. 

looks damn brokeback. waikiki 

to miss

this is so true:

Missing someone does not equate to spending time with that person only when it seems like you have nothing else better to do.

When you miss someone, you MAKE time for the person. Not place her at the last of your list as some back up plan for when your friends are too busy, when you have no more energy to gym/cycle/go supper/whatever, or when you run out of books to read.

haven't you met people that claim that they miss you this much and that much but they only try to talk to you once or twice a month or perhaps they don't even try at all?

and when you do think about them and send them a msg or two only to be replied by silence?

well, if you're overseas this might be perfectly understandable but somehow it's more often than not that such people actually still live in singapore?

perhaps if you took steps to actually talk or meet up more then you won't 'miss' them so much eh?

makes you wonder if you've ever been somebody's back up plan. perhaps then you're not as important to them as you thought you are. i hope i never have to experience this but to imagine it is bad enough. the feeling of you making effort to spend time with them only to realise you're nothing but a filler in their schedule.

and people wonder why i never claim to miss anyone. when i do, i won't tell you. i'll show you.

it was once all worth while and so innocent (part 2)

it was once all worth while and so innocent (part 3)

it was once all worth while and so innocent (part 4)

it was once all worth while and so innocent (part 1)

pohs the man la.. 

poh trying to burn my shirt 

my best friends la. no subs, no replacements. missing cai though. cai still sleeping at home. 

flanked left and right 

help. 

thanks for the dip.. 

nohari johari smohari...

had this up for awhile but too lazy to put the link:

the nohari vs the johari vs the smohari

there you have it.

PEOF

today is another classic PEOF day in the life of TEG.

involves matters dear to our heart as usual but i shall not divulge.

we trip and struggle today but tomorrow we will walk again.

been a long day, everyone's tired.

night folks.

say hello to miffy, my security blanket. well, security bolster. the miffy who lives in the north is worried he'll become like miffy who lives in the mid west.

22/02/06

That's this coming wednesday.

Shall we...do something? That requires mixers and alcohol, near a river, beside a hotel, outside a club and with many many people.

RSVP unnecessary.

Just be there.

wee.rawk

after stats we went to play dota. SA with diffusal is owningggggg...

then our next game was SIS versus business 5 v 4 cause business lacking one player

when we're hacking their rax, chen the holy knight(business) emerges from the fog of war with his fearsome Centaur warchief.

shaun/jimmy/daryl: eh warchief coming. got stomp. back back back.

Axe/Treat/SK scatters. kenna pernitence and got my faith tested.

CS runs in with doombringer. "heh heh"

*pringgggggg*

shaun: eh what the fuck. where the centaur go?

CS: kenna my hand of midas. =)

greg:
shaun says if you play he'll play

jimmy: ...

jimmy: if shaun fails tml's paper I'll play

greg: its just stats

shaun: lol if i play i'll fail tmr's paper

shaun: p1> if shaun plays, he'll fail tmr's paper

shaun: p2> shaun plays

shaun: C1> shaun will fail tmr's paper

shaun: p3) if shaun fails tmr's paper, jimmy will play

greg: YES!

shaun: C2> jimmy will play

shaun: (1,2 MP), (C1, P3 MP)




fuckin fantastic i tell you, AS makes you play dota the night before you take stats mid terms

bye! till.. erm. dec? miss ya! 

my vday

my vday today!

915-1130 Managerial Accounting Workshop. got 9.5/15 for my test. yay.
1130-12 Lunch with Prof Khoo and Jem. hes damn nice!
12-330 Mugging marathon in lib.. fell asleep going thru process costing...
330-630 BizLaw, Dr Anne Netto came in sporting rebonded hair and claiming she will let us off early today.. she must have a hot date!
630-7 Rushed to airport to send claire off. thought i was going to be late but i was the earliest! Called Cai and hes still at home... went to stone at the viewing gallery... planes are relaxing.
715-745 Had dinner with claire and family. damn extra, but nice food at crystal jade! thanks claire and uncle haha.
745-815 Cai, mandy and her bf(?) came at last, after his car broke down at the carpark.. haha. crying session, and shes off!

ok to cut a long night short, i had dinner with cai at macdonalds. damn sad for a vday dinner. budget dinner. 20pc mcnuggets, iced milo, and 2 hot fudge sundaes. my hot fudge was filled to the brim. met my church pple to send esther off.. and cai came along too. army talk, alot of crap and laughing after.. here i am at home.

