humdrum

1st of all let's welcome back our prodigal son from taiwan. Mr. STYX. why STYX? cos he's Shaun Tan Yu Xun. yay. due to be back anytime in the next 24hrs. what about dear sim jh? well, he's gone at least for 5 more days. so till then, The East Gang(TEG) shall stand depleted.

fyi, TEG is something started by styx, jh and me back in jc2. haha, started out as a mini clan for us while we played warcraft3 extensively DURING our prelims. or was it jc1 during promos? hmm, it's real fuzzy for me now but i remember it was during some major exam period. cos all of us lived in a small 1km radius of each other(me at Jalan Ishak, jh at Lorong Sarina and shaun happily at Lorong G), it was just natural for us to be gay and form a team. we were regulars at the now defunct GALAXY lanshop, Eunos Kopitiam(aptly called KPT) and Kim San Leng(another place similar to KPT). eventually, we broadened our circle and added in cai and greg cos lo and behold! they lived in the east as well! cai at East Coast and greg at Ceylon Road near our dear President. so the 5 of us eventually became known as the current TEG. we're usually spotted at parkway. loitering, sometimes playing pool but most of the time just DOTA-ing our lives away. 3-4 yrs down the road and somehow TEG's back at warcraft3. tsk tsk. good things always come back to you. somehow or rather. i know to alot of you readers out there, what i've just said would be absolute Greek but stand in the comfort that you are not alone. and so is the history of TEG. oh yes, TEG is but a small piece of cyberpark. as for cyberpark's history well, it's beyond even me. i hope that helped to shed some light on this shady group.

ok, back to what i was supposed to say. well something rather just occurred to me today. although it seems like maybe some of you have known for an eternity, that it's rather difficult that guys and girls have platonic relationship somehow. don't you think? i don't know but somehow or rather, there's always some string attached somewhere. if there's no string, there's no relationship, or rather there's just maybe hi bye kinda friends. light chatter kinda stuff. it's hard to meet a girl/guy who's willing to sit down and just talk or go out or play or whatever just simply because you're friends. it's not impossible, it's just very difficult. somehow someway, one side is always leaning onto hopes that the relation may turn out not so platonic. isn't that true? think about your relationships with the other side, if he/she can ask u out fine and dandy for anything at all, and you'd have no qualms about saying yes(provided you don't have an other half), do you have any personal motive? can u really just treat him/her as a good friend? and have him/her treat you back just the same?

having said that, think about this situation for awhile: a person(A) could be very eager in asking someone out, to get to know him/her(B) better. B might not be as keen or interested initially but after some time, B becomes increasing smitten with A(for whatever A has done, intentionally or unintentionally). but A may not be heading in that direction and mistakenly B thinks A is just playing around when A is just actually looking for a platonic relationship. think about it. was there anytime you were A? or were you B? sometimes when you're in this situation(esp B), you can't help but think the worst but sometimes, it's just a case of mistaken intentions. so whatever the situation, A or B should never shy away from each other cos if things go well, who knows what'll happen. if things go bad, hey, at least you still have a friendship.

my my, this is such a long post! ok, to end it off, i'll just say that it's difficult for people to express what feel and awkward too in that sense, to verbalise their emotions in such a way. so in that case, just let things flow. if it's meant to be, then it will surely be. don't force the way for it might turn out worse. for matters of the heart cannot be forced.