oh the weather outside is frightful,
and the fire is so delightful.
since we've no place to go,
let it snow let it snow let it snow.
Sunday, November 28, 2004
times of the past
the guys have spoken, maybe i should too..
i find that this blog's turning into an avenue of reminiscense, which isn't a bad thing really. in fact, its great. it should be. really miss those times of the past. and after yesterday meeting with ian greg and cai (SHAUN WHERE ARE YOU ?), i find that i really really miss those days of yesteryear. sorry for being the THIRD post to whine/sob/lament about this but its true, true. but i'm so glad theres still this blog going along, surviving all tribulations, and welcoming newer, fresher, better things to come.
i'm a person who looks to the future. i love looking forward to things, fun things, albeit unexpected, i still look forward to that. however, the past 2 years have been a terror. this past year in particular. bad things come together, they say. i second that. the only things keeping me together are my true friends, my faith and of course, my mom.
you used to think that having a huge circle of friends was "cool", saying hi to everyone, going for parties, getting invites to birthdays, knowing whos who of whats what. ah shit. what nonsense. like it or not, when shit happens, only your true friends will stick by you. no one else. no, not the happening party dude whom you used to challenge mugs of beer over. no, not the muscular rugby player whom you used to think would introduce you to more cool friends. no, not the seemingly good girl friends whom you used to talk to but are now overseas and busy with older, richer, more good-looking guys (oh there're hordes of examples, ok maybe legions). yeh, i was deluded, i was wrong.
nothing matters to me more than having a good bunch of loyalist friends. i've had 2 gfs in the past 4 years, but the group of guys remain the same. doesn't that say a lot ? sorry peeps, but i don't really enjoy clubbing and huge crowds and meeting new pretty people, making small talk anymore. i'm just sick of that. give me a one-on-one conversation with a kind soul, or just a supper in eunos with the dota gang, anytime.
nothing matters anymore.
i find that this blog's turning into an avenue of reminiscense, which isn't a bad thing really. in fact, its great. it should be. really miss those times of the past. and after yesterday meeting with ian greg and cai (SHAUN WHERE ARE YOU ?), i find that i really really miss those days of yesteryear. sorry for being the THIRD post to whine/sob/lament about this but its true, true. but i'm so glad theres still this blog going along, surviving all tribulations, and welcoming newer, fresher, better things to come.
i'm a person who looks to the future. i love looking forward to things, fun things, albeit unexpected, i still look forward to that. however, the past 2 years have been a terror. this past year in particular. bad things come together, they say. i second that. the only things keeping me together are my true friends, my faith and of course, my mom.
you used to think that having a huge circle of friends was "cool", saying hi to everyone, going for parties, getting invites to birthdays, knowing whos who of whats what. ah shit. what nonsense. like it or not, when shit happens, only your true friends will stick by you. no one else. no, not the happening party dude whom you used to challenge mugs of beer over. no, not the muscular rugby player whom you used to think would introduce you to more cool friends. no, not the seemingly good girl friends whom you used to talk to but are now overseas and busy with older, richer, more good-looking guys (oh there're hordes of examples, ok maybe legions). yeh, i was deluded, i was wrong.
nothing matters to me more than having a good bunch of loyalist friends. i've had 2 gfs in the past 4 years, but the group of guys remain the same. doesn't that say a lot ? sorry peeps, but i don't really enjoy clubbing and huge crowds and meeting new pretty people, making small talk anymore. i'm just sick of that. give me a one-on-one conversation with a kind soul, or just a supper in eunos with the dota gang, anytime.
nothing matters anymore.
point me in the right direction
I wanna ORD... please? can i do it tdy? ok fine, how bout next wk then. hmm its been too long since i last posted. Not sure what ive been up to but yeah i think laziness has to be the biggest factor. yup. definitely laziness. So i have to thank mandy for pointing me in the right direction n giving me the determination to log in! ur right knw.. once ur in everything just comes out!
Shall start to give my insight on dota too. lina inverse, dragon paw, laguna blade, Aghanim's scepter, satanic = 1900hp/2011mana n 1 kick ass bitch. jus turned down an offer to go play tdy with cai n ian. i presume jh is out somewhere dg sth. hmm looking our dear franky makes me feel a lil guilty. why? cos he is apparently starting down the path of christianity, gg toi cell grp n all n here i am a back sliding christian who has not been to church for the past 1 yr n never belonged to a cell grp due to other commitments i.e. sailing at tt point of time. hmm. time to do some reflection n soul searching.
On to better things then. Sitting at the eunos kopi tiam with my milo peng n watching jh eat his supper while we ( cai n ian included) talked bout the past brought back fond memories. im sorry tt ppl thought u guys were me alright?! haha its not my fault. the topic of sizing up the ac asshole n chinese high fucker who were in the same class. =) the line of "when 2 guys met 3 guys n they got along" yeah! brotherhood forever! kk enough of the sappy stuff.
