Thursday, June 30, 2005

things army pple do when they're bored.

something i wanted to post immediately after ORD. picked it up in the MPO's office in my final days as NSF but due to hongkong, i forgot about it. here it is:

RESIGNATION

I hereby would like to officially tender my resignation as an OFFICER.
I have decided that i would like the accept the responsibilities of a recruit again.
I want to be interviewed monthly and get someone to listen to my problems.
I want to be the parade state IC again and be my sergeant's right hand man.
I want to think that WOs are better than 2LTs when they actually back stab alot.
I want to do fire and movement with my platoon mates on a hot summer's day.
I want to have the POWER to call the SAF hotline and complain about my superiors
I want to return to a time when life was simple:
All I knew was waking up, falling in and listening to instructions.
But that didn't bother me cos i didn't know what i didn't know and i didn't care.
All I knew was to be happy cos I was blissfully unaware of all the things that should make me worried or upset:
No responsibilities.
No complains.
No late nights.
No training programs to plan.
No AIs/RMPs to prepare.
No LRI checks.
No BDO duties...etc.
I want to think that the world is FAIR, superiors are DEMOCRATIC
And that all Officers and WOs are HONEST and GOOD.
I want to believe that anything is possible.
I want to be oblivious to the problems around me and be overly excited by canteen breaks again.
I want to live simple again:
No computer crashes(only to face 70+ email the next day.)
No mountains of paperwork(red/blue booklets included.)
Depressing news, vehicular breakdowns, complain about and from my soldiers
And endless arrows from my superiors.
I don't want to be stuck in the politics between 2 LTCs
And get played around cos my rank is ikan bilis.
I don't want to be someone who men look for help from, WOs look down upon
And senior officers think of as inexperienced newbies(noobs).
I want to believe in the POWER of SMILES, ENCOURAGEMENT, KIND WORDS, TRUTH, JUSTICE, PEACE, DREAMS, REWARDS and being APPRECIATED.

So... here's my epaulette, ceremonial sword, handing-over certificate and monthly allowance.
I am officially resigning from OFFICERHOOD.
And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first cos...
"Hey! I'm the platoon IC!"

problems.

your problem is YOUR problem.
my problem is MY problem.
when your problem meets my problem,
they become a very BIG problem.
so don't make YOUR problem MY problem.
otherwise SURE GOT problem.
ANY problem?

utter randomness

makings of a good relationship:
satisfication with what the other(s) have to offer as a person. not their money/possessions/material stuff. but as their own being.

i want but yet i don't want.
i need and i don't want to need.
what am i to do?

6 am in the morning.
bright sunny new day.
bored already.
gone for another run.

freedom of speech

or a lack of it. on the internet where everything spreads like wildfire, nothing cannot be said without a total stranger, or an aquaintaince knowing sooner or later. it's damn irritating that some people know so much about you or assume so much about you, just from your blog. just need to rant about something. and hence, we bloggers, sometimes in need of our own privacy or to protect people involved, are unable to express what we truly need to express. like now. i've so much to say. i've so much to release. but i can't. i want to tell you, you, you and you about things. and they're for their own respectives ears only. but yet, you can't say it to them somehow. cos it's just not right. and you want to say it here in terms and words that only they'd themselves understand, but fear that other intuitive beings might pick up what you leave behind. or worse, misinterpret and spread throughout as malicious rumours. bah. 3 am. can't sleep. can't rant. no one that i can release to. nothing's much worse really. oh and i've to wake at 7 am. i guess i'll just stay awake till then.

argh...i think i'm turning psychotic.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

ZEN BABY ZEN.

to all my lovely friends. as i;ve said before. education is a scourge. makes us think too much. and gives us the perspective so comprehensive it only serves to confuse us. and hence the road ahead looks foggy. jh has given us a wonderful christian perspective. and sometimes i do agree that if one is motivated by God himself. he may be better off than me cos i cant motivate myself everyday. unlike how someone who fervently believes in God will.

so our dear satun. i mean sahun. NO! dammit i mean shaun. yes.. know your boundaries. and pursue what u perceive to be the most fulfilling life. try not to look around you so much. cos we tend to only look at the positives of the people around us. sometimes forgetting that these smart or successful people have inner lives which crumble like cookies. and you dont want their lives. well some people have it all, i admit. but dont let their success bug you. u cant be them. but u have the freedom of choice on how to lead your life and BE as successful as them.

honestly, if u wanna more bit sized piece of advice, it has got to be:
the world is a platform to obtain what u want.
the people are the obstacles.
and the greatest obstacle is yourself.

shaun

greg, think we could lend him rick warren's book ? - the purpose driven life


Its not about you.
The purpose of your life is far greater than your own personal fulfillment, your peace of mind, or even your happiness. Its far greater than your family, your career, or even your wildest dreams and ambitions.

Everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him. Colossians 1:16b

Everyone's life is driven by something.
Most dictionaries define the verb drive as "to guide, to control, or to direct." Whether you are driving a car, a nail, or a golf ball, you are guiding, controlling and directing it at that moment. What is the driving force in your life ?

Right now you may be driven by a problem, a pressure, or a deadline. You may be driven by a painful memory, a haunting fear, or an unconscious belief. There are hundreds of circumstances, values and emotions that can drive your life.

1. Many people are driven by guilt. They spend their entire lives running from regrets and hiding their shame. Guilt-driven people are manipulated by memories. They allow their past to control their future. They often unconsciously punish themselves by sabotaging their own success.

2. Many people are driven by resentment and anger. They hold on to hurts and never get over them. Instead of releasing their pain through forgiveness, they rehearse it over and over in their minds. Some resentment-driven people "clam up" and internalize their anger, while others "blow up" and explode it onto others.

3. Many people are driven by fear. Their fears may be a result of a tramatic experience unrealistic expectations, growing up in a high control home, or even genetic predisposition. Regardless of the cause, fear driven people often miss great opportunities because they're afraid to venture out. Instead they play it safe avoiding risks and trying to maintain the status quo.

4. Many people are driven by materialism. Their desire to acquire becomes the whole goal of their lives. This drive to always want more is based on the misconceptions that having more will make me more happy, more important, and more secure, but all three ideas are untrue. Possessions only provide temporary happiness. Because things do not change, we eventually become bored with them and then want newer, bigger, better versions. Your value is not determined by your valuables.

5. Many people are driven by the need for approval. They allow the expectations of parents or spouses or children or teachers or friends to control their lives. Many adults are still trying to earn the approval of unpleasable parents. Others are driven by peer pressure, always worried by what others might think. Unfortunately, those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it.

Without a purpose, life is motion without meaning,
activity without direction, and events without reason.
Without a purpose, life is trival, petty, and pointless.


"this world is fading away, along with everything it craves. but if you do the will of God, you will live forever." 1 John 2:17

if somebody told you i was just your average ordinary guy, with not a care in the world...... somebody lied

ok i'm trying to get some random thoughts into a comprehensive and logical post..


uhm. here goes.

there has to be some purpose as to why we're alive. so far noone i know can give me an answer. some people are ambitious, some people are smart, some people are charismatic, some people have everything, some people have none. Question is, do all these people question their purpose of life? or do they just live life?

some people believe having faith in a religion will give them answers and set them free.
some people believe having goals and dreams in their life will give them meaning and something to work for.
some people believe living life to the fullest is everything they'll ever need, come what may.

isn't there something we're inherently meant to do?

inherent: Existing as an essential constituent or characteristic; intrinsic/ Occurring as a natural part or consequence.

now this means that there's something you were/are meant to do. not something you think you'd like to do, nor something you think would do your current situation some good. so far, i've never seen anyone live a life that served any purpose. any real purpose. any purpose that would contribute to the overall aim of... living.

now would someone tell me what that aim is?

don't tell me i'm depressed- you might as well tell me paying 25 bucks a month for WoW subscription is expensive, when you blow twice that amount in one stupid night clubbing.

