice the uncle. and for a first shaun went home first. miracle. when i alighted the fare was already 20 bucks. wah ex. wonder how much to cai's place. and had a long ass walk home can. try lancing lancing so long and still abit high and walk 1 hour home. but it's good. i like to walk.
sorry prepare for an avalanche of randomness.
zouk was great last night. not zouk. phuture. eugene lau with his long islands, vodka sprite?(i think) and what else i can't remember. navin(yo!) and his chiva and apple shooters. marcus and his, 'i dunno what's in the jug'. cong and his vodka ribenas all over the table. drank to my fill i did. and lancing lancing the night away as someone would say. i have no recognition of what else i took into system. ow...i feel for my liver.
and cigs. they stink. my tongue feels violated. as if they're corroding. but honestly down the throat into the lungs, wasn't so bad. no coughs no chokes. just smooth. just the aftertaste in the mouth. definitely not smth i'd like or actively associate myself with. ugh. ow...my poor tar-coated lungs. i reiterate. i hate cigs. i hate smoking. i did promise myself a long long while ago to try a puff. and tried i did. like it i didn't.
sigh, got my friend into some trouble. oh well, sorry there. i know you probably don't read this blog, but, i'm still sorry. i'm sure everything will be fine soon. don't worry!
supper at newton! wah. mee goreng with kailan and stingray. have never seen such a weird combi. never seen such a BIG plate of mee goreng! and saw my recruits. thanks alot la, first thing they ask me why i'm so white. and still talking about after grenade live throw i look chao ta. now i look so peh peh. gimme a break can. try to stay at home and not have any day activity for 3 months. see whether u peh peh or not.
5 pple! squeezed into a cab! so nice the uncle. and for a first shaun went home first. miracle. when i alighted the fare was already 20 bucks. wah ex. wonder how much to cai's place. and had a long ass walk home can. try lancing lancing so long and still abit high and walk 1 hour home. but it's good. i like to walk.
WANTED:
People who like walking and talking forever.
People who like walking and talking forever.
I really miss those nights, where i'd walk along the beaches and talk the night away. they now seem so far and distant. who? you wanna come? you're most welcome! what? tonight? sure...why not?
pardon my delusions. wishful thinking on my part. would you like to join me? all you have to do is ask and you'd certainly be most welcome. just don't fall asleep on me. well not ON me, but i mean while we're talking. but if you wanna fall asleep ON me also can. then i'll just wake you when the sun rises...and we'll watch the day chase the night away, aiight? seeya then...
pardon my delusions. wishful thinking on my part. would you like to join me? all you have to do is ask and you'd certainly be most welcome. just don't fall asleep on me. well not ON me, but i mean while we're talking. but if you wanna fall asleep ON me also can. then i'll just wake you when the sun rises...and we'll watch the day chase the night away, aiight? seeya then...
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Someone falls to pieces, sleepin all alone
Someone kills the pain, spinning in the silence
To finally drift away.
Someone gets excited, in a chapel yard, catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen white roses on a grave.
Someone finds salvation in everyone,
And another only fame.
Someone tries to hide himself down inside their selfish brains
Someone swears his true love until the end of time,
Another runs away
Separate or united?
Healthy or insane?
And even when you've paid enough, been pulled apart or been held up
With every single memory of the good or bad faces of luck,
don't lose any sleep tonight,
I'm sure everything will end up alright.
You may win or lose,
But to be yourself is all that you can do
Someone kills the pain, spinning in the silence
To finally drift away.
Someone gets excited, in a chapel yard, catches a bouquet
Another lays a dozen white roses on a grave.
Someone finds salvation in everyone,
And another only fame.
Someone tries to hide himself down inside their selfish brains
Someone swears his true love until the end of time,
Another runs away
Separate or united?
Healthy or insane?
And even when you've paid enough, been pulled apart or been held up
With every single memory of the good or bad faces of luck,
don't lose any sleep tonight,
I'm sure everything will end up alright.