=o)

bizlaw mid term on sat!! argh!!

i wish...

i wish life was like a final fantasy game. i wish life was as simple as a final fantasy game. a game in which i would be the coolest character that everyone wanted to be. with spiky long hair styled in an ultra cool way that seemed to defy gravity. i wish i was skilled in sword fighting, on a simple mission to save the world. i wish there was something concrete to fight for, something i knew deep down inside to be true irregardless of consequences. to save the world.

i wish life was as simple as a final fantasy game. i rode my cool onyx quad wheeled bike around desert plains and city ruins. i wish i had a childhood sweetheart i was promised to, to fight for her and fight beside her. i wish i went round riding chocobos carefreely, meeting farmers, princes and kings. i wish something evil was happening to the world, something that binded me to it, something that only i could rid the world of.

i wish that i would/could sacrifice my life to rid the world of this evil. i would do everything in my power, fight beside courageous comrades to vanquish this evil. fight besides loved ones to vanquish this evil. i wish this evil was so powerful to destroy those most beloved to me. i wish i would then become so emotionally angry my rage meter would jump through the roof and allow me to omnislash the motherfucking jenova and avenge aeris.

i wish i would then become sullen and emo. not talking at all through the rest of the game. i wish i had a complicated yet cool background of being cloned and messed around with. i wish i had something to discover about my being. i wish i gained experience by hacking the evil plants in my garden. i wish i could wear rocks that allowed me to cast spells. i wish that when i'm tired and spent i can use a "tent" to recharge my mana and hp.

i wish that life was as simple as a final fantasy game. i wish that all our souls return to the earth to keep it alive. i wish that i knew the earth was alive and it was its existence i was fighting for. i wish it'd help me in turn when i had to fight sephiroth. i wish that everything was one directional and i knew what to do all the time because there's a great big hand in the sky telling me what to do.

i wish that life was as simple as a final fantasy game. where true undiluted love exists. i wish that true undiluted friendships existed. i wish that in the end, i knew all i've done, all i've strived for has paid off, because the angels tell me that i've saved the world. i wish that in the end, i'd see a breathtaking CGI ending with credits in cute fonts.

then i'd be truly, utterly happy.

i made you cry

apathy

hellooooo. i'm freaking bored at home. school work is really piling up. stupid AS assignment, all them mid term tests and stupid projects. all in the next few weeks. how to survive?

i'm posting because i'm bored at home. and thinking of things i would like to do to stop making me feel so apathetic about life. and what's making me even more apathetic, is that there's so many things i don't feel like doing, yet need to do.

i don't want to do work. cos work simply sucks. i don't mind doing biz law and MA work cos they are relevant stuff. it's the AS and BGS that's full of *beep*. i have no drive to do those.
i don't want to play dota. waste time at home. waste money at lan shop. it's not quality time spent. not like in the end i become very happy.
i don't want to go orchard walk around. actually i don't mind. but it's that there's too many things to buy and no actual money to buy anything.
i don't want to sit at siglap and chill. actually i don't mind also, but it's that i've no money and we'll run outta things to say.
i don't want to sleep all day. sleep too much, wake up get headache, become pissed off. also sleep too much, wake up to see the night sky...abit waste time.

but there's one thing i really want to do. i want to sit outside zouk and drink. by the river. with vig, shaun, greg, cai, zo, nash, mark and those bunch that went down that week (wed and fri). felt really good with everyone bumming and talking shit and gettin' high. poh pls come along too. then after being high and tittering on crazy, go back into zouk and laugh, dance, make merry.

hard to recreate such an opportunity. but yeah just miss the more carefree days not too long ago. when i was in control. when everyone could come out and not worry about their assignments/tests/project meetings the next day. i just need to get out of this house. this life. someone save me?

so what's up for vdae my homies. i'm sure in the end everyone will have a date. how like that. where's a *insert your own source of comfort* when you need one.


18th SIN@ zouk. i haven't bought. it's a saturday. zouk saturday not very nice. don't feel like going. :|

ps. this is not a parody of shaun's post. it's cos i feel somewhat similar. just using his template. he gave me permission.

oppression and depression

hiiii. i'm freaking bored at home. school work is really piling up. stupid IS projects, mid terms and assignments. all in the next week. how to survive?

i'm posting because i'm bored at home. and thinking of things i would like to do to stop making me feel so depressed and oppressed. and what's making me even more depressed and oppressed, is that there's nothing i want to do.

i don't want to play dota. waste time waste money. it's not quality time spent.
i don't want to go orchard walk around. too tiring. no money to buy anything.
i don't want to sit at siglap and chill. no money and we'll run outta things to say.

but there's one thing i really want to do. i want to sit outside zouk and drink. by the river. with vig, ian, greg, cai, zo, nash, mark and those bunch that went down that week (wed and fri). felt really good with everyone bumming and talking shit and gettin' high.

hard to recreate such an opportunity. but yeah just miss the (more)carefree days not too long ago. when i was in control. i just need to get out of this house. this life. someone save me?

so what's up for vdae my homies. i'm sure in the end everyone will have a date. how like that. where's scamper when you need one.


18th SIN@ zouk. i already bought. please come. :|

i hope you won't be afraid. 

this kinda lecture slides, how to sleep? 100 over pics.  

apparently banehallow bought a faulty bkb that only avatar-ed him sideways. shag la. 