your parents brought you up, paid for the house, paid for the car, paid for your useless education, suffer endless worrying of bills, anxiety and all those other garbage parents have to go through, only to make you a parent in due time, just for you to experience the same damn thing all over again. But NO you say, you're different from your parents. So you go about doing exceedingly well in school, getting your first class honours, getting a starting pay of 2.5k with a annual rise in pay. you get that nice job you always wanted, fall in love with a beautiful woman (or good looking guy for ladies), get married, buy a nice house, own a bentley continental GT, do social gatherings, you hang out at the coolest pubs and clubs, everybody wants a piece of you, only for you to discover that your dog has heart problems, and got a heart attack during a lovely walk in the park, your wife has issues with fidelity, your house catches fire and burns down and thus you're left homeless. you then take a nice drive during the night to JB for supper to think things through, only to have you BENTLEY CONTINENTAL GT carjacked by those stupid malaysians (no offence). your life just fell apart in everyone's face, and let me tell you the truth. NOONE GIVES A S***. noone. in fact, noone cares. they'll go say something like "you can stay in my house and i'm really concerned about you" but they'll think "thank god it happened to him not me". So since i'm not worth crap to him or him or him or my neighbour, what am i worth? my oxford degree? but in fact, that wasn't something i inherently wanted to do with my life. i got an oxford degree in law or finance because it would allow me to buy my GT. but then it would get carjacked in the end so why bother studying so hard and getting the damn degree in the first place.

oops. my train of thought just sped passed the sound barrier.

i just need some assurance that what i'm doing now, and what i'm about to do with my life, will help something (anything) in some spectacular and important way. i guess i'm just scared of fading away in this stupid, retarded, senseless aesthetic and materialistic world, where good friends are hard to come by, and noone really understands you at all.

no, i'm definitely not depressed.

i hate you

There are five rivers that separate Hades from the world of the living, they are:

  1. Acheron - the river of woe;
  2. Cocytus - the river of lamentation;
  3. Phledgeton - the river of fire;
  4. Lethe - the river of forgetfulness;
  5. Styx - the river of hate.


The river of which many know its name, without knowing its origin or what it really stood for. A river that separates the world of the living from the world of the dead. Styx it is said winds around Hades (hell or the underworld are other names) nine times. Its name comes from the Greek word stugein which means hate, Styx, the river of hate.


that's why i'm so fucking grumpy all the time

JUAN PABLO MONTOYA YOU SUCK

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Monday, June 27, 2005


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Sunday, June 26, 2005

lets talk bout sunday.

evening faithful blog readers.

jus got back from dinner n while waiting for things to happen i decided to jus say sth here. not very happy with this sunday. hate things tt are out of my control namely the amount of vacant seating space on the flight to manado, the unconfirmed timings of the numorous smu nonsense camps and the driving ability of other incompetent idiots. guess the sentence made sense till the last part right? well let me enlighten u. Greg was happily driving home from church tho a lil bit tired due to sleeping so late the night b4(reason can be derived easily if u knw teg at all). so at the traffic light the considerate driver decided to let an elderly man cross b4 he turned left since the green man was flashing anyway. so he slowed down n in a span of abt 2.43453 sec, or the duration between our dear sim jainhongs 2-trues, the lexus es300 n its passengers were thrown forward in a bone-jarring thump. keeping his cool greg got out of the car deciding in how many ways the fucker behind was gonna die. lucky dad got to the dude first n after a brief conversation n assessment of the damage which thankfully wasent too severe, i got the drivers contact n carried on as per usual. upon closer inspection i realised tt the dude was a balloonist/ magician/clown. brilliant. got asrefucked on a beautiful sunday morning by a clown. well to cut a long story short, dad decided to be nice n jus get the bumper patched up since he was gonna send the car for servicing anyway.plus the fact tt the clown was really terrified. guess the guy was really thankful n all. ahh the beautiful things tt happen on sunday. i must be dreaming. well yeah. im damn tired. think im running a fever. so its good night. for now.

hello hello people

this a gloomy sunday afternoon. where's the SUN when you want him? anyways, i'm a-needing the sun cos someone commented that i look very 'white'. 'peh-peh'. not the very best comment to be receiving the moment i awake, no? and being the narcissistic retard that i am, i do realise i've become a pale comparison of myself. in more ways than one i realise.

ok. i've had enough of myself. boring la.

having said that, and in view of the 'broke-ness' of all us dudes. and the nice photo that jh has put up, i suggest we bring our asses back to sentosa one of these sunny days. hopefully, we'll bring more than balls there. namely frisbee. try our hand at it before we sign up for ultimate frisbee, yes? ok what's left now is just a time and a date. sentosa beckons my friends!

and leave dota at home. thanks.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

any channel 8 fans?

picked this out from isSac's (yeh and its spelt with dbl s) blog. typical isaac. good stuff!