Been home alone this week end n hmm i have to say it aint all tt easy to stay alone. for starters dg ur own laundry n ironing is a bitch. considering the amt of clothes i bring back from camp each week. thanks mom. looking after the dog is also quite hard n sth which i have overlooked cos i normally wake up so damn late. washing the porch n front door of his pee at 1 in the morning definitely aint fun. but i still love my dog anyway. sleep has been restless these few days too. lots of stuff on my mind. life is quite messy now actually. n when i finally start to get some rest i get woken up at 8 in the morn due to banging drums n the lion dance troupe. some open piece of land near my place jus got redeveloped in to a park n i immediately recalled the sign i saw when i took my dog for a walk jus a few hrs earlier. "Opening of carpmeal rd park on the 28th of nov by MP mr chan soo sen" bloody fucker.
squire
more dota.. im such a dota whore.. but at least im using the hotkeys better now. using my 5000 HP lycantrophy or Chen or Demon Witch, im pretty decent lah.
still lousy but not that bad now..
laugh at me. but this means something to me at this point in time. snigger, but i'll get the last laugh. just let me get my heart of tarresque first ok?
bought jh's discman from lucky plaza today, funny how things work out today.
marche dinner and just watching people go by in town. went with greg to beach rd to sew on his 2nd sgt rank which was pretty cool. roof's on fire he says.
met mr stuart little.=]
i love my friends. its great to reminisce, then realize the times we live in now are to be cherished, not whined about cos it really aint that bad.
come on...we deduced that jc was fun!. but whilst we were there i bet we'd say otherwise.
i love my guitar too. i shall not let it turn to driftwood tho.
me and greg. and how far back we stretch. even the girls will see it as a daunting effort, getting between us. to think we can say decade already.
my com's a mess...cant find the driver to install my ABIT NF7 series motherboard. so if anyone's got the cd please! lend me k?....then can install my sound card and graphics card too!
i wrote my first meaningful poem few days ago. i must say i thought it was nice.. too bad it wasnt appreciated. and its lost in space now. i love limericks and alliterations...is it a fad? but i just kept hearing em today...
im quite a mean person if i wanna be i learn.
thats good so good lucks to people who try to fuck me up.
i ried to swindle the beach rd auntie, the lucky plaza discman seller, and got proj bloodbros to gimme a fucking refund for the torn shirt. amazing what a simple "im gonna complain to your HQ", can do.
everyweekend i got no mom and no dad.
means no money too. if anyone wanst to drop by please call and do so.
u get perks like free lunch and free interent access........i love my sis tho, the awolling bitch who loves me....but loves the boyfriend more.
thats why she's da bitch.
and to despondance and helplessness,
i hate to spell out what im thinking. just like i cant figure out what the hell you're thinking too.
im not THAT great to you, only to myself. u got 1600 for Sat man. thats the punchline.
sometimes i wish we werent so smart.
im sure simplicity has its plus points.
eat drink sleep fuck eat drink sleep fuck till you kick the bucket.
next generation repeat step one.
im really fine now.
dunno how to drill into you. INSignificant is me.
insecure is non existent and insipid describes me.
warning to all girls in the world.
im telling you honestly im a bad person.
wont bring anything but temporary happiness and eternal pain.
i will never admit this verbally, but if i ever talk to you or sms you. just ignore me for your own safety.
its the damn truth so quick.
save yourselves.
still lousy but not that bad now..
laugh at me. but this means something to me at this point in time. snigger, but i'll get the last laugh. just let me get my heart of tarresque first ok?
bought jh's discman from lucky plaza today, funny how things work out today.
marche dinner and just watching people go by in town. went with greg to beach rd to sew on his 2nd sgt rank which was pretty cool. roof's on fire he says.
met mr stuart little.=]
i love my friends. its great to reminisce, then realize the times we live in now are to be cherished, not whined about cos it really aint that bad.
come on...we deduced that jc was fun!. but whilst we were there i bet we'd say otherwise.
i love my guitar too. i shall not let it turn to driftwood tho.
me and greg. and how far back we stretch. even the girls will see it as a daunting effort, getting between us. to think we can say decade already.
my com's a mess...cant find the driver to install my ABIT NF7 series motherboard. so if anyone's got the cd please! lend me k?....then can install my sound card and graphics card too!
i wrote my first meaningful poem few days ago. i must say i thought it was nice.. too bad it wasnt appreciated. and its lost in space now. i love limericks and alliterations...is it a fad? but i just kept hearing em today...
im quite a mean person if i wanna be i learn.
thats good so good lucks to people who try to fuck me up.
i ried to swindle the beach rd auntie, the lucky plaza discman seller, and got proj bloodbros to gimme a fucking refund for the torn shirt. amazing what a simple "im gonna complain to your HQ", can do.
everyweekend i got no mom and no dad.
means no money too. if anyone wanst to drop by please call and do so.
u get perks like free lunch and free interent access........i love my sis tho, the awolling bitch who loves me....but loves the boyfriend more.
thats why she's da bitch.
and to despondance and helplessness,
i hate to spell out what im thinking. just like i cant figure out what the hell you're thinking too.
im not THAT great to you, only to myself. u got 1600 for Sat man. thats the punchline.
