sometimes, you face so much shit in your life you just wanna take it out on someone or something. but should that shit come from your friend, what are you to do? take it out on him and face the consequences. bury it inside and misery's abound. sick and tired of being the punching bag. take your shit and keep it. spit it out to me and prepared to have it stuffed back down your mouth. ian's taking no prisoners.

if you ask me out, don't treat me as a display item. i'm not there to pose and act pretty(not that i can). if there's not going to be communication between you and your friends, you might as well not be there anyway. so if you ASK me to join you and i make the effort to go down do at least show some appreciation. don't take ian for granted. the result's not pretty.

i'm not done yet but i shall end my bitching for today anyway. bitching causes too much emotional friction. not that i give a damn but it's just pretty tiring. i much prefer to be a happy guy.

supposed to join tengren at chinablack, but unfortunately fell asleep. i hope he's not pissed. anyway what's up with you shaun. fungus man? sounds bad dude. pray it's not long term. fungus sucks. takes an eternity to heal. cai's MIA for the moment except on the board. so is greg, except that he is MIA everywhere. jh just came back. i really like the CD you bought man. classy piece of work. lau sounds like he needs anger management classes more than salsa. but who am i to judge. hurhur.

i need LAN. we need to rediscover LAN my dear friends. anyone game on sunday? i hear vietnam calling. that's all for today. i'm tired.