"the end" feat. Anna

and heres to you, mrs robinson

woke up pretty early this morning, and was going through my cd collections. fished out the blue frank sinatra double CD and started playing it again. just 3 years ago, this CD had been my companion, inspiration and friend all coupled into one.

someday, when i'm awfully low. when the world is cold,
i will feel the glow just thinking of you.
and the way you look tonight..
yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm.
and your cheeks so soft, there is nothing for me, but to love you.
and the way you look tonight..

the night b4 a major exercise, in my bunk in ocs, i would be playing frank sinatra to sleep. back from outfield, cleaning rifle in corrider, would be nat king cole in my discman. jazz evokes many memories! happy ones, sad ones. the deep, soulful voices of frank sinatra, dean martin and nat king cole just seems lost nowadays.

something in the way she moves,
attracts me like no other lover.
something in the way she woos me,
i dont wanna leave her now,
you know i'll be leaving..

haha maybe its because in army, lacking in freedom and the outside world. you really appreciate every source of comfort that you can have. the phone calls, the CDs, the photo albums, the books, the friendships and late night chats with buddies.

now, in uni, everything seems within grasp, we dont enjoy the pleasures we enjoy in the past. (ok well maybe except dota) it might be that we're too caught up with work, gym, ccas, girls.

just dont forget that things that accompanied you in the past.

Danish Comics

The danish comics were from the Danish newspaper Jylland-Posten

http://service.spiegel.de/cache/international/0,1518,398717,00.html

See the comics and decide whether its really that controversial. Bearing in mind that there are those that seek to draw attention to the atrocities that certain Muslims slaughter innocent civilians in the name of of religion. Maybe the lampooning might be overboard, but even the Christian faith has received its fair share of jibes and just as some seek to defend their religion with words and war, they too must be prepared to face the criticisms. A picture speaks a thousand words.

The 12 comics can be viewed at

http://www.zombietime.com/mohammed_image_archive/

civilisa-wha?

Not say I want to say. But darn it, a couple of cartoons doesn't justify violent riots, overturning cars and burning down consulates. And yet they spend half the day claiming they've been misunderstood.

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, go google Denmark, cartoons and riots.

oh when you come home baby
i know somehow that your eyes
have gone
astray

and when you come back baby
you'll just look back and say
i
want
you

only friends

time
only time can erase the memory of our love
and all those things that won't come true
yesterday i walked the streets, today i run in disbelief
from the memory of losing you

yesterday
when we were young our love was new and we had fun
playing games and wondering what to do
now yesterday is gone for me and all i have are memories
of loving and then somehow losing you

sometimes i let my mind drift endlesssly
and in the wind your face i see
smiling gently as you turn to pass
the love that i once had for you is gone and so's the meaning too
i guess it really never had a chance..
to last.

if you remember me and see me running through your memory
don't be afraid to turn and look my way
cause i'll be there
for just a while to catch the sunshine of your smile
to last me for another day
and if someday some new love asks about your love, about your past,
please tell him you and i were only friends...
you and i were only friends.

i dont wanna come back alr la

wha laoo sincerely le ian tan. well to answer all ur questions, my n90 is still working fine, erm ive not done my arctic warfare nonsense and yea i think we shd all migrate to spain n chill. where got ppl erect 1 tent at the bottom of the ski slope, put 1 dj inside n ummzhi ummzhi while providing free beer and warm wine. house is all the rage here too. no retro no R n b. jus good ol solid bass. omg the spanish chicks. fucking hell. i swear i nearly crash into a pylon on the way down. beer n skiing rocks!

looks like ive been missing a lot eh, dota, house party, pvd, what not. n i cant really party here cos there arent many ppl my age. sucks. vodka here costs SGD$10. per bottle mind u. and the price we pay for chivas (shaun) will get u the super duluxe king size bottle. actually 2 king size bottle. Andorra is like tax n duty free la. ultimate party heaven.

back to ians qtn. noo there is no wireless here. jus went thru my smu inbox. wasted 6euros alr clearing spam n writing this article haha.

alright then. hope alls well back home. i knw shaun does not want me to come home but yea.. i´ll be back soon. im 7hrs behind btw

kk credits running out and gonna check out this pub with my new friends. house night. later

el tiempo al partido con el local

where art thou?

dearest gregory ng,

are u dead or alive? have you tried to camou yourself in the snow while wearing SAF goretex jacket yet? what is auntie doing? how does N90 perform in mountain conditions? has it frozen over and has its carl zeiss lens cracked yet? but most importantly, do you have wi-fi over in barcelona?

if yes, then get your ass online and post something you pookie. don't think you can vanish forever just cos you're in spain and stop disturbing the spanish girls. just bring some back.

your sincere friend,
ian tan