sometimes i wish we werent so smart.
im sure simplicity has its plus points.
eat drink sleep fuck eat drink sleep fuck till you kick the bucket.
next generation repeat step one.
im really fine now.
dunno how to drill into you. INSignificant is me.
insecure is non existent and insipid describes me.
warning to all girls in the world.
im telling you honestly im a bad person.
wont bring anything but temporary happiness and eternal pain.
i will never admit this verbally, but if i ever talk to you or sms you. just ignore me for your own safety.
its the damn truth so quick.
save yourselves.
best pals
thanks nelly for everything.
mark you're back! hope we're meeting up tmr..
thanks guys for dota!
btw, kris, wheres the email?!
mark you're back! hope we're meeting up tmr..
thanks guys for dota!
btw, kris, wheres the email?!
Monday, November 22, 2004
the ghost of you and me
it's amazing how i can keep up an imaginary conversation with her for such a long time now. i just sit there and think and think and different scenarios just play out in front of me. sometimes some images are temptingly real, even if i just close my eyes for a second. it breaks my heart and i wish so hard for time to move backwards. i can almost smell her hair and hear her laughter. but all that is gone now, and nothing will ever be the same. but then was it ever there in the first place?
it's kinda psychotic now, come to think of it. but when you miss someone so much, can you really blame me for this hallucination? i'm almost to the point where i say hello to her when i wake up, or touch her photo as though i would touch her face before going to sleep. i spend my time talking to her, picturing what she would answer. i remember the way her head tilts to the side or the way the wind catches her hair. The way the little laugh lines appear at the corners of her smile, or her gentle breath on my neck. tiniest things spark off the deepest of memories. and i had to ask her again, what did i do to have lost you?
she smiled and told me that maybe we weren't meant for each other.
no...wait,
she smiled and told me we were different.
or maybe...
she smiled and told me she had to fly off to somewhere else...
... or did she?
all i'm surviving on is the hope that she will release me from this spell soon, and that someone else will take her place. but for now i will continue to relive the moments - those wondrous and magical moments, over and over again. the days where i picked her up from work, the day where she lay on my lap as i watched her fall asleep under the stars in marina, and the day where we lay in bed the whole night and day, talking, laughing and falling in love.
time's always cruel, and the happiest of moments are gone in a whirlwind.
it's kinda psychotic now, come to think of it. but when you miss someone so much, can you really blame me for this hallucination? i'm almost to the point where i say hello to her when i wake up, or touch her photo as though i would touch her face before going to sleep. i spend my time talking to her, picturing what she would answer. i remember the way her head tilts to the side or the way the wind catches her hair. The way the little laugh lines appear at the corners of her smile, or her gentle breath on my neck. tiniest things spark off the deepest of memories. and i had to ask her again, what did i do to have lost you?
she smiled and told me that maybe we weren't meant for each other.
no...wait,
she smiled and told me we were different.
or maybe...
she smiled and told me she had to fly off to somewhere else...
... or did she?
all i'm surviving on is the hope that she will release me from this spell soon, and that someone else will take her place. but for now i will continue to relive the moments - those wondrous and magical moments, over and over again. the days where i picked her up from work, the day where she lay on my lap as i watched her fall asleep under the stars in marina, and the day where we lay in bed the whole night and day, talking, laughing and falling in love.
time's always cruel, and the happiest of moments are gone in a whirlwind.
Sunday, November 21, 2004
i second that
dota is damn addictive.. ah well..
anyways, went to ang mo kio med church with nelson today, was a totally different experience.. afterwards we went to ang mo kio library cos nel needs to research on some east timor stuff.. and i picked up this big pictorial - SINATRA. sat down there for 2 entire hours reading and LIVING through the amazing life of "the boy from hoboken". great read, nice pics, i think i'm sinatra reincarnate. heh.
went to orchard library to meet cai and i borrowed these 2 books. "how to start a franchise" and "franchising and investing". must start somewhere right? guess this is my start.
in lanshop now with shaun beside me, so glad hes here! haven't seen him for a week and i miss him so much! =o) bought some stuff from giant to last me my outfield, 6 nata de cocos, 2 cans of hot dogs and some batteries to eat, er i mean for my torchlight.
another time!
everyone turns to look at the door, as ol' blue eyes struts in. no one utters a word as he picks up the microphone and starts : and now, the end is near... the room erupts in applause. magic.
anyways, went to ang mo kio med church with nelson today, was a totally different experience.. afterwards we went to ang mo kio library cos nel needs to research on some east timor stuff.. and i picked up this big pictorial - SINATRA. sat down there for 2 entire hours reading and LIVING through the amazing life of "the boy from hoboken". great read, nice pics, i think i'm sinatra reincarnate. heh.
went to orchard library to meet cai and i borrowed these 2 books. "how to start a franchise" and "franchising and investing". must start somewhere right? guess this is my start.
in lanshop now with shaun beside me, so glad hes here! haven't seen him for a week and i miss him so much! =o) bought some stuff from giant to last me my outfield, 6 nata de cocos, 2 cans of hot dogs and some batteries to eat, er i mean for my torchlight.
another time!
everyone turns to look at the door, as ol' blue eyes struts in. no one utters a word as he picks up the microphone and starts : and now, the end is near... the room erupts in applause. magic.