You may win or lose,
But to be yourself is all that you can do
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Monday, July 04, 2005
i've been taking the car quite frequently recently... it's just so nice to drive that i've to burn a new compilation of songs everytime i take the car. i turn up the volume and cruise with the windows down. so relaxing and fun that i miss all my exits and wind up somewhere else, which is good because getting lost with a car is fun. e* i hope you like my driving! and mark thanks for the directions home... haha would've been lost w/o you. too bad i've a stupid driving curfew at 12am. zzzzz.
met up with lor as per norm on sundays when i get the car... brought her to our fav bah chor mee stall...lol that's quite funny. last sunday i brought her to bedok 85 bah chor mee. hmmm next sunday dunnoe go where. 5star chicken rice?
dota tonight then? stupid jh... pangseh me twice... always say go for spin in the end never go. *shrug*
met up with lor as per norm on sundays when i get the car... brought her to our fav bah chor mee stall...lol that's quite funny. last sunday i brought her to bedok 85 bah chor mee. hmmm next sunday dunnoe go where. 5star chicken rice?
dota tonight then? stupid jh... pangseh me twice... always say go for spin in the end never go. *shrug*
friends
my dearest TEG cyberparkers. it seems we have erupted into yet another session of "Piss Each Other ofF"(hereby known as PEOF) session. as all PEOF sessions go, it all starts with us doing/saying stupid things. thebis-ra and K being the recent examples. honestly, K, to be speaking from a guy's point of view is pretty...erm...pretty. gimme a break, i'm trying to be neutral here. and guys being guys, will ALWAYS look at pretty girls and want to acquaint themselves with pretty girls, and more if they could. in this case, a small incident is blown big by repeating the incidents many times. gets on people's nerves when there's just too much. you know what i mean? guys being guys, should learn to let go. smth happens, we look at it, discuss, make jokes, laugh and move on. K saga over. those who still wish to get involved with K please carry on. me, i honestly am happy just to be an acquaintance. i would hereby officially state that i'm done with the PEOF:K session. all references back to that session shall be countered with a resounding 'OEI!'.
off K, back to main topic. friends in general, will always say dumb things and do dumb things to constantly PEOF. there are usually TWO ways that a PEOF session will end in TEG:
1. we have a bloody brilliant game of dota, where we get stupid heroes and still win magnificently. everybody's happy, smile, have supper and all would be behind us.
2. we post our thoughts online and let the collective mumble-jumble settle in our minds. people cool down, think through and decide, hey, we're friends and we're more than this.
my point being, PEOFs will always somehow eventually settle themselves. thanks for everyone's concern but our friendships are always above our dumb squabbles. it's always the same scenarios. someone's jokes goes too far, someone snaps at him to control himself and we PEOF again. then, the next day we go for 4 hours of dota and everything's settle. Good Game. but today, i shall take the path less travelled, talk about this online and settle this before dota so our teamwork shall remain impeccable. just kidding. our lives does not revolve around dota. cai has his(father's) airboat, greg has his girls(mr. man), jh has his business, shaun has WoW... and scamper. i have my Raging Pig 2.
ok final line: guys, we know what happened, we've talked about it, we've made the dumb jokes, we've laughed. time to move on?
p.s.: my apologies to K if you read this post. i know i said your name alot of times but we mean no harm. pls don't look at us with weird eyes if we see you on the streets.
off K, back to main topic. friends in general, will always say dumb things and do dumb things to constantly PEOF. there are usually TWO ways that a PEOF session will end in TEG:
1. we have a bloody brilliant game of dota, where we get stupid heroes and still win magnificently. everybody's happy, smile, have supper and all would be behind us.
