Sunday, January 16, 2005

a blank fucking grey slate.

------------------------------tabula----------------------------------------------------------------------------------rasa-----------------------------------------------------the state of my mind now..



sitting in front of the com for most of the day on a rumbling stomach aint a good idea. maybe i shd have gone n watched tiger cup with the dudes. oh well at least the company was good.

currently questioning the wisdom of my decision to study in australia after making a few inquiries at the fair yesterday plus the information from a few friends. $$ matters mostly. i knw this is quite a duh thing but i guess i jus never looked at so closely before. A$20040 per annum for tuition fees alone.so in 4 yrs tt wld be like like 80++k, on top of tt there is lodging, textbooks, health cover,transportation, entertainment. makes me feel really immature n spoilt to recall my last conversation a few mths back where i asked for a car if i go over citing the reason tt it was cheap n all. wtf man greg. have to have a good talk with dad when he gets back. the thought of my folks scrimping n saving over here when im having a good time over there jus does not sit right.

all tt aside, i seem to be having more n more meaningful conversations with the dudes. ian at starbucks, jh outside katong shopping centre, cai in the car after dota. really interesting.. definitely treasured. imagaine how cool it wld be of all of us really went to mel to study. fuck there i go again. have to settle the above first.

On the other hand i really hope this hari raya break turns out the way its supposed to be. its jus 1 day out of the 3 days i want. jus 1.

god help me.



ltr y'all



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