Essential Guidelines For Any Channel 8 Drama

- If you're gonna have any of your leads wear anything less than t-shirt and shorts, take the chance to plug that scene for all its worth, No matter how short, how completely irelevant the scene is or how utterly un-drool-worthy the actor or actress actually looks. In years to come, it'll be the only thing people remember about your show.

- There's no drama like melodrama. Every episode, each member of the cast must cry the obligatory 2 buckets of tears. Not only does it make your show seems sensitive and deep, it also saves on the water bill when the obligatory walk in the rain scene comes on.

- To emphasis the utter wretchedness of the character after being dumped/cheated/slimed/insulted/kicked-out-of-the-house, viewers must be introduced to the afore mentioned character's personal raincloud. This is to be done by ensuring that rain is pouring torrentially down on him or her and yet everything around seems to be completely unaffected by the storm.- Boy-Girl relationships are great. But damn, Boy-Girl-Boy-Girl-Boy relationships are even better! Remember, love triangles are so passe. Love pentagons, now there's a scene. Too small a cast? Hell whoever said there couldn't be more to brotherly and sisterly love?

- Whenever the protaganist is in down and out, his or her current love interest will miraculously appear out of the blue for no reason whatsoever and bring our hero to either the beach, the railway tracks or the top of a tall building, after somehow overcoming all the locks and barriers that usually prevent people from getting there. At this point of time, the love interest will spout some bullshit about always going to said place to ponder life's mysteries and subsequently convince our hero to join him or her in prancing around, hollering at the top of their voices.

- Grandpa ALWAYS dies. And not just die in any ol way. He's got to die the tried and tested Channel 8 drama way.
1. Family gets into big brouhaha and starts screwing each other.
2. Grandpa, being the quiet old gentleman, is reluctantly brought to the edge and nearly bursts a vessel telling them to shut up.
3. It seems Grandpa DID in fact burst a vessel, at which point he will hold his quivering hand to his heart and make spasmic motions while he makes an expression like someone having a toaster rammed up his arse while reciting the 12x multiplication table.
4. Grandpa makes a desperate attempt to grab the bottle of pills that reside permenantly in his left breast pocket. On getting his hands on it, the slippery devil will fly joyously from his trembling hands and spill its contents all over the floor.
5. Grandpa dies. Credits come on so people will not have to abosrb more information after being stunned senseless by the sheer absurdity of the scene.

Friday, June 24, 2005

all those who owe me cd dvd whatsoever please return

Thursday, June 23, 2005

ops order

ops #1 for 020705
PLS HOLD ANY QUESTIONS U HAVE TILL AFTER MY BRIEFING.

eh teg, or shd i say ok guyysssssssssss we are meeting with claire n mandy next sat at 1630.
location: tbc (i.e. there is always the tag board)
so keep it free aiight?

special mention: sloth boy u better make it n so do the rest of ya if not n i quote claires exact
words "i'll sit on u". so there.

Oh n if u got any problems, u have 9 days to sort it out. dont make ur problem my problem roger?

end of briefing.

2SG(ns) greg

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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

The life of a college dropout.

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005 'You've got to find what you love,' Jobssays

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of AppleComputer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of thefinest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth betold, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today Iwant to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just threestories.
The first story is about connecting the dots. I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayedaround as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So whydid I drop out? It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwedcollege graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She feltvery strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything wasall set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except thatwhen I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted agirl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle ofthe night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?"They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that mymother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduatedfrom high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She onlyrelented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college thatwas almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents'savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn'tsee the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no ideahow college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all ofthe money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out andtrust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, butlooking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I droppedout I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begindropping in on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floorin friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy foodwith, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get onegood meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what Istumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to bepriceless later on.

Let me give you one example:
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instructionin the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on everydrawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn'thave to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learnhow to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varyingthe amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makesgreat typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in away that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. Butten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it allcame back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computerwith beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course incollege, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionallyspaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that nopersonal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I wouldhave never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers mightnot have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible toconnect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, veryclear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connectin your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life,karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all thedifference in my life.