2. we post our thoughts online and let the collective mumble-jumble settle in our minds. people cool down, think through and decide, hey, we're friends and we're more than this.
my point being, PEOFs will always somehow eventually settle themselves. thanks for everyone's concern but our friendships are always above our dumb squabbles. it's always the same scenarios. someone's jokes goes too far, someone snaps at him to control himself and we PEOF again. then, the next day we go for 4 hours of dota and everything's settle. Good Game. but today, i shall take the path less travelled, talk about this online and settle this before dota so our teamwork shall remain impeccable. just kidding. our lives does not revolve around dota. cai has his(father's) airboat, greg has his girls(mr. man), jh has his business, shaun has WoW... and scamper. i have my Raging Pig 2.
ok final line: guys, we know what happened, we've talked about it, we've made the dumb jokes, we've laughed. time to move on?
p.s.: my apologies to K if you read this post. i know i said your name alot of times but we mean no harm. pls don't look at us with weird eyes if we see you on the streets.
tonight
after a span of 5 consecutive quitter games of dota, chris ( the ahbeng at asteriods) finally shut off our comps.
"where do you wanna go ?"
"spin ?"
"marina bay ?"
i drove mark to the Koh Brothers construction site at marina bay ECP exit. going in, it was rocky and bumpy, suitable for 4x4 but his toyota still made it through. found a nice spot and parked there. squeezed through the green railing and seated ourselves at the edge of the bank. the view was fabulous. looking at the fullerton, the CBD, the maybank, UOB and NTUC buildings. talking about chief lawyers in allen & glenhill on the 30th floor, careers in citibank, business and school. dreaming about that dream job as an investment/private banker, founding partner of a business solutions firm that provides business consulation, accountancy and law practices. j.h. & mark conglomerate Ltd. haha. about that independence of settling down relying on no one but yourself, that bachelor pad, that life away from parents.
that girl.
finding that nice girl who understands and that relationship filled with love and kindness. overlooking that film of beauty to that underlying core of good character. that girl whom your dreams intertwine with, whom you can start planning for a future with.
"eh jh, what if i fall into the sea?"
"eh you better not, you wear a red swimcap. i'm not gonna save you, anyway i don't know where to swim to also..maybe can hang on to that boat till morning la..."
afterwards, drove down to Kg Eunos for a milo dino, teh chino, 2x cheese prata and 1x egg prata. nothing better to fill a hungry stomach 1.30am in the morning.
"thanks for driving me back, you better not fall asleep on the road."
"no la i won't la.."
friends to share your dreams and burdens, care and concern.
true friends are so hard to come by.
"where do you wanna go ?"
"spin ?"
"marina bay ?"
i drove mark to the Koh Brothers construction site at marina bay ECP exit. going in, it was rocky and bumpy, suitable for 4x4 but his toyota still made it through. found a nice spot and parked there. squeezed through the green railing and seated ourselves at the edge of the bank. the view was fabulous. looking at the fullerton, the CBD, the maybank, UOB and NTUC buildings. talking about chief lawyers in allen & glenhill on the 30th floor, careers in citibank, business and school. dreaming about that dream job as an investment/private banker, founding partner of a business solutions firm that provides business consulation, accountancy and law practices. j.h. & mark conglomerate Ltd. haha. about that independence of settling down relying on no one but yourself, that bachelor pad, that life away from parents.
that girl.
finding that nice girl who understands and that relationship filled with love and kindness. overlooking that film of beauty to that underlying core of good character. that girl whom your dreams intertwine with, whom you can start planning for a future with.
"eh jh, what if i fall into the sea?"
"eh you better not, you wear a red swimcap. i'm not gonna save you, anyway i don't know where to swim to also..maybe can hang on to that boat till morning la..."
afterwards, drove down to Kg Eunos for a milo dino, teh chino, 2x cheese prata and 1x egg prata. nothing better to fill a hungry stomach 1.30am in the morning.
"thanks for driving me back, you better not fall asleep on the road."
"no la i won't la.."
friends to share your dreams and burdens, care and concern.
true friends are so hard to come by.