DOTA ALLSTARS
playing this game is more dangerous than clubbing man.
i shall not play anymore.
i will get my life back on track.
sigh..im addicted to a game i suck at.
amazing.
this month is spending month man.
im using my computer
it has no graphics card no sound no nothing
only internet.
buy new hard drive also got so many problem. wth.
i wanna learn sth new.
add spice to my life.
not in a bgr or thrills way.
but in a improvement way..
im sorry im not helping the situation
i dunno how to.
being frank never helped.
being "correct" never came across as sincere.
whats going on. you tell me.
the truth is the truth.
facing it is the hard part.
i just wanna know.
didnt know being friends could be so hard.
AMAZING.
oh well, nothings really too bad here really.
just need to iron out my life.
i'll live another day.
toodles
i shall not play anymore.
i will get my life back on track.
sigh..im addicted to a game i suck at.
amazing.
this month is spending month man.
im using my computer
it has no graphics card no sound no nothing
only internet.
buy new hard drive also got so many problem. wth.
i wanna learn sth new.
add spice to my life.
not in a bgr or thrills way.
but in a improvement way..
im sorry im not helping the situation
i dunno how to.
being frank never helped.
being "correct" never came across as sincere.
whats going on. you tell me.
the truth is the truth.
facing it is the hard part.
i just wanna know.
didnt know being friends could be so hard.
AMAZING.
oh well, nothings really too bad here really.
just need to iron out my life.
i'll live another day.
toodles
Saturday, November 20, 2004
hello hello
guys so sorry i'm just so off these days.
no zouk for me, no zoukout for me, no rasa sentosa.
just dota would suffice. i mean, its time i stopped doing all these clubbing nonsense. high time.
btw, happy birthday calvin !
cai you know what? i think you should stop being a bastard and just go. =o) believe me, its true. its true.
no zouk for me, no zoukout for me, no rasa sentosa.
just dota would suffice. i mean, its time i stopped doing all these clubbing nonsense. high time.
btw, happy birthday calvin !
cai you know what? i think you should stop being a bastard and just go. =o) believe me, its true. its true.
Thursday, November 18, 2004
bloody pooter.
dear god.
its weiguo here. im hot. im bored. i need my friends.
please shine on me.
to those having exams, make it quick.
to those overseas, make it quick.
to those in camp, make it quick.
its weiguo here. im hot. im bored. i need my friends.
please shine on me.
to those having exams, make it quick.
to those overseas, make it quick.
to those in camp, make it quick.
Monday, November 15, 2004
nothing much
i'm in a dilemma. i can't really remember what i wanna post, but i really wanna post, so i'll just post anyway. hopefully along the way, i'll pick up what i can't remember.
these 5 days have been great really. feels like i've ORDed already. haha. it's so carefree. no worrying about anything related to army at all. awesome. on top of that, i had a preview to life in SMU. and i'm already looking forward to it. although my parents will wanna say something about that. they're pushing me to go to the States, as usual but it's just so troublesome. what essays, what testimonials, what's not what everything. it's like just an ultimate turn-off. if the applications are as easy and simple as ABC, trust me, i'll be halfway there already. honestly, it's gonna be a heck of an experience abroad i know it! but i'm just that laid back. maybe my parents are right. i am the bane of my own future. oh well. we'll see.
i'm just watching the 'top model' show on tv now, and it's like, the italian guys are so smooth. like they're like naturals in picking up pple. haha maybe i can learn something from them eh? yeah. i need lessons.
anyway this break have been well spent i guess. finally bought my computer. went to sentosa and was lucky enough to be caught in the sunny part of the day! and acquire 3 albums: U2:best of 1980-1990, songs about jane and some japanese girl doing bossanova. i'm just pretty upset that my shoe was sold out. tsk. this shoe i had my eyes on for awhile in 'substance' at the wheelock. 169. it was like, orangy brownish with the ziggy-zag velcro fastener thing. i would've bought it. sigh. yeah.
anyway, i feel quite proud of myself that i haven't gone near a club for 3 weeks. it's just that clubbing's losing it for me. just like mambo jambo lost it for me last time. i hate phuture wednesdays. the feeling of squeezing is just so irritating. as irritating as people who force their way into the trains while u're trying to get off. as irritating as people who block the whole escalator by standing in the middle. yeah. makes me feel like wanting to tell them to foff. but i shall not since it's not my style. oh well, hrm guess the next time i'll be partying is at zouk out, at least if i feel like i'm being sardinised i can chill out at one corner of the beach. anyway i'll be hanging at the RnB side. find me there k? or u can find me in rasa sentosa for the after party. my after party? ;)
alright, i'm out. till next time. ian.
