apathy

hellooooo. i'm freaking bored at home. school work is really piling up. stupid AS assignment, all them mid term tests and stupid projects. all in the next few weeks. how to survive?

i'm posting because i'm bored at home. and thinking of things i would like to do to stop making me feel so apathetic about life. and what's making me even more apathetic, is that there's so many things i don't feel like doing, yet need to do.

i don't want to do work. cos work simply sucks. i don't mind doing biz law and MA work cos they are relevant stuff. it's the AS and BGS that's full of *beep*. i have no drive to do those.
i don't want to play dota. waste time at home. waste money at lan shop. it's not quality time spent. not like in the end i become very happy.
i don't want to go orchard walk around. actually i don't mind. but it's that there's too many things to buy and no actual money to buy anything.
i don't want to sit at siglap and chill. actually i don't mind also, but it's that i've no money and we'll run outta things to say.
i don't want to sleep all day. sleep too much, wake up get headache, become pissed off. also sleep too much, wake up to see the night sky...abit waste time.

but there's one thing i really want to do. i want to sit outside zouk and drink. by the river. with vig, shaun, greg, cai, zo, nash, mark and those bunch that went down that week (wed and fri). felt really good with everyone bumming and talking shit and gettin' high. poh pls come along too. then after being high and tittering on crazy, go back into zouk and laugh, dance, make merry.

hard to recreate such an opportunity. but yeah just miss the more carefree days not too long ago. when i was in control. when everyone could come out and not worry about their assignments/tests/project meetings the next day. i just need to get out of this house. this life. someone save me?

so what's up for vdae my homies. i'm sure in the end everyone will have a date. how like that. where's a *insert your own source of comfort* when you need one.


18th SIN@ zouk. i haven't bought. it's a saturday. zouk saturday not very nice. don't feel like going. :|

ps. this is not a parody of shaun's post. it's cos i feel somewhat similar. just using his template. he gave me permission.