from east to west n back again

if theres one word to describe how im feeling now, its drained. with a capital D. for those of u who alr knw, yes i went to ntu for the pre-matriculation med check up this morning. was alr feeling the D word last night in town with the dudes so din say much all the way. waking up early this morn din really do much to improve the situation too. luckily dad gave me a lift there on the way to the office.

day did not really go right from the start. mostly due to my own dg. hopped on the NTU bus 179, yes ntu has its own bus service, from jurong pt n took a 10 min ride to the sch grds. was supposed to get off at the medical centre but for some reason i totally missed the stop n the next thing i knew i was back on jalan boon lay. well done greg. day dreamin. hmm. unfortunately things did not get better once i got to the centre. apart from the long queue, n missing the chance to meet friends who jus came out of a lecture, the ah ma who took my height n weight happily made be shorter n heavier. but its ok. she probably has poor eyesight or what not. the rest of it was quite routine till i got hit by the ultimate stunner. i quote the ah ma again "ah boy ah, now u have to go to jurong pt for ur chest X-ray to complete the check up". i din knw what to feel at tt pt of time. amused at the fact tt i was repeated called "ah-boy" or the profound dulan-ness tt i felt welling up due to the fact tt the ntu medical centre is so damn hopeless with doctors who are balding n are probably gay n the fact tt they cant complete the whole check up in one location. blah. but not matter. im home now. no more chinese chattering all ard me n pagodas in the back grd. argh.

revelling in the fact tt im in my air con room blogging while the rest of the dudes are back in camp dg what not. realise tt ive been drastically overspending this mth. im alr drawing into my reseves alr n there are still so many things i wanna get. deciding if i shd do the whole wish list thing but yeah shant. so will jus state out a few namely a new pair of leather shoes, more white polos. not sure what ive been spending my $$ on this mth but i keep seeing myself standing infornt of the atm machine taking out more n more cash. gonna stop it now.. def less clubbing n LESS dota. its really quite expensive too if we keep playing it. but who ami to say it eh.. im still playing it.

ay. dad jus gave me quite a stern lecture on the way to ntu tdy n the gist of it was "son u have to come to a pt where u have to stop playing n get ur life in order. prepare urself for the future. u do not want to spend the rest of ur life regretting". maybe i have been playing too much n taking a lot of things for granted. but this sure came at a timely moment. have to make sure this feeling stays for a while instead of letting it evaporate the very next day. gonna re-apply for SMU again.i loathe NTU. somehow i feel im not really lucky in tt department. i thought i did a pretty good job with my application last yr topping it off with some sort of a personal appeal but i din work. while ppl with worse grades n lesser initiative managed to get short listed into some new course. it was very very demoralising when i found out bout tt. perhaps prayer n divine intervention wld come in handy now but yeah im gonna try again. one last shot b4 the window closes n i decide to fly off to the land of aus.

jus for once. jus once. cld sth jus go the way i want it to? seem to be failing in all areas. im trying my best here right? no half fuck attitude when it come to this. hmm but we'll see. we'll see.