these 5 days have been great really. feels like i've ORDed already. haha. it's so carefree. no worrying about anything related to army at all. awesome. on top of that, i had a preview to life in SMU. and i'm already looking forward to it. although my parents will wanna say something about that. they're pushing me to go to the States, as usual but it's just so troublesome. what essays, what testimonials, what's not what everything. it's like just an ultimate turn-off. if the applications are as easy and simple as ABC, trust me, i'll be halfway there already. honestly, it's gonna be a heck of an experience abroad i know it! but i'm just that laid back. maybe my parents are right. i am the bane of my own future. oh well. we'll see.
i'm just watching the 'top model' show on tv now, and it's like, the italian guys are so smooth. like they're like naturals in picking up pple. haha maybe i can learn something from them eh? yeah. i need lessons.
anyway this break have been well spent i guess. finally bought my computer. went to sentosa and was lucky enough to be caught in the sunny part of the day! and acquire 3 albums: U2:best of 1980-1990, songs about jane and some japanese girl doing bossanova. i'm just pretty upset that my shoe was sold out. tsk. this shoe i had my eyes on for awhile in 'substance' at the wheelock. 169. it was like, orangy brownish with the ziggy-zag velcro fastener thing. i would've bought it. sigh. yeah.
anyway, i feel quite proud of myself that i haven't gone near a club for 3 weeks. it's just that clubbing's losing it for me. just like mambo jambo lost it for me last time. i hate phuture wednesdays. the feeling of squeezing is just so irritating. as irritating as people who force their way into the trains while u're trying to get off. as irritating as people who block the whole escalator by standing in the middle. yeah. makes me feel like wanting to tell them to foff. but i shall not since it's not my style. oh well, hrm guess the next time i'll be partying is at zouk out, at least if i feel like i'm being sardinised i can chill out at one corner of the beach. anyway i'll be hanging at the RnB side. find me there k? or u can find me in rasa sentosa for the after party. my after party? ;)
alright, i'm out. till next time. ian.
grand plans.
okay guys, greg ian shaun jianny lau cai.
no obligations.
gift cost between 40-60.
pref above 50.
we'll pick from a hat during christmas period when we meet.
hows that?. cai greg ian and jh on already.
pee can buy ffxi as his gift if got discount.
lau can reply when he's back from mounting.
claire sorry u cant cos im buying boxers.
and jianny's buying guys shoes from aldo.
ahahha...
zoukout. rasa sentosa settled.
we need to get tics.
come dec we go.
no obligations.
gift cost between 40-60.
pref above 50.
we'll pick from a hat during christmas period when we meet.
hows that?. cai greg ian and jh on already.
pee can buy ffxi as his gift if got discount.
lau can reply when he's back from mounting.
claire sorry u cant cos im buying boxers.
and jianny's buying guys shoes from aldo.
ahahha...
zoukout. rasa sentosa settled.
we need to get tics.
come dec we go.
Sunday, November 14, 2004
saturday.
today was fun..
went to smu for the nsmen jamboree thing and it was quite informative. really hope i'll end up in smu next year.. sigh. double degree in business and economics. golf. wakeboarding. enticing. very.
anyways, afterwhich gay partners ian and me went to millenia walk to search for that elusive jitterbugs. walked up and down, right and left, inside out until we know every nook and cranny of harvey norman, and we STILL could not find the escalator that leads to the 3rd level millenia walk! bet you guys didn't know theres a third level in millenia walk right....i don't blame you. even the security guard doesn't. anyways, we managed to keep walking up and passing thru corriders and corriders.. we reached jitterbugs at last. but it was closed. 7pm closing on weekends. argh. no matter. at least we got there..
spent an entire night and an entire 8 bucks dotA-ing again. FUN! i'm really beginning to enjoy dota now.. heh. poor shaun the DOO, couldn't join us. condolences.
its sentosa day tmr! cai me ian + greg and shaun hopefully. doesn't matter. if you bastards can't make it, me the caipo and sandking can do without u both. i'm bringing the mat.. cai drinks.. ian.. babes? yes please!! no la, don't need babes. babes are trouble.
went to smu for the nsmen jamboree thing and it was quite informative. really hope i'll end up in smu next year.. sigh. double degree in business and economics. golf. wakeboarding. enticing. very.
anyways, afterwhich gay partners ian and me went to millenia walk to search for that elusive jitterbugs. walked up and down, right and left, inside out until we know every nook and cranny of harvey norman, and we STILL could not find the escalator that leads to the 3rd level millenia walk! bet you guys didn't know theres a third level in millenia walk right....i don't blame you. even the security guard doesn't. anyways, we managed to keep walking up and passing thru corriders and corriders.. we reached jitterbugs at last. but it was closed. 7pm closing on weekends. argh. no matter. at least we got there..
spent an entire night and an entire 8 bucks dotA-ing again. FUN! i'm really beginning to enjoy dota now.. heh. poor shaun the DOO, couldn't join us. condolences.
its sentosa day tmr! cai me ian + greg and shaun hopefully. doesn't matter. if you bastards can't make it, me the caipo and sandking can do without u both. i'm bringing the mat.. cai drinks.. ian.. babes? yes please!! no la, don't need babes. babes are trouble.
