incoherent, semi-intelligent ramblings

october's passing brings back sweet november. what's so sweet about november you say? means december's coming. xmas. 2005. ORD. SMU. 21. yadayada.

parents' been bugging about whether i'm applying for US studies. mmm, i don't really think so. but truth is, i really wanna go! well, i would if u move everything i have here, to there. it's just like you're in your comfort zone here on the red dot. but u don't wanna be confined to this red dot. u wanna go out and see the world but you're afraid to lose this comfort zone and everything u have in it. you're afraid to have to start anew. you're afraid u can't adapt and will have to come crawling back to this red dot, only to find that there's nothing here left for u. and there's nothing there either. and u have NOTHING. but of coz, it's not so drastic. it'll not be.

i believe it won't be. u'll never have nothing. when you're at your lowest, don't look down in despair. look up, look around. u'll see your family, your friends. look forward. u'll see your future. along the way, they will be with u, helping u to stand up, to walk and to complete the path before u. we must not give up. for hope springs endless possibilities and faith brings the resolve to realise them.

mmm, confused yet? that's ian's chain of thought for u. for now, for me, it's just november. sweet sweet november.