you were there when i was happiest. but you left when i was at my lowest. even friends don't treat me like this. i don't feel any anguish, i don't resent. but i'm just harder now. and not be so trusting in the future. i don't know why i'm writing this, i thought i got over, but i started thinking again. but i won't in the future. this is the very last time. i have better things to think about. bye.