Saturday, November 13, 2004
alittle advice...
"peepeedog the pond scum - Duty Orderly Officer says:
it's not about fixing, rather it's about compatibility"
that sentence was a reply to cai on how come my warcraft doesn't work on my com. And he pointed out that that was rather good BGR relationship advice. Sharp isn't he? Alright everyone copy this down, one more rejection-cum-break-up line always helps.
its been awhile eh?
hallo..
before i begin my post after such a long hiatus, i need to bitch.
FUCKING CHEEBYE PUBLIC TRANSPORT.
i hate buses, cabs and trains.
i fucking hate public transport.
all buses will kenna punctured tyres, all trains will derail into LTA building and all cab drivers will die of SARS tmr.
okay.
jianny - i love you... not clemm
greg - yyou're still the best k...thanks for letting me unload on you.[i like the sound of that]
ian - dont get so easily pissed over a game, tho i still love you.
shaun - where's shaun?. come back from australia!?
lau - u da man. everybody loves lau. and my FUCKING project blood bros shirt got lobang.
claire - relax k?. now i need to do that too. the caipo's slipping off the slippery chee kueh
nicole - now i know who you.=]
who else visits the blog.?
remember all, [whisperintoyourears] public transport sucks. shhh.
before i begin my post after such a long hiatus, i need to bitch.
FUCKING CHEEBYE PUBLIC TRANSPORT.
i hate buses, cabs and trains.
i fucking hate public transport.
all buses will kenna punctured tyres, all trains will derail into LTA building and all cab drivers will die of SARS tmr.
okay.
jianny - i love you... not clemm
greg - yyou're still the best k...thanks for letting me unload on you.[i like the sound of that]
ian - dont get so easily pissed over a game, tho i still love you.
shaun - where's shaun?. come back from australia!?
lau - u da man. everybody loves lau. and my FUCKING project blood bros shirt got lobang.
claire - relax k?. now i need to do that too. the caipo's slipping off the slippery chee kueh
nicole - now i know who you.=]
who else visits the blog.?
remember all, [whisperintoyourears] public transport sucks. shhh.
Friday, November 12, 2004
freak
i have this dreadful habit nowadays.
i get such a kick from throwing things. old mags old books old clothes, i just spent 2 days, 2 whole days clearing ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the junk from my room. sheesh i found back a lot of stuff i deemed lost, and i read through lotsa old letters and cards and testimonials! remember those books where we passed around the class last time? and everyone would write their biodata and a short message, footnote whatever.. and perhaps some photos or NEOPRINTS!
fun.
anyways its just in preparation for moving house. i really wanna move. hate my present place. bad memories to the core and i wish to get out. dammit. really get out. sheesh my parents are so indecisive. first waterina, then waterplace, then now astoria park? i like waterplace the best, but its gonna strain a bit financially so i guess astoria would be better.. and its nearer to ian, and shaun too.
this is a hate mail.
i hate 2004. really, can't wait for this bloody year to end.
anyways, its me at the lanshop again.. again?! i've been here everynight. religiously. gosh i could be a major shareholder. DOTA is the game, drow ranger is the hero, and buriza do kynon is the weapon.
i get such a kick from throwing things. old mags old books old clothes, i just spent 2 days, 2 whole days clearing ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the junk from my room. sheesh i found back a lot of stuff i deemed lost, and i read through lotsa old letters and cards and testimonials! remember those books where we passed around the class last time? and everyone would write their biodata and a short message, footnote whatever.. and perhaps some photos or NEOPRINTS!
fun.
anyways its just in preparation for moving house. i really wanna move. hate my present place. bad memories to the core and i wish to get out. dammit. really get out. sheesh my parents are so indecisive. first waterina, then waterplace, then now astoria park? i like waterplace the best, but its gonna strain a bit financially so i guess astoria would be better.. and its nearer to ian, and shaun too.
this is a hate mail.
i hate 2004. really, can't wait for this bloody year to end.
anyways, its me at the lanshop again.. again?! i've been here everynight. religiously. gosh i could be a major shareholder. DOTA is the game, drow ranger is the hero, and buriza do kynon is the weapon.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
busy with ian.
fun. me ian shaun are at ian's place making up his comp after a hard day's shopping at simlim. i think shaun knows what hes doing but i don't so i think i should just keep my hands to the keyboard...
tribute to my friends.
mark: sigh i wish you were back, you're my stabliser.
cai: outfield sucks i know, have stuff to tell you. if you see this before i talk to you, call me..
ian and shaun: [TEG] the east gang. unfailing, stauchly loyal. can't have better than them.
julia: toddler-chewing-monstrous-creature. wish i could marry you but you'll eat the kids so i don't think so...
claire: when you told me you wanted to come back immediately, i was like 'crazy girl'.. you're the best!
tango-babe: hey ! surprised i added you here? haha tango's something to look forward to, so why not?! anyways, you wanna get membership ? it'll be 50 bucks cheaper for the course, i checked.