My second story is about love and loss. I was lucky
I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired.
How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hiredsomeone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for thefirst year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began todiverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board ofDirectors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What hadbeen the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as itwas being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried toapologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I eventhought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawnon me
I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so Idecided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple wasthe best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of beingsuccessful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sureabout everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another companynamed Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife.Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, ToyStory, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In aremarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and thetechnology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance.And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been firedfrom Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it.Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'mconvinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did.You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it isfor your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and theonly way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And theonly way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet,keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know whenyou find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and betteras the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.


My third story is about death. When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you liveeach day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right."It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I havelooked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today werethe last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?"And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, Iknow I need to change something.
Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've everencountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everythingall external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment orfailure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only whatis truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way Iknow to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are alreadynaked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in themorning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know whata pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancerthat is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to sixmonths. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which isdoctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everythingyou thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. Itmeans to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy aspossible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy,where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into myintestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. Iwas sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed thecells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to bea very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had thesurgery and I'm fine now.
This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closestI get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purelyintellectual concept:
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to dieto get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has everescaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely thesingle best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the oldto make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too longfrom now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be sodramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don'tbe trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people'sthinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own innervoice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else issecondary.
When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole EarthCatalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by afellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought itto life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personalcomputers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters,scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form,35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neattools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog>, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was themid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was aphotograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourselfhitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words:"Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as theysigned off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that formyself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.


Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. Thank you all very much.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

your sad story touches my heart

hmmm
it's been awhile since i posted. i hate it when people say "it's been awhile since i posted", because it's not as if anyone cared. but it's true, it's been awhile since i posted.

bitter angry boy. as usual, is not working, is broke, is lazy, is sleepy, is skinny, is listening to relaxing jazz - with the exception of it being rather loud. though i've done most of the major things that 21 year olds (need to) accomplish, i still feel rather empty. like i've no inherent purpose in my life. *shrug* i'll sleep on it and let you know soon? :)

anyway that's not why i'm posting. i'm posting because i have no dinner. and since the guys met up yesterday for dota, we can't do it again today (or can we?). so no dinner for me. parents are out. i'm lazy to cook. must wash pot after eating. must go downstairs. must wipe table after that. must keep cutlery. will be unhappy if there's no cold water. plus it's so humid.

i'm posting because i have no dinner - reiterate.
so i :
1) go to www.google.com
2) type "canadian pizza"
3) ...and i get......site under construction =_=;
4) so i type "pizza hut"
5) yes! the site works!
6) and i click on BIG SAVERS MEAL
7) let's see if they've something for one person. twin? no. couple? no. family? no. party? no.

you mean to say you don't have a big savers meal for one person?!

I'M SO LONERY

HQ! calvin kuan, sam kangli me and xj! Posted by Hello

Sunday, June 19, 2005

ever wonder why?

sometimes it's so bloody obvious. he likes her, she like him. things are going so nicely, cruising, smoothing along the path. the feelings were clear, the attraction so mutual but things just somehow fail. doesn't work out. leaves people broken-hearted, confused and in denial. why, oh why? just makes people wonder what went wrong?

ok, pls don't speculate anything. this post doesn't refer to anyone. it's just one of the random thoughts running through my head at this point of time.

19th June 2005

realised it's been awhile i've posted, so decided to just chip in some thoughts.

hongkong was great. minus the dota. the company was great so i guess in the end it was still alright. but i still pretty much rather go explore the night life, whatever there is. seems like mostly just funky clubs, sleazy pubs, strip shows and what's nots there. night food i realise, is pretty much 7-11. supper is almost non-existent. maybe just cos we didn't see any. massage was horrible. luckily no extra. but still ended up like i just came out of some S&M session as the guys would testify: back bruised like no tomorrow. wah lau. 40 bucks to be bruised. and i thought people paid you to be beaten up. oh well, nontheless, hongkong: awesome. drop me some more money from the sky and i would mind another holiday. say...koh samui? maldives? bali? somewhere tropical, sunny, beachy with lil fishies swimming in the sea. ah...just like phuket 3 yrs back. now that's good. except for the 385 bucks phone bill that came after. hurhur.