Sunday, July 03, 2005
his AIRness
eh guys. jangan tension okay?. me and my malay homies here getting along just fine.
its amazing how its just one day of extreme fun here and im wondering how u guys are doing. whether its a own time own target day or a groupie day. ha.
well here's what i did today.
i was my dad's cameraman cum copilot on the flying boat.
dont think there'd be too many photos cos i was more like a VIDEOman.
its was really wicked flying up at 1000 feet like a plane.
then skimming the surface of the sea at the same speed.
i videoed more than an hours worth. so my right hand even more sore than dancing at zouk heh.
whoever i was dancing with u guys jangan concern also okay?.=]
heh truth is i was so afraid i'd be late that i didnt sleep at all. so i was pretty much shacked out e whole day. slept ALOT after the flying. woke up just to help make dinner which consisted of THE MOST FABULOUS MEAL possible. crabs fish fresh from the kelong down the river from where i am. pink champagne which was oolala...oolafuckingla. (pinkchampagneonice the lyric came to mind) so now got 28.8kbps doing my part to blog here. back tmr afternoon to rush top NUS for medical and trransfer application. then maybe see you guys at night. nationals for the rest of the week, so no afternoons for me. a very tanned cai awaits.
making a conscious attempt to be a nicer person to all u dudes man.
sorry if i caused some unneccesary trouble amongst us.
not that its very hard lah.
but i sorta WANT to be nicer if u get what i mean.
not nitpick on our nonsense so much.
GREG, miss this time nvm.
still got another time when u keen.=]
its amazing how its just one day of extreme fun here and im wondering how u guys are doing. whether its a own time own target day or a groupie day. ha.
well here's what i did today.
i was my dad's cameraman cum copilot on the flying boat.
dont think there'd be too many photos cos i was more like a VIDEOman.
its was really wicked flying up at 1000 feet like a plane.
then skimming the surface of the sea at the same speed.
i videoed more than an hours worth. so my right hand even more sore than dancing at zouk heh.
whoever i was dancing with u guys jangan concern also okay?.=]
heh truth is i was so afraid i'd be late that i didnt sleep at all. so i was pretty much shacked out e whole day. slept ALOT after the flying. woke up just to help make dinner which consisted of THE MOST FABULOUS MEAL possible. crabs fish fresh from the kelong down the river from where i am. pink champagne which was oolala...oolafuckingla. (pinkchampagneonice the lyric came to mind) so now got 28.8kbps doing my part to blog here. back tmr afternoon to rush top NUS for medical and trransfer application. then maybe see you guys at night. nationals for the rest of the week, so no afternoons for me. a very tanned cai awaits.
making a conscious attempt to be a nicer person to all u dudes man.
sorry if i caused some unneccesary trouble amongst us.
not that its very hard lah.
but i sorta WANT to be nicer if u get what i mean.
not nitpick on our nonsense so much.
GREG, miss this time nvm.
still got another time when u keen.=]
time runs its course.
drove by your place that day
saw the road i used to walk so much
saw the pavement i used to sit on while waiting for you to be back
saw the shoe boxes piled outside your door
saw the bird cage and car parked outside your house and,
realised that everything has changed now
saw the road i used to walk so much
saw the pavement i used to sit on while waiting for you to be back
saw the shoe boxes piled outside your door
saw the bird cage and car parked outside your house and,
realised that everything has changed now
sunday morning.
early sunday morning and i'm up. ushering for 3rd service in amk and i'm supposed to reach at 835. luckily my dad's giving me a lift.
smu beckons the weeks ahead. Sports camp, Circle camp, Convo, SmuX, CF camp maybe, Bondue maybe, so many camps to go for, so little time, so many friends to make!
anyways, whats the rage about kelly !??!
smu beckons the weeks ahead. Sports camp, Circle camp, Convo, SmuX, CF camp maybe, Bondue maybe, so many camps to go for, so little time, so many friends to make!
anyways, whats the rage about kelly !??!
Saturday, July 02, 2005
zouk last night. invites courtesy of nik. thanks duck. fantastic night. music was good n it was "we love house"!! lol. oh yea if anyone is looking for a good combi of drinks. cai n i personally recommend an ak47(drink fast) n a sweeet n sticky. good stuff. keeps u on a high thru the night toooo. =) photo taken by nokia 6680. good shit no?
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