the loneliness of paris, seems somehow sadly gay. the glory that was rome, is of another day. i've been terribly alone, and forgotten in manhattan. i'm going home, to my city by the bay..
tribute to my friends.
mark: sigh i wish you were back, you're my stabliser.
cai: outfield sucks i know, have stuff to tell you. if you see this before i talk to you, call me..
ian and shaun: [TEG] the east gang. unfailing, stauchly loyal. can't have better than them.
julia: toddler-chewing-monstrous-creature. wish i could marry you but you'll eat the kids so i don't think so...
claire: when you told me you wanted to come back immediately, i was like 'crazy girl'.. you're the best!
tango-babe: hey ! surprised i added you here? haha tango's something to look forward to, so why not?! anyways, you wanna get membership ? it'll be 50 bucks cheaper for the course, i checked.
the loneliness of paris, seems somehow sadly gay. the glory that was rome, is of another day. i've been terribly alone, and forgotten in manhattan. i'm going home, to my city by the bay..
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
courage to change the things i can.
and wisdom to know the difference.
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
things are looking up.
thank you guys.
anyways. its been a really long time since i posted. where have i been ?
hmm its been a long time since i enlisted. (wth am i talking about?) 21 jan 2003. bmt. mark seow. sad life. 8.57 for soc. 9.45 for 2.4. 10 nov 2004. 3 more months to clear leave. its been a long time, indeed.
12 dec 2004. start of tango lessons. a kind soul has agreed to learn tango with me! haha at jitterbugs. no more gay inclinations with lau for salsa. no more! can't wait for that to start really..
cherish the everyday.
anyways. its been a really long time since i posted. where have i been ?
hmm its been a long time since i enlisted. (wth am i talking about?) 21 jan 2003. bmt. mark seow. sad life. 8.57 for soc. 9.45 for 2.4. 10 nov 2004. 3 more months to clear leave. its been a long time, indeed.
12 dec 2004. start of tango lessons. a kind soul has agreed to learn tango with me! haha at jitterbugs. no more gay inclinations with lau for salsa. no more! can't wait for that to start really..
cherish the everyday.
Monday, November 08, 2004
moomoo
hellooo, it's me again. posting live from home.
anyway, today i had a short shop/chill out/movie day with the guys. the brady bunch as a friend calls us. hurhur. bought a funky pair o white flipflops from projectshop. it was like at first sight. 15 bucks! what a steal! mmm, hope it doesn't turn out to be another scratching post for the cats, like my other flipflops (4 and counting). sigh. all those poor flipflops.
aft that, we caught sky capt. finally. it wasn't so bad. sure the jokes were corny and the show was unrealistic but we enjoyed it. and ms. paltrow sure was one sexaye mama. i'm starting to think that gwyneth-types are the kind that melts my heart. aww. she has the looks that seem to grow on you. like the type u'd never get bored looking at every single day. yeah. some guys love big boobs, some guys love big asses, some guys love legs. i have ms. paltrow.... and maggie (Q and cheong). something about these ladies that tickles my heart. gotta find out.
righty, time for me to hit the sack coz tomorrow i gotta go back. till the next time. ciaooo.
anyway, today i had a short shop/chill out/movie day with the guys. the brady bunch as a friend calls us. hurhur. bought a funky pair o white flipflops from projectshop. it was like at first sight. 15 bucks! what a steal! mmm, hope it doesn't turn out to be another scratching post for the cats, like my other flipflops (4 and counting). sigh. all those poor flipflops.
aft that, we caught sky capt. finally. it wasn't so bad. sure the jokes were corny and the show was unrealistic but we enjoyed it. and ms. paltrow sure was one sexaye mama. i'm starting to think that gwyneth-types are the kind that melts my heart. aww. she has the looks that seem to grow on you. like the type u'd never get bored looking at every single day. yeah. some guys love big boobs, some guys love big asses, some guys love legs. i have ms. paltrow.... and maggie (Q and cheong). something about these ladies that tickles my heart. gotta find out.
righty, time for me to hit the sack coz tomorrow i gotta go back. till the next time. ciaooo.
Sunday, November 07, 2004
mmmm
something's wrong today. i can't quite figure what. maybe i'm just tired.
stepped out feeling pretty upbeat about another night with the guys. cai greg jh. went again for lan. getting pretty predictable my weekend nights. heh. got there, managed to squeeze to the seat beside greg. wholehearted clicking began. click click click. click click click. mmmm, click click click. the game started to move really slowly. as in like boring. just didn't feel like playing anymore. for the record, the game lasted an hour(sloooooow). to make things worse, enter Le Strangers. well, don't know if jh knows them or what but i don't. being my regular anti-social self, the presence of Le Strangers was, at best, disturbing. but hey, by popular demand, voila, i found my lil critter hacking and slashing at Gp_x & co(Le Strangers). not that i disliked them, i was just, anti-social. i was more than glad when 'Mr. Body Beautiful'(the lan shop assistant was a contestant in some pageant or what shit.) told us he was closing the place in 5 min. i thought the wrongs were finally righted! but hey, i reached home to find something amiss. my cap's in the shop. i'm like, WTF! now i gotta go get it back. oh sigh. maybe i'm just bored of games. maybe i just wanna chill, in town or what. maybe coz shaun's not there with his crap. mmm, maybe i'm just tired. alright, i shall end my misery now then. goodbye, cruel world! hello, mmm comfy bed...