anyway, speaking of money, i'm in dire need of some. i know i know, we all need money but this is the first time i realise even my reserves are gonna be burnt. all those whining and crapping about getting a job never realised. not that i don't want a job, it's just that..sometimes you think your social life is so much more important. but you realise, no money no honey, if you've no way to get money, you're gonna get ZILCH social life anyway. so yeah. might(hopefully) be more proactive in getting a job very soon. conditions still stand, nice environment, reasonable pay, etc.

driving is another thing. been talking about driving since what...before ORD. now, NATO. No Action Talk Only. when will i ever start? when i got more money. when will i have more money? i don't know. see? it's a vicious cycle. yeah i know what you're thinking. mom? dad? it's true i can still lean towards them for support but, i'm 21! not all that great but i should start to think about how to support myself. even partially at least. oh well...cheers to the job.

alright, getting pretty late. should turn in soon. oh right, before i go, like to announce that it's father's day. i know you all don't really give a hoot but i do. why? cos one day, i might just become a father. not soon...but yeah...eventually.

lastly, it's not nice to ignore people. if someone says hi, at least return the favour. unless you hate him. then tell him straight in his face that you do, so he'll never say hi to you again. a lil extreme, but hey, basic people skills. for me, i'm a hypocrite, regardless of whether i hate you or love you, if you say hi to me, i'll always say hi back. difference being if i don't like you, i'll never say hi to you FIRST. but then again, i'm a very blur person, so i tend to miss people very often. so don't be paranoid and start thinking that i hate you just cos i didn't say hi. mmm...OK! i think i'm beginning to ramble. signs of a sleepy man. shall spare all the torment of a rambling fool and turn in now. night people. happy fathers' day to all fathers and future fathers.

Friday, June 17, 2005


done. Posted by Hello

as per the recent "win-a-date-with-***" on some peoples blog, let's have a win-a-walk-the-scamper.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

quote of the day

-=Zhiguang=- says:
u rush to meet her tt nite like her house on fire


little amusing happenings

you know how i always say i wanna go wanchai?(the sleazy parts of hongkong)
and i coerce people to come for massage with me, and all that?

whats really funny, when we went in. jianhong and ian starting tugging my arm and shirt. cos the room accomodates only 2 at a time. and shaun and greg decided to gay in the first room.

jianhong:"im going with cai."

ian:"cai come with me. caiiiiiii"

cai: =]

followed by alot of tugging. thing they didnt know is. i also never go before. AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. first time full body massage. i also dont know what to do if they ask for extra. lol

just before our flight to victoria.dont u just love shauns tee. Posted by Hello

how cool. j1s during 2001, 2005 still wearing uniform! retain how many years?! Posted by Hello

the western wind

random thoughts racing through my mind, like the western wind gone mad.
an uneasy day, spent pretty much alone,
gathering of feelings but unable to reach expression.
sometimes being lonely is great, sometimes not.

the western wind has shifted course, to the faraway land.
where trees grow in abundance, and flowers bloom to their hearts delight.
where you're walking a long road,
to the left, the vast sea of blue,
to the right, an imposing range of mountains, peeping over the clouds.

to a place i cannot fathom. only the light at my feet will tell me where i'm going.

17 Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,

18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005


Tim and son Gabe, so handsome! Posted by Hello

cute lil thing.. Posted by Hello

serendipitious happenstance or divine providence? some things just can't.. Posted by Hello

bike hike Posted by Hello

Tuesday, June 14, 2005


have i posted this ? Posted by Hello

Sunday, June 12, 2005


the view from the top =)  Posted by Hello

my new baby!!!! =) happy happy happy. this work of art can flyyy =) 128mb nvidia geforce graphics card in it. badapapapa im lovin it Posted by Hello

Saturday, June 11, 2005


"i really really didn't take the cookie from the cookie jar"

Thursday, June 09, 2005


wah, tired ah. rest abit...more pics soon folks. Posted by Hello

the guy in the pic is chi-ming by the way.=] Posted by Hello

absofuckinglutely Posted by Hello

these wanton looks like e brains from futurama, EVIL. but tasty. om-yom. Posted by Hello

what kindvanameissat?! Posted by Hello