23 September 2004

i'm 20!

at 20, i lied to laura about phuture. laura is charmain's friend. we're clean. =).
at 20, i decided to join eugene at phuture to help him in his pursuit of 'her'.
at 20, i'm satisfied enjoying one glass of lychee martini. i'm not an alcoholic.
at 20, i met charm and friends at phuture. said 'hi', but nothing more. as a friend, maybe i should've talked more?
at 20, i watched my friends drink and drink. mmm, once again i'm anti-drinking. not in the mood.
at 20, i wish i had danced more tonight. the music was great. the crowd was tight as usual, but somehow more enticing. i'm once again, addicted to wednesday phutures.
at 20, i spent the 2nd hour taking care of eugene, afraid he would get into a fight. he was getting angry at every guy walking by. ahh, temper, temper.
at 20, i was getting more and more irritated by everything around me.
at 20, i said 'fuck it' and left. i took a cab and went home. it was 13 bucks.
at 20, i went online and read the ode to the nice guy. i realised that if u agreed to most of the things it said, you're most probably a nice guy.
at 20, i realised i'm used to finishing last.
at 20, i realised that i've wasted most of my life.
at 20, i think i should change the way i live.

i'm sorry this post is so self-centred, just that...
at 20, i realised i should've reflected on myself long ago.