PS: eugene, i really didn't mind watching a movie, but it's difficult when it's just u and me. sorry dude. we'll meet up later in the afternoon, k? gimme, jh, shaun or cai a call. i wanna hang in town.
and liverpool had to lose at home to, of all teams, birmingham. like WTF! x2.
stepped out feeling pretty upbeat about another night with the guys. cai greg jh. went again for lan. getting pretty predictable my weekend nights. heh. got there, managed to squeeze to the seat beside greg. wholehearted clicking began. click click click. click click click. mmmm, click click click. the game started to move really slowly. as in like boring. just didn't feel like playing anymore. for the record, the game lasted an hour(sloooooow). to make things worse, enter Le Strangers. well, don't know if jh knows them or what but i don't. being my regular anti-social self, the presence of Le Strangers was, at best, disturbing. but hey, by popular demand, voila, i found my lil critter hacking and slashing at Gp_x & co(Le Strangers). not that i disliked them, i was just, anti-social. i was more than glad when 'Mr. Body Beautiful'(the lan shop assistant was a contestant in some pageant or what shit.) told us he was closing the place in 5 min. i thought the wrongs were finally righted! but hey, i reached home to find something amiss. my cap's in the shop. i'm like, WTF! now i gotta go get it back. oh sigh. maybe i'm just bored of games. maybe i just wanna chill, in town or what. maybe coz shaun's not there with his crap. mmm, maybe i'm just tired. alright, i shall end my misery now then. goodbye, cruel world! hello, mmm comfy bed...
PS: eugene, i really didn't mind watching a movie, but it's difficult when it's just u and me. sorry dude. we'll meet up later in the afternoon, k? gimme, jh, shaun or cai a call. i wanna hang in town.
and liverpool had to lose at home to, of all teams, birmingham. like WTF! x2.
Saturday, November 06, 2004
freedom
another week out of camp. wooweeee. finally and i only have one day out. how short. but i do have 6 days of break next week! wed night ---> tuesday afternoon! oooh yeah. anyone free then?
mmm, i don't care that it costs a thousand bucks. i don't care that it's fat. i don't care that it's only 1.3 megapixels! it's been bought and i like it. and so all u pple can just stop telling me that it's overpriced. ;)
alright, just a short entry. havta go meet the gang now. later!
mmm, i don't care that it costs a thousand bucks. i don't care that it's fat. i don't care that it's only 1.3 megapixels! it's been bought and i like it. and so all u pple can just stop telling me that it's overpriced. ;)
alright, just a short entry. havta go meet the gang now. later!
Monday, November 01, 2004
incoherent, semi-intelligent ramblings
october's passing brings back sweet november. what's so sweet about november you say? means december's coming. xmas. 2005. ORD. SMU. 21. yadayada.
parents' been bugging about whether i'm applying for US studies. mmm, i don't really think so. but truth is, i really wanna go! well, i would if u move everything i have here, to there. it's just like you're in your comfort zone here on the red dot. but u don't wanna be confined to this red dot. u wanna go out and see the world but you're afraid to lose this comfort zone and everything u have in it. you're afraid to have to start anew. you're afraid u can't adapt and will have to come crawling back to this red dot, only to find that there's nothing here left for u. and there's nothing there either. and u have NOTHING. but of coz, it's not so drastic. it'll not be.
i believe it won't be. u'll never have nothing. when you're at your lowest, don't look down in despair. look up, look around. u'll see your family, your friends. look forward. u'll see your future. along the way, they will be with u, helping u to stand up, to walk and to complete the path before u. we must not give up. for hope springs endless possibilities and faith brings the resolve to realise them.
mmm, confused yet? that's ian's chain of thought for u. for now, for me, it's just november. sweet sweet november.
parents' been bugging about whether i'm applying for US studies. mmm, i don't really think so. but truth is, i really wanna go! well, i would if u move everything i have here, to there. it's just like you're in your comfort zone here on the red dot. but u don't wanna be confined to this red dot. u wanna go out and see the world but you're afraid to lose this comfort zone and everything u have in it. you're afraid to have to start anew. you're afraid u can't adapt and will have to come crawling back to this red dot, only to find that there's nothing here left for u. and there's nothing there either. and u have NOTHING. but of coz, it's not so drastic. it'll not be.
i believe it won't be. u'll never have nothing. when you're at your lowest, don't look down in despair. look up, look around. u'll see your family, your friends. look forward. u'll see your future. along the way, they will be with u, helping u to stand up, to walk and to complete the path before u. we must not give up. for hope springs endless possibilities and faith brings the resolve to realise them.
mmm, confused yet? that's ian's chain of thought for u. for now, for me, it's just november. sweet